Chapter 1
In my younger and more vulnerable years my father gave me
some advice that I’ve been turning over in my mind ever since.
“Whenever you feel like criticizing any one,” he told me,
“just remember that all the people in this world haven’t had the advantages
that you’ve had.”
He didn’t say any more, but we’ve always been unusually
communicative in a reserved way, and I understood that he meant a great deal
more than that. In consequence, I’m inclined to reserve all judgments, a habit
that has opened up many curious natures to me and also made me the victim of
not a few veteran bores. The abnormal mind is quick to detect and attach itself
to this quality when it appears in a normal person, and so it came about that
in college I was unjustly accused of being a politician, because I was privy to
the secret griefs of wild, unknown men. Most of the confidences were unsought —
frequently I have feigned sleep, preoccupation, or a hostile levity when I
realized by some unmistakable sign that an intimate revelation was quivering on
the horizon; for the intimate revelations of young men, or at least the terms
in which they express them, are usually plagiaristic and marred by obvious
suppressions. Reserving judgments is a matter of infinite hope. I am still a
little afraid of missing something if I forget that, as my father snobbishly
suggested, and I snobbishly repeat, a sense of the fundamental decencies is
parcelled out unequally at birth.
And, after boasting this way of my tolerance, I come to the
admission that it has a limit. Conduct may be founded on the hard rock or the
wet marshes, but after a certain point I don’t care what it’s founded on. When
I came back from the East last autumn I felt that I wanted the world to be in
uniform and at a sort of moral attention forever; I wanted no more riotous
excursions with privileged glimpses into the human heart. Only Gatsby, the man
who gives his name to this book, was exempt from my reaction — Gatsby, who
represented everything for which I have an unaffected scorn. If personality is
an unbroken series of successful gestures, then there was something gorgeous
about him, some heightened sensitivity to the promises of life, as if he were
related to one of those intricate machines that register earthquakes ten
thousand miles away. This responsiveness had nothing to do with that flabby
impressionability which is dignified under the name of the “creative
temperament.”— it was an extraordinary gift for hope, a romantic readiness such
as I have never found in any other person and which it is not likely I shall
ever find again. No — Gatsby turned out all right at the end; it is what preyed
on Gatsby, what foul dust floated in the wake of his dreams that temporarily
closed out my interest in the abortive sorrows and short-winded elations of
men.
My family have been prominent, well-to-do people in this
Middle Western city for three generations. The Carraways are something of a
clan, and we have a tradition that we’re descended from the Dukes of Buccleuch,
but the actual founder of my line was my grandfather’s brother, who came here
in fifty-one, sent a substitute to the Civil War, and started the wholesale
hardware business that my father carries on to-day.
I never saw this great-uncle, but I’m supposed to look like
him — with special reference to the rather hard-boiled painting that hangs in
father’s office I graduated from New Haven in 1915, just a quarter of a century
after my father, and a little later I participated in that delayed Teutonic
migration known as the Great War. I enjoyed the counter-raid so thoroughly that
I came back restless. Instead of being the warm centre of the world, the Middle
West now seemed like the ragged edge of the universe — so I decided to go East
and learn the bond business. Everybody I knew was in the bond business, so I
supposed it could support one more single man. All my aunts and uncles talked
it over as if they were choosing a prep school for me, and finally said, “Why —
ye — es,” with very grave, hesitant faces. Father agreed to finance me for a
year, and after various delays I came East, permanently, I thought, in the
spring of twenty-two.
The practical thing was to find rooms in the city, but it
was a warm season, and I had just left a country of wide lawns and friendly
trees, so when a young man at the office suggested that we take a house
together in a commuting town, it sounded like a great idea. He found the house,
a weather-beaten cardboard bungalow at eighty a month, but at the last minute
the firm ordered him to Washington, and I went out to the country alone. I had
a dog — at least I had him for a few days until he ran away — and an old Dodge
and a Finnish woman, who made my bed and cooked breakfast and muttered Finnish
wisdom to herself over the electric stove.
It was lonely for a day or so until one morning some man, more
recently arrived than I, stopped me on the road.
“How do you get to West Egg village?” he asked helplessly.
I told him. And as I walked on I was lonely no longer. I was
a guide, a pathfinder, an original settler. He had casually conferred on me the
freedom of the neighborhood.
And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves
growing on the trees, just as things grow in fast movies, I had that familiar
conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer.
There was so much to read, for one thing, and so much fine
health to be pulled down out of the young breath-giving air. I bought a dozen
volumes on banking and credit and investment securities, and they stood on my
shelf in red and gold like new money from the mint, promising to unfold the
shining secrets that only Midas and Morgan and Maecenas knew. And I had the
high intention of reading many other books besides. I was rather literary in
college — one year I wrote a series of very solemn and obvious editorials for
the “Yale News.”— and now I was going to bring back all such things into my
life and become again that most limited of all specialists, the “well-rounded
man.” This isn’t just an epigram — life is much more successfully looked at
from a single window, after all.
It was a matter of chance that I should have rented a house
in one of the strangest communities in North America. It was on that slender
riotous island which extends itself due east of New York — and where there are,
among other natural curiosities, two unusual formations of land. Twenty miles
from the city a pair of enormous eggs, identical in contour and separated only
by a courtesy bay, jut out into the most domesticated body of salt water in the
Western hemisphere, the great wet barnyard of Long Island Sound. They are not
perfect ovals — like the egg in the Columbus story, they are both crushed flat
at the contact end — but their physical resemblance must be a source of
perpetual confusion to the gulls that fly overhead. To the wingless a more
arresting phenomenon is their dissimilarity in every particular except shape
and size.
I lived at West Egg, the — well, the less fashionable of the
two, though this is a most superficial tag to express the bizarre and not a
little sinister contrast between them. My house was at the very tip of the egg,
only fifty yards from the Sound, and squeezed between two huge places that
rented for twelve or fifteen thousand a season. The one on my right was a
colossal affair by any standard — it was a factual imitation of some Hotel de
Ville in Normandy, with a tower on one side, spanking new under a thin beard of
raw ivy, and a marble swimming pool, and more than forty acres of lawn and
garden. It was Gatsby’s mansion. Or, rather, as I didn’t know Mr. Gatsby, it
was a mansion inhabited by a gentleman of that name. My own house was an
eyesore, but it was a small eyesore, and it had been overlooked, so I had a
view of the water, a partial view of my neighbor’s lawn, and the consoling
proximity of millionaires — all for eighty dollars a month.
Across the courtesy bay the white palaces of fashionable
East Egg glittered along the water, and the history of the summer really begins
on the evening I drove over there to have dinner with the Tom Buchanans. Daisy
was my second cousin once removed, and I’d known Tom in college. And just after
the war I spent two days with them in Chicago.
Her husband, among various physical accomplishments, had
been one of the most powerful ends that ever played football at New Haven — a
national figure in a way, one of those men who reach such an acute limited
excellence at twenty-one that everything afterward savors of anti-climax. His
family were enormously wealthy — even in college his freedom with money was a
matter for reproach — but now he’d left Chicago and come East in a fashion that
rather took your breath away: for instance, he’d brought down a string of polo
ponies from Lake Forest. It was hard to realize that a man in my own generation
was wealthy enough to do that.
Why they came East I don’t know. They had spent a year in
France for no particular reason, and then drifted here and there unrestfully
wherever people played polo and were rich together. This was a permanent move,
said Daisy over the telephone, but I didn’t believe it — I had no sight into
Daisy’s heart, but I felt that Tom would drift on forever seeking, a little
wistfully, for the dramatic turbulence of some irrecoverable football game.
And so it happened that on a warm windy evening I drove over
to East Egg to see two old friends whom I scarcely knew at all. Their house was
even more elaborate than I expected, a cheerful red-and-white Georgian Colonial
mansion, overlooking the bay. The lawn started at the beach and ran toward the
front door for a quarter of a mile, jumping over sun-dials and brick walks and
burning gardens — finally when it reached the house drifting up the side in
bright vines as though from the momentum of its run. The front was broken by a
line of French windows, glowing now with reflected gold and wide open to the
warm windy afternoon, and Tom Buchanan in riding clothes was standing with his
legs apart on the front porch.
He had changed since his New Haven years. Now he was a
sturdy straw-haired man of thirty with a rather hard mouth and a supercilious
manner. Two shining arrogant eyes had established dominance over his face and
gave him the appearance of always leaning aggressively forward. Not even the
effeminate swank of his riding clothes could hide the enormous power of that
body — he seemed to fill those glistening boots until he strained the top
lacing, and you could see a great pack of muscle shifting when his shoulder
moved under his thin coat. It was a body capable of enormous leverage — a cruel
body.
His speaking voice, a gruff husky tenor, added to the
impression of fractiousness he conveyed. There was a touch of paternal contempt
in it, even toward people he liked — and there were men at New Haven who had
hated his guts.
“Now, don’t think my opinion on these matters is final,” he
seemed to say, “just because I’m stronger and more of a man than you are.” We
were in the same senior society, and while we were never intimate I always had
the impression that he approved of me and wanted me to like him with some
harsh, defiant wistfulness of his own.
We talked for a few minutes on the sunny porch.
“I’ve got a nice place here,” he said, his eyes flashing
about restlessly.
Turning me around by one arm, he moved a broad flat hand
along the front vista, including in its sweep a sunken Italian garden, a half
acre of deep, pungent roses, and a snub-nosed motor-boat that bumped the tide
offshore.
“It belonged to Demaine, the oil man.” He turned me around
again, politely and abruptly. “We’ll go inside.”
We walked through a high hallway into a bright rosy-colored
space, fragilely bound into the house by French windows at either end. The
windows were ajar and gleaming white against the fresh grass outside that
seemed to grow a little way into the house. A breeze blew through the room,
blew curtains in at one end and out the other like pale flags, twisting them up
toward the frosted wedding-cake of the ceiling, and then rippled over the
wine-colored rug, making a shadow on it as wind does on the sea.
The only completely stationary object in the room was an
enormous couch on which two young women were buoyed up as though upon an
anchored balloon. They were both in white, and their dresses were rippling and
fluttering as if they had just been blown back in after a short flight around
the house. I must have stood for a few moments listening to the whip and snap
of the curtains and the groan of a picture on the wall. Then there was a boom
as Tom Buchanan shut the rear windows and the caught wind died out about the
room, and the curtains and the rugs and the two young women ballooned slowly to
the floor.
The younger of the two was a stranger to me. She was
extended full length at her end of the divan, completely motionless, and with
her chin raised a little, as if she were balancing something on it which was
quite likely to fall. If she saw me out of the corner of her eyes she gave no
hint of it — indeed, I was almost surprised into murmuring an apology for
having disturbed her by coming in.
The other girl, Daisy, made an attempt to rise — she leaned
slightly forward with a conscientious expression — then she laughed, an absurd,
charming little laugh, and I laughed too and came forward into the room.
“I’m p-paralyzed with happiness.” She laughed again, as if
she said something very witty, and held my hand for a moment, looking up into
my face, promising that there was no one in the world she so much wanted to
see. That was a way she had. She hinted in a murmur that the surname of the
balancing girl was Baker. (I’ve heard it said that Daisy’s murmur was only to
make people lean toward her; an irrelevant criticism that made it no less
charming.)
At any rate, Miss Baker’s lips fluttered, she nodded at me
almost imperceptibly, and then quickly tipped her head back again — the object
she was balancing had obviously tottered a little and given her something of a
fright. Again a sort of apology arose to my lips. Almost any exhibition of
complete self-sufficiency draws a stunned tribute from me.
I looked back at my cousin, who began to ask me questions in
her low, thrilling voice. It was the kind of voice that the ear follows up and
down, as if each speech is an arrangement of notes that will never be played
again. Her face was sad and lovely with bright things in it, bright eyes and a
bright passionate mouth, but there was an excitement in her voice that men who had
cared for her found difficult to forget: a singing compulsion, a whispered
“Listen,” a promise that she had done gay, exciting things just a while since
and that there were gay, exciting things hovering in the next hour.
I told her how I had stopped off in Chicago for a day on my
way East, and how a dozen people had sent their love through me.
“Do they miss me?” she cried ecstatically.
“The whole town is desolate. All the cars have the left rear
wheel painted black as a mourning wreath, and there’s a persistent wail all
night along the north shore.”
“How gorgeous! Let’s go back, Tom. To-morrow!” Then she
added irrelevantly: “You ought to see the baby.”
“I’d like to.”
“She’s asleep. She’s three years old. Haven’t you ever seen
her?”
“Never.”
“Well, you ought to see her. She’s ——”
Tom Buchanan, who had been hovering restlessly about the
room, stopped and rested his hand on my shoulder.
“What you doing, Nick?”
“I’m a bond man.”
“Who with?”
I told him.
“Never heard of them,” he remarked decisively.
This annoyed me.
“You will,” I answered shortly. “You will if you stay in the
East.”
“Oh, I’ll stay in the East, don’t you worry,” he said,
glancing at Daisy and then back at me, as if he were alert for something more.
“I’d be a God damned fool to live anywhere else.”
At this point Miss Baker said: “Absolutely!” with such
suddenness that I started — it was the first word she uttered since I came into
the room. Evidently it surprised her as much as it did me, for she yawned and
with a series of rapid, deft movements stood up into the room.
“I’m stiff,” she complained, “I’ve been lying on that sofa
for as long as I can remember.”
“Don’t look at me,” Daisy retorted, “I’ve been trying to get
you to New York all afternoon.”
“No, thanks,” said Miss Baker to the four cocktails just in
from the pantry, “I’m absolutely in training.”
Her host looked at her incredulously.
“You are!” He took down his drink as if it were a drop in
the bottom of a glass. “How you ever get anything done is beyond me.”
I looked at Miss Baker, wondering what it was she “got
done.” I enjoyed looking at her. She was a slender, small-breasted girl, with
an erect carriage, which she accentuated by throwing her body backward at the
shoulders like a young cadet. Her gray sun-strained eyes looked back at me with
polite reciprocal curiosity out of a wan, charming, discontented face. It
occurred to me now that I had seen her, or a picture of her, somewhere before.
“You live in West Egg,” she remarked contemptuously. “I know
somebody there.”
“I don’t know a single ——”
“You must know Gatsby.”
“Gatsby?” demanded Daisy. “What Gatsby?”
Before I could reply that he was my neighbor dinner was
announced; wedging his tense arm imperatively undermine, Tom Buchanan compelled
me from the room as though he were moving a checker to another square.
Slenderly, languidly, their hands set lightly on their hips,
the two young women preceded us out onto a rosy-colored porch, open toward the
sunset, where four candles flickered on the table in the diminished wind.
“Why candles?” objected Daisy, frowning. She snapped
them out with her fingers. “In two weeks it’ll be the longest day in the year.”
She looked at us all radiantly. “Do you always watch for the longest day of the
year and then miss it? I always watch for the longest day in the year and then
miss it.”
“We ought to plan something,” yawned Miss Baker, sitting
down at the table as if she were getting into bed.
“All right,” said Daisy. “What’ll we plan?” She turned to me
helplessly: “What do people plan?”
Before I could answer her eyes fastened with an awed
expression on her little finger.
“Look!” she complained; “I hurt it.”
We all looked — the knuckle was black and blue.
“You did it, Tom,” she said accusingly. “I know you didn’t
mean to, but you did do it. That’s what I get for marrying a brute of a
man, a great, big, hulking physical specimen of a ——”
“I hate that word hulking,” objected Tom crossly, “even in
kidding.”
“Hulking,” insisted Daisy.
Sometimes she and Miss Baker talked at once, unobtrusively
and with a bantering inconsequence that was never quite chatter, that was as
cool as their white dresses and their impersonal eyes in the absence of all
desire. They were here, and they accepted Tom and me, making only a polite
pleasant effort to entertain or to be entertained. They knew that presently
dinner would be over and a little later the evening too would be over and
casually put away. It was sharply different from the West, where an evening was
hurried from phase to phase toward its close, in a continually disappointed
anticipation or else in sheer nervous dread of the moment itself.
“You make me feel uncivilized, Daisy,” I confessed on my
second glass of corky but rather impressive claret. “Can’t you talk about crops
or something?”
I meant nothing in particular by this remark, but it was
taken up in an unexpected way.
“Civilization’s going to pieces,” broke out Tom violently.
“I’ve gotten to be a terrible pessimist about things. Have you read ‘The Rise
of the Colored Empires’ by this man Goddard?”
“Why, no,” I answered, rather surprised by his tone.
“Well, it’s a fine book, and everybody ought to read it. The
idea is if we don’t look out the white race will be —will be utterly submerged.
It’s all scientific stuff; it’s been proved.”
“Tom’s getting very profound,” said Daisy, with an
expression of unthoughtful sadness. “He reads deep books with long words in
them. What was that word we ——”
“Well, these books are all scientific,” insisted Tom,
glancing at her impatiently. “This fellow has worked out the whole thing. It’s
up to us, who are the dominant race, to watch out or these other races will
have control of things.”
“We’ve got to beat them down,” whispered Daisy, winking
ferociously toward the fervent sun.
“You ought to live in California —” began Miss Baker, but
Tom interrupted her by shifting heavily in his chair.
“This idea is that we’re Nordics. I am, and you are, and you
are, and ——” After an infinitesimal hesitation he included Daisy with a slight
nod, and she winked at me again. “— And we’ve produced all the things that go
to make civilization — oh, science and art, and all that. Do you see?”
There was something pathetic in his concentration, as if his
complacency, more acute than of old, was not enough to him any more. When,
almost immediately, the telephone rang inside and the butler left the porch
Daisy seized upon the momentary interruption and leaned toward me.
“I’ll tell you a family secret,” she whispered
enthusiastically. “It’s about the butler’s nose. Do you want to hear about the
butler’s nose?”
“That’s why I came over to-night.”
“Well, he wasn’t always a butler; he used to be the silver
polisher for some people in New York that had a silver service for two hundred
people. He had to polish it from morning till night, until finally it began to
affect his nose——”
“Things went from bad to worse,” suggested Miss Baker.
“Yes. Things went from bad to worse, until finally he had to
give up his position.”
For a moment the last sunshine fell with romantic affection
upon her glowing face; her voice compelled me forward breathlessly as I
listened — then the glow faded, each light deserting her with lingering regret,
like children leaving a pleasant street at dusk.
The butler came back and murmured something close to Tom’s
ear, whereupon Tom frowned, pushed back his chair, and without a word went
inside. As if his absence quickened something within her, Daisy leaned forward
again, her voice glowing and singing.
“I love to see you at my table, Nick. You remind me of a —
of a rose, an absolute rose. Doesn’t he?” She turned to Miss Baker for
confirmation: “An absolute rose?”
This was untrue. I am not even faintly like a rose. She was
only extemporizing, but a stirring warmth flowed from her, as if her heart was
trying to come out to you concealed in one of those breathless, thrilling
words. Then suddenly she threw her napkin on the table and excused herself and
went into the house.
Miss Baker and I exchanged a short glance consciously devoid
of meaning. I was about to speak when she sat up alertly and said “Sh!” in a
warning voice. A subdued impassioned murmur was audible in the room beyond, and
Miss Baker leaned forward unashamed, trying to hear. The murmur trembled on the
verge of coherence, sank down, mounted excitedly, and then ceased altogether.
“This Mr. Gatsby you spoke of is my neighbor ——” I said.
“Don’t talk. I want to hear what happens.”
“Is something happening?” I inquired innocently.
“You mean to say you don’t know?” said Miss Baker, honestly
surprised. “I thought everybody knew.”
“I don’t.”
“Why ——” she said hesitantly, “Tom’s got some woman in New
York.”
“Got some woman?” I repeated blankly.
Miss Baker nodded.
“She might have the decency not to telephone him at dinner
time. Don’t you think?”
Almost before I had grasped her meaning there was the
flutter of a dress and the crunch of leather boots, and Tom and Daisy were back
at the table.
“It couldn’t be helped!” cried Daisy with tense gaiety.
She sat down, glanced searchingly at Miss Baker and then at
me, and continued: “I looked outdoors for a minute, and it’s very romantic
outdoors. There’s a bird on the lawn that I think must be a nightingale come
over on the Cunard or White Star Line. He’s singing away ——” Her voice sang:
“It’s romantic, isn’t it, Tom?”
“Very romantic,” he said, and then miserably to me: “If it’s
light enough after dinner, I want to take you down to the stables.”
The telephone rang inside, startlingly, and as Daisy shook
her head decisively at Tom the subject of the stables, in fact all subjects,
vanished into air. Among the broken fragments of the last five minutes at table
I remember the candles being lit again, pointlessly, and I was conscious of
wanting to look squarely at every one, and yet to avoid all eyes. I couldn’t
guess what Daisy and Tom were thinking, but I doubt if even Miss Baker, who seemed
to have mastered a certain hardy scepticism, was able utterly to put this fifth
guest’s shrill metallic urgency out of mind. To a certain temperament the
situation might have seemed intriguing — my own instinct was to telephone
immediately for the police.
The horses, needless to say, were not mentioned again. Tom
and Miss Baker, with several feet of twilight between them, strolled back into
the library, as if to a vigil beside a perfectly tangible body, while, trying
to look pleasantly interested and a little deaf, I followed Daisy around a
chain of connecting verandas to the porch in front. In its deep gloom we sat
down side by side on a wicker settee.
Daisy took her face in her hands as if feeling its lovely
shape, and her eyes moved gradually out into the velvet dusk. I saw that
turbulent emotions possessed her, so I asked what I thought would be some
sedative questions about her little girl.
“We don’t know each other very well, Nick,” she said
suddenly. “Even if we are cousins. You didn’t come to my wedding.”
“I wasn’t back from the war.”
“That’s true.” She hesitated. “Well, I’ve had a very bad
time, Nick, and I’m pretty cynical about everything.”
Evidently she had reason to be. I waited but she didn’t say
any more, and after a moment I returned rather feebly to the subject of her
daughter.
“I suppose she talks, and — eats, and everything.”
“Oh, yes.” She looked at me absently. “Listen, Nick; let me
tell you what I said when she was born. Would you like to hear?”
“Very much.”
“It’ll show you how I’ve gotten to feel about — things.
Well, she was less than an hour old and Tom was God knows where. I woke up out
of the ether with an utterly abandoned feeling, and asked the nurse right away
if it was a boy or a girl. She told me it was a girl, and so I turned my head
away and wept. ‘all right,’ I said, ‘I’m glad it’s a girl. And I hope she’ll be
a fool — that’s the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little
fool.”
“You see I think everything’s terrible anyhow,” she went on
in a convinced way. “Everybody thinks so — the most advanced people. And I know.
I’ve been everywhere and seen everything and done everything.” Her eyes flashed
around her in a defiant way, rather like Tom’s, and she laughed with thrilling
scorn. “Sophisticated — God, I’m sophisticated!”
The instant her voice broke off, ceasing to compel my
attention, my belief, I felt the basic insincerity of what she had said. It
made me uneasy, as though the whole evening had been a trick of some sort to
exact a contributory emotion from me. I waited, and sure enough, in a moment
she looked at me with an absolute smirk on her lovely face, as if she had
asserted her membership in a rather distinguished secret society to which she
and Tom belonged.
Inside, the crimson room bloomed with light.
Tom and Miss Baker sat at either end of the long couch and
she read aloud to him from the Saturday Evening Post. — the words,
murmurous and uninflected, running together in a soothing tune. The lamp-light,
bright on his boots and dull on the autumn-leaf yellow of her hair, glinted
along the paper as she turned a page with a flutter of slender muscles in her
arms.
When we came in she held us silent for a moment with a
lifted hand.
“To be continued,” she said, tossing the magazine on the
table, “in our very next issue.”
Her body asserted itself with a restless movement of her
knee, and she stood up.
“Ten o’clock,” she remarked, apparently finding the time on
the ceiling. “Time for this good girl to go to bed.”
“Jordan’s going to play in the tournament to-morrow,”
explained Daisy, “over at Westchester.”
“Oh — you’re Jordan Baker.”
I knew now why her face was familiar — its pleasing
contemptuous expression had looked out at me from many rotogravure pictures of
the sporting life at Asheville and Hot Springs and Palm Beach. I had heard some
story of her too, a critical, unpleasant story, but what it was I had forgotten
long ago.
“Good night,” she said softly. “Wake me at eight, won’t
you.”
“If you’ll get up.”
“I will. Good night, Mr. Carraway. See you anon.”
“Of course you will,” confirmed Daisy. “In fact I think I’ll
arrange a marriage. Come over often, Nick, and I’ll sort of — oh — fling you
together. You know — lock you up accidentally in linen closets and push you out
to sea in a boat, and all that sort of thing ——”
“Good night,” called Miss Baker from the stairs. “I haven’t
heard a word.”
“She’s a nice girl,” said Tom after a moment. “They oughtn’t
to let her run around the country this way.”
“Who oughtn’t to?” inquired Daisy coldly.
“Her family.”
“Her family is one aunt about a thousand years old. Besides,
Nick’s going to look after her, aren’t you, Nick? She’s going to spend lots of
week-ends out here this summer. I think the home influence will be very good
for her.”
Daisy and Tom looked at each other for a moment in silence.
“Is she from New York?” I asked quickly.
“From Louisville. Our white girlhood was passed together
there. Our beautiful white ——”
“Did you give Nick a little heart to heart talk on the
veranda?” demanded Tom suddenly.
“Did I?” She looked at me.
“I can’t seem to remember, but I think we talked about the
Nordic race. Yes, I’m sure we did. It sort of crept up on us and first thing
you know ——”
“Don’t believe everything you hear, Nick,” he advised me.
I said lightly that I had heard nothing at all, and a few
minutes later I got up to go home. They came to the door with me and stood side
by side in a cheerful square of light. As I started my motor Daisy peremptorily
called:“Wait!”
“I forgot to ask you something, and it’s important. We heard
you were engaged to a girl out West.”
“That’s right,” corroborated Tom kindly. “We heard that you
were engaged.”
“It’s libel. I’m too poor.”
“But we heard it,” insisted Daisy, surprising me by opening
up again in a flower-like way. “We heard it from three people, so it must be
true.”
Of course I knew what they were referring to, but I wasn’t
even vaguely engaged. The fact that gossip had published the banns was one of
the reasons I had come East. You can’t stop going with an old friend on account
of rumors, and on the other hand I had no intention of being rumored into
marriage.
Their interest rather touched me and made them less remotely
rich — nevertheless, I was confused and a little disgusted as I drove away. It
seemed to me that the thing for Daisy to do was to rush out of the house, child
in arms —but apparently there were no such intentions in her head. As for Tom,
the fact that he “had some woman in New York.” was really less surprising than
that he had been depressed by a book. Something was making him nibble at the
edge of stale ideas as if his sturdy physical egotism no longer nourished his
peremptory heart.
Already it was deep summer on roadhouse roofs and in front
of wayside garages, where new red gas-pumps sat out in pools of light, and when
I reached my estate at West Egg I ran the car under its shed and sat for a
while on an abandoned grass roller in the yard. The wind had blown off, leaving
a loud, bright night, with wings beating in the trees and a persistent organ
sound as the full bellows of the earth blew the frogs full of life. The
silhouette of a moving cat wavered across the moonlight, and turning my head to
watch it, I saw that I was not alone — fifty feet away a figure had emerged
from the shadow of my neighbor’s mansion and was standing with his hands in his
pockets regarding the silver pepper of the stars. Something in his leisurely
movements and the secure position of his feet upon the lawn suggested that it
was Mr. Gatsby himself, come out to determine what share was his of our local
heavens.
I decided to call to him. Miss Baker had mentioned him at
dinner, and that would do for an introduction. But I didn’t call to him, for he
gave a sudden intimation that he was content to be alone — he stretched out his
arms toward the dark water in a curious way, and, far as I was from him, I
could have sworn he was trembling. Involuntarily I glanced seaward— and
distinguished nothing except a single green light, minute and far away, that
might have been the end of a dock. When I looked once more for Gatsby he had
vanished, and I was alone again in the unquiet darkness.
Chapter 2
About half way between West Egg and New York the motor road
hastily joins the railroad and runs beside it for a quarter of a mile, so as to
shrink away from a certain desolate area of land. This is a valley of ashes — a
fantastic farm where ashes grow like wheat into ridges and hills and grotesque
gardens; where ashes take the forms of houses and chimneys and rising smoke
and, finally, with a transcendent effort, of men who move dimly and already
crumbling through the powdery air. Occasionally a line of gray cars crawls
along an invisible track, gives out a ghastly creak, and comes to rest, and
immediately the ash-gray men swarm up with leaden spades and stir up an
impenetrable cloud, which screens their obscure operations from your sight. But
above the gray land and the spasms of bleak dust which drift endlessly over it,
you perceive, after a moment, the eyes of Doctor T. J. Eckleburg. The eyes of
Doctor T. J. Eckleburg are blue and gigantic — their irises are one yard high.
They look out of no face, but, instead, from a pair of enormous yellow
spectacles which pass over a nonexistent nose. Evidently some wild wag of an
oculist set them there to fatten his practice in the borough of Queens, and
then sank down himself into eternal blindness, or forgot them and moved away.
But his eyes, dimmed a little by many paintless days, under sun and rain, brood
on over the solemn dumping ground.
The valley of ashes is bounded on one side by a small foul
river, and, when the drawbridge is up to let barges through, the passengers on
waiting trains can stare at the dismal scene for as long as half an hour. There
is always a halt there of at least a minute, and it was because of this that I
first met Tom Buchanan’s mistress.
The fact that he had one was insisted upon wherever he was
known. His acquaintances resented the fact that he turned up in popular
restaurants with her and, leaving her at a table, sauntered about, chatting
with whomsoever he knew. Though I was curious to see her, I had no desire to
meet her — but I did. I went up to New York with Tom on the train one
afternoon, and when we stopped by the ashheaps he jumped to his feet and,
taking hold of my elbow, literally forced me from the car.
“We’re getting off,” he insisted. “I want you to meet my
girl.”
I think he’d tanked up a good deal at luncheon, and his
determination to have my company bordered on violence. The supercilious
assumption was that on Sunday afternoon I had nothing better to do.
I followed him over a low whitewashed railroad fence, and we
walked back a hundred yards along the road under Doctor Eckleburg’s persistent
stare. The only building in sight was a small block of yellow brick sitting on
the edge of the waste land, a sort of compact Main Street ministering to it,
and contiguous to absolutely nothing. One of the three shops it contained was
for rent and another was an all-night restaurant, approached by a trail of
ashes; the third was a garage— Repairs. George B. Wilson. Cars bought
and sold. — and I followed Tom inside.
The interior was unprosperous and bare; the only car visible
was the dust-covered wreck of a Ford which crouched in a dim corner. It had
occurred to me that this shadow of a garage must be a blind, and that sumptuous
and romantic apartments were concealed overhead, when the proprietor himself
appeared in the door of an office, wiping his hands on a piece of waste. He was
a blond, spiritless man, anaemic, and faintly handsome. When he saw us a damp
gleam of hope sprang into his light blue eyes.
“Hello, Wilson, old man,” said Tom, slapping him jovially on
the shoulder. “How’s business?”
“I can’t complain,” answered Wilson unconvincingly. “When
are you going to sell me that car?”
“Next week; I’ve got my man working on it now.”
“Works pretty slow, don’t he?”
“No, he doesn’t,” said Tom coldly. “And if you feel that way
about it, maybe I’d better sell it somewhere else after all.”
“I don’t mean that,” explained Wilson quickly. “I just meant
——”
His voice faded off and Tom glanced impatiently around the
garage. Then I heard footsteps on a stairs, and in a moment the thickish figure
of a woman blocked out the light from the office door. She was in the middle
thirties, and faintly stout, but she carried her surplus flesh sensuously as
some women can. Her face, above a spotted dress of dark blue crepe-de-chine,
contained no facet or gleam of beauty, but there was an immediately perceptible
vitality about her as if the nerves of her body were continually smouldering.
She smiled slowly and, walking through her husband as if he were a ghost, shook
hands with Tom, looking him flush in the eye. Then she wet her lips, and
without turning around spoke to her husband in a soft, coarse voice:
“Get some chairs, why don’t you, so somebody can sit down.”
“Oh, sure,” agreed Wilson hurriedly, and went toward the
little office, mingling immediately with the cement color of the walls. A white
ashen dust veiled his dark suit and his pale hair as it veiled everything in
the vicinity — except his wife, who moved close to Tom.
“I want to see you,” said Tom intently. “Get on the next
train.”
“All right.”
“I’ll meet you by the news-stand on the lower level.” She
nodded and moved away from him just as George Wilson emerged with two chairs
from his office door.
We waited for her down the road and out of sight. It was a
few days before the Fourth of July, and a gray, scrawny Italian child was
setting torpedoes in a row along the railroad track.
“Terrible place, isn’t it,” said Tom, exchanging a frown
with Doctor Eckleburg.
“Awful.”
“It does her good to get away.”
“Doesn’t her husband object?”
“Wilson? He thinks she goes to see her sister in New York.
He’s so dumb he doesn’t know he’s alive.”
So Tom Buchanan and his girl and I went up together to New
York — or not quite together, for Mrs. Wilson sat discreetly in another car.
Tom deferred that much to the sensibilities of those East Eggers who might be
on the train.
She had changed her dress to a brown figured muslin, which
stretched tight over her rather wide hips as Tom helped her to the platform in
New York. At the news-stand she bought a copy of Town Tattle and a
moving-picture magazine, and in the station drug-store some cold cream and a
small flask of perfume. Up-stairs, in the solemn echoing drive she let four
taxicabs drive away before she selected a new one, lavender-colored with gray
upholstery, and in this we slid out from the mass of the station into the
glowing sunshine. But immediately she turned sharply from the window and,
leaning forward, tapped on the front glass.
“I want to get one of those dogs,” she said earnestly. “I
want to get one for the apartment. They’re nice to have — a dog.”
We backed up to a gray old man who bore an absurd resemblance
to John D. Rockefeller. In a basket swung from his neck cowered a dozen very
recent puppies of an indeterminate breed.
“What kind are they?” asked Mrs. Wilson eagerly, as he came
to the taxi-window.
“All kinds. What kind do you want, lady?”
“I’d like to get one of those police dogs; I don’t suppose
you got that kind?”
The man peered doubtfully into the basket, plunged in his
hand and drew one up, wriggling, by the back of the neck.
“That’s no police dog,” said Tom.
“No, it’s not exactly a polICE dog,” said the man with
disappointment in his voice. “It’s more of an Airedale.” He passed his hand
over the brown wash-rag of a back. “Look at that coat. Some coat. That’s a dog
that’ll never bother you with catching cold.”
“I think it’s cute,” said Mrs. Wilson enthusiastically. “How
much is it?”
“That dog?” He looked at it admiringly. “That dog will cost
you ten dollars.”
The Airedale — undoubtedly there was an Airedale concerned
in it somewhere, though its feet were startlingly white —changed hands and
settled down into Mrs. Wilson’s lap, where she fondled the weather-proof coat
with rapture.
“Is it a boy or a girl?” she asked delicately.
“That dog? That dog’s a boy.”
“It’s a bitch,” said Tom decisively. “Here’s your money. Go
and buy ten more dogs with it.”
We drove over to Fifth Avenue, so warm and soft, almost
pastoral, on the summer Sunday afternoon that I wouldn’t have been surprised to
see a great flock of white sheep turn the corner.
“Hold on,” I said, “I have to leave you here.”
“No, you don’t,” interposed Tom quickly.
“Myrtle’ll be hurt if you don’t come up to the apartment.
Won’t you, Myrtle?”
“Come on,” she urged. “I’ll telephone my sister Catherine.
She’s said to be very beautiful by people who ought to know.”
“Well, I’d like to, but ——”
We went on, cutting back again over the Park toward the West
Hundreds. At 158th Street the cab stopped at one slice in a long white cake of
apartment-houses. Throwing a regal homecoming glance around the neighborhood,
Mrs. Wilson gathered up her dog and her other purchases, and went haughtily in.
“I’m going to have the McKees come up,” she announced as we
rose in the elevator. “And, of course, I got to call up my sister, too.”
The apartment was on the top floor — a small living-room, a
small dining-room, a small bedroom, and a bath. The living-room was crowded to
the doors with a set of tapestried furniture entirely too large for it, so that
to move about was to stumble continually over scenes of ladies swinging in the
gardens of Versailles. The only picture was an over-enlarged photograph,
apparently a hen sitting on a blurred rock. Looked at from a distance, however,
the hen resolved itself into a bonnet, and the countenance of a stout old lady
beamed down into the room. Several old copies ofTown Tattle lay on the
table together with a copy of Simon Called Peter, and some of the small
scandal magazines of Broadway. Mrs. Wilson was first concerned with the dog. A
reluctant elevator-boy went for a box full of straw and some milk, to which he
added on his own initiative a tin of large, hard dog-biscuits — one of which
decomposed apathetically in the saucer of milk all afternoon. Meanwhile Tom
brought out a bottle of whiskey from a locked bureau door.
I have been drunk just twice in my life, and the second time
was that afternoon; so everything that happened has a dim, hazy cast over it,
although until after eight o’clock the apartment was full of cheerful sun.
Sitting on Tom’s lap Mrs. Wilson called up several people on the telephone;
then there were no cigarettes, and I went out to buy some at the drugstore on
the corner. When I came back they had disappeared, so I sat down discreetly in
the living-room and read a chapter of Simon Called Peter — either it was
terrible stuff or the whiskey distorted things, because it didn’t make any
sense to me.
Just as Tom and Myrtle (after the first drink Mrs. Wilson
and I called each other by our first names) reappeared, company commenced to
arrive at the apartment-door.
The sister, Catherine, was a slender, worldly girl of about
thirty, with a solid, sticky bob of red hair, and a complexion powdered milky
white. Her eye-brows had been plucked and then drawn on again at a more rakish
angle, but the efforts of nature toward the restoration of the old alignment
gave a blurred air to her face. When she moved about there was an incessant
clicking as innumerable pottery bracelets jingled up and down upon her arms.
She came in with such a proprietary haste, and looked around so possessively at
the furniture that I wondered if she lived here. But when I asked her she
laughed immoderately, repeated my question aloud, and told me she lived with a
girl friend at a hotel.
Mr. McKee was a pale, feminine man from the flat below. He
had just shaved, for there was a white spot of lather on his cheekbone, and he
was most respectful in his greeting to every one in the room. He informed me
that he was in the“artistic game,” and I gathered later that he was a
photographer and had made the dim enlargement of Mrs. Wilson’s mother which
hovered like an ectoplasm on the wall. His wife was shrill, languid, handsome,
and horrible. She told me with pride that her husband had photographed her a
hundred and twenty-seven times since they had been married.
Mrs. Wilson had changed her costume some time before, and
was now attired in an elaborate afternoon dress of cream-colored chiffon, which
gave out a continual rustle as she swept about the room. With the influence of
the dress her personality had also undergone a change. The intense vitality
that had been so remarkable in the garage was converted into impressive
hauteur. Her laughter, her gestures, her assertions became more violently
affected moment by moment, and as she expanded the room grew smaller around
her, until she seemed to be revolving on a noisy, creaking pivot through the
smoky air.
“My dear,” she told her sister in a high, mincing shout,
“most of these fellas will cheat you every time. All they think of is money. I
had a woman up here last week to look at my feet, and when she gave me the bill
you’d of thought she had my appendicitis out.”
“What was the name of the woman?” asked Mrs. McKee.
“Mrs. Eberhardt. She goes around looking at people’s feet in
their own homes.”
“I like your dress,” remarked Mrs. McKee, “I think it’s
adorable.”
Mrs. Wilson rejected the compliment by raising her eyebrow
in disdain.
“It’s just a crazy old thing,” she said. “I just slip it on
sometimes when I don’t care what I look like.”
“But it looks wonderful on you, if you know what I mean,”
pursued Mrs. McKee. “If Chester could only get you in that pose I think he
could make something of it.”
We all looked in silence at Mrs. Wilson, who removed a
strand of hair from over her eyes and looked back at us with a brilliant smile.
Mr. McKee regarded her intently with his head on one side, and then moved his
hand back and forth slowly in front of his face.
“I should change the light,” he said after a moment. “I’d
like to bring out the modelling of the features. And I’d try to get hold of all
the back hair.”
“I wouldn’t think of changing the light,” cried Mrs. McKee.
“I think it’s ——”
Her husband said “sh!” and we all looked at the
subject again, whereupon Tom Buchanan yawned audibly and got to his feet.
“You McKees have something to drink,” he said. “Get some
more ice and mineral water, Myrtle, before everybody goes to sleep.”
“I told that boy about the ice.” Myrtle raised her eyebrows
in despair at the shiftlessness of the lower orders.“These people! You have to
keep after them all the time.”
She looked at me and laughed pointlessly. Then she flounced
over to the dog, kissed it with ecstasy, and swept into the kitchen, implying
that a dozen chefs awaited her orders there.
“I’ve done some nice things out on Long Island,” asserted
Mr. McKee.
Tom looked at him blankly.
“Two of them we have framed down-stairs.”
“Two what?” demanded Tom.
“Two studies. One of them I call Montauk Point— The
Gulls, and the other I call Montauk Point— The Sea.”
The sister Catherine sat down beside me on the couch.
“Do you live down on Long Island, too?” she inquired.
“I live at West Egg.”
“Really? I was down there at a party about a month ago. At a
man named Gatsby’s. Do you know him?”
“I live next door to him.”
“Well, they say he’s a nephew or a cousin of Kaiser
Wilhelm’s. That’s where all his money comes from.”
“Really?”
She nodded.
“I’m scared of him. I’d hate to have him get anything on
me.”
This absorbing information about my neighbor was interrupted
by Mrs. McKee’s pointing suddenly at Catherine:
“Chester, I think you could do something with her,”
she broke out, but Mr. McKee only nodded in a bored way, and turned his
attention to Tom.
“I’d like to do more work on Long Island, if I could get the
entry. All I ask is that they should give me a start.”
“Ask Myrtle,” said Tom, breaking into a short shout of
laughter as Mrs. Wilson entered with a tray. “She’ll give you a letter of
introduction, won’t you Myrtle?”
“Do what?” she asked, startled.
“You’ll give McKee a letter of introduction to your husband,
so he can do some studies of him.” His lips moved silently for a moment as he
invented. “George B. Wilson at the Gasoline Pump, or something like
that.”
Catherine leaned close to me and whispered in my ear:
“Neither of them can stand the person they’re married to.”
“Can’t they?”
“Can’t stand them.” She looked at Myrtle and then at
Tom. “What I say is, why go on living with them if they can’t stand them? If I
was them I’d get a divorce and get married to each other right away.”
“Doesn’t she like Wilson either?”
The answer to this was unexpected. It came from Myrtle, who
had overheard the question, and it was violent and obscene.
“You see,” cried Catherine triumphantly. She lowered her
voice again. “It’s really his wife that’s keeping them apart. She’s a Catholic,
and they don’t believe in divorce.”
Daisy was not a Catholic, and I was a little shocked at the
elaborateness of the lie.
“When they do get married,” continued Catherine, “they’re
going West to live for a while until it blows over.”
“It’d be more discreet to go to Europe.”
“Oh, do you like Europe?” she exclaimed surprisingly. “I
just got back from Monte Carlo.”
“Really.”
“Just last year. I went over there with another girl.” “Stay
long?”
“No, we just went to Monte Carlo and back. We went by way of
Marseilles. We had over twelve hundred dollars when we started, but we got gypped
out of it all in two days in the private rooms. We had an awful time getting
back, I can tell you. God, how I hated that town!”
The late afternoon sky bloomed in the window for a moment
like the blue honey of the Mediterranean — then the shrill voice of Mrs. McKee
called me back into the room.
“I almost made a mistake, too,” she declared vigorously. “I
almost married a little kyke who’d been after me for years. I knew he was below
me. Everybody kept saying to me: ‘Lucille, that man’s ‘way below you!’ But if I
hadn’t met Chester, he’d of got me sure.”
“Yes, but listen,” said Myrtle Wilson, nodding her head up
and down, “at least you didn’t marry him.”
“I know I didn’t.”
“Well, I married him,” said Myrtle, ambiguously. “And that’s
the difference between your case and mine.”
“Why did you, Myrtle?” demanded Catherine. “Nobody forced
you to.”
Myrtle considered.
“I married him because I thought he was a gentleman,” she
said finally. “I thought he knew something about breeding, but he wasn’t fit to
lick my shoe.”
“You were crazy about him for a while,” said Catherine.
“Crazy about him!” cried Myrtle incredulously. “Who said I
was crazy about him? I never was any more crazy about him than I was about that
man there.”
She pointed suddenly at me, and every one looked at me
accusingly. I tried to show by my expression that I had played no part in her
past.
“The only crazy I was was when I married him. I knew
right away I made a mistake. He borrowed somebody’s best suit to get married
in, and never even told me about it, and the man came after it one day when he
was out. ‘oh, is that your suit?’ I said. ‘this is the first I ever heard about
it.’ But I gave it to him and then I lay down and cried to beat the band all
afternoon.”
“She really ought to get away from him,” resumed Catherine
to me. “They’ve been living over that garage for eleven years. And tom’s the
first sweetie she ever had.”
The bottle of whiskey — a second one — was now in constant
demand by all present, excepting Catherine, who “felt just as good on nothing
at all.” Tom rang for the janitor and sent him for some celebrated sandwiches,
which were a complete supper in themselves. I wanted to get out and walk
southward toward the park through the soft twilight, but each time I tried to
go I became entangled in some wild, strident argument which pulled me back, as
if with ropes, into my chair. Yet high over the city our line of yellow windows
must have contributed their share of human secrecy to the casual watcher in the
darkening streets, and I was him too, looking up and wondering. I was within
and without, simultaneously enchanted and repelled by the inexhaustible variety
of life.
Myrtle pulled her chair close to mine, and suddenly her warm
breath poured over me the story of her first meeting with Tom.
“It was on the two little seats facing each other that are
always the last ones left on the train. I was going up to New York to see my
sister and spend the night. He had on a dress suit and patent leather shoes,
and I couldn’t keep my eyes off him, but every time he looked at me I had to
pretend to be looking at the advertisement over his head. When we came into the
station he was next to me, and his white shirt-front pressed against my arm,
and so I told him I’d have to call a policeman, but he knew I lied. I was so
excited that when I got into a taxi with him I didn’t hardly know I wasn’t
getting into a subway train. All I kept thinking about, over and over, was ‘You
can’t live forever; you can’t live forever.’”
She turned to Mrs. McKee and the room rang full of her
artificial laughter.
“My dear,” she cried, “I’m going to give you this dress as
soon as I’m through with it. I’ve got to get another one to-morrow. I’m going
to make a list of all the things I’ve got to get. A massage and a wave, and a
collar for the dog, and one of those cute little ash-trays where you touch a
spring, and a wreath with a black silk bow for mother’s grave that’ll last all
summer. I got to write down a list so I won’t forget all the things I got to
do.”
It was nine o’clock — almost immediately afterward I looked
at my watch and found it was ten. Mr. McKee was asleep on a chair with his
fists clenched in his lap, like a photograph of a man of action. Taking out my
handkerchief I wiped from his cheek the remains of the spot of dried lather
that had worried me all the afternoon.
The little dog was sitting on the table looking with blind
eyes through the smoke, and from time to time groaning faintly. People
disappeared, reappeared, made plans to go somewhere, and then lost each other,
searched for each other, found each other a few feet away. Some time toward
midnight Tom Buchanan and Mrs. Wilson stood face to face discussing, in
impassioned voices, whether Mrs. Wilson had any right to mention Daisy’s name.
“Daisy! Daisy! Daisy!” shouted Mrs. Wilson. “I’ll say it
whenever I want to! Daisy! Dai ——”
Making a short deft movement, Tom Buchanan broke her nose
with his open hand.
Then there were bloody towels upon the bath-room floor, and
women’s voices scolding, and high over the confusion a long broken wail of
pain. Mr. McKee awoke from his doze and started in a daze toward the door. When
he had gone half way he turned around and stared at the scene — his wife and
Catherine scolding and consoling as they stumbled here and there among the
crowded furniture with articles of aid, and the despairing figure on the couch,
bleeding fluently, and trying to spread a copy of Town Tattle over the
tapestry scenes of Versailles. Then Mr. McKee turned and continued on out the
door. Taking my hat from the chandelier, I followed.
“Come to lunch some day,” he suggested, as we groaned down
in the elevator.
“Where?”
“Anywhere.”
“Keep your hands off the lever,” snapped the elevator boy.
“I beg your pardon,” said Mr. McKee with dignity, “I didn’t
know I was touching it.”
“All right,” I agreed, “I’ll be glad to.”
. . . I was standing beside his bed and he was sitting up
between the sheets, clad in his underwear, with a great portfolio in his hands.
“Beauty and the Beast . . . Loneliness . . . Old Grocery
Horse . . . Brook’n Bridge. . . . ”
Then I was lying half asleep in the cold lower level of the
Pennsylvania Station, staring at the morningTribune, and waiting for the
four o’clock train.
Chapter 3
There was music from my neighbor’s house through the summer
nights. In his blue gardens men and girls came and went like moths among the
whisperings and the champagne and the stars. At high tide in the afternoon I
watched his guests diving from the tower of his raft, or taking the sun on the
hot sand of his beach while his two motor-boats slit the waters of the Sound,
drawing aquaplanes over cataracts of foam. On week-ends his Rolls-Royce became
an omnibus, bearing parties to and from the city between nine in the morning
and long past midnight, while his station wagon scampered like a brisk yellow
bug to meet all trains. And on Mondays eight servants, including an extra
gardener, toiled all day with mops and scrubbing-brushes and hammers and
garden-shears, repairing the ravages of the night before.
Every Friday five crates of oranges and lemons arrived from
a fruiterer in New York — every Monday these same oranges and lemons left his
back door in a pyramid of pulpless halves. There was a machine in the kitchen
which could extract the juice of two hundred oranges in half an hour if a
little button was pressed two hundred times by a butler’s thumb.
At least once a fortnight a corps of caterers came down with
several hundred feet of canvas and enough colored lights to make a Christmas
tree of Gatsby’s enormous garden. On buffet tables, garnished with glistening
hors-d’oeuvre, spiced baked hams crowded against salads of harlequin designs
and pastry pigs and turkeys bewitched to a dark gold. In the main hall a bar with
a real brass rail was set up, and stocked with gins and liquors and with
cordials so long forgotten that most of his female guests were too young to
know one from another.
By seven o’clock the orchestra has arrived, no thin
five-piece affair, but a whole pitful of oboes and trombones and saxophones and
viols and cornets and piccolos, and low and high drums. The last swimmers have
come in from the beach now and are dressing up-stairs; the cars from New York
are parked five deep in the drive, and already the halls and salons and
verandas are gaudy with primary colors, and hair shorn in strange new ways, and
shawls beyond the dreams of Castile. The bar is in full swing, and floating
rounds of cocktails permeate the garden outside, until the air is alive with
chatter and laughter, and casual innuendo and introductions forgotten on the
spot, and enthusiastic meetings between women who never knew each other’s
names.
The lights grow brighter as the earth lurches away from the
sun, and now the orchestra is playing yellow cocktail music, and the opera of
voices pitches a key higher. Laughter is easier minute by minute, spilled with
prodigality, tipped out at a cheerful word. The groups change more swiftly,
swell with new arrivals, dissolve and form in the same breath; already there
are wanderers, confident girls who weave here and there among the stouter and
more stable, become for a sharp, joyous moment the centre of a group, and then,
excited with triumph, glide on through the sea-change of faces and voices and color
under the constantly changing light.
Suddenly one of the gypsies, in trembling opal, seizes a
cocktail out of the air, dumps it down for courage and, moving her hands like
Frisco, dances out alone on the canvas platform. A momentary hush; the
orchestra leader varies his rhythm obligingly for her, and there is a burst of
chatter as the erroneous news goes around that she is Gilda Gray’s understudy
from the Follies. The party has begun.
I believe that on the first night I went to Gatsby’s house I
was one of the few guests who had actually been invited. People were not
invited — they went there. They got into automobiles which bore them out to
Long Island, and somehow they ended up at Gatsby’s door. Once there they were
introduced by somebody who knew Gatsby, and after that they conducted
themselves according to the rules of behavior associated with amusement parks.
Sometimes they came and went without having met Gatsby at all, came for the
party with a simplicity of heart that was its own ticket of admission.
I had been actually invited. A chauffeur in a uniform of
robin’s-egg blue crossed my lawn early that Saturday morning with a
surprisingly formal note from his employer: the honor would be entirely
Gatsby’s, it said, if I would attend his“little party” that night. He had seen
me several times, and had intended to call on me long before, but a peculiar
combination of circumstances had prevented it — signed Jay Gatsby, in a
majestic hand.
Dressed up in white flannels I went over to his lawn a
little after seven, and wandered around rather ill at ease among swirls and
eddies of people I didn’t know — though here and there was a face I had noticed
on the commuting train. I was immediately struck by the number of young
Englishmen dotted about; all well dressed, all looking a little hungry, and all
talking in low, earnest voices to solid and prosperous Americans. I was sure
that they were selling something: bonds or insurance or automobiles. They were
at least agonizingly aware of the easy money in the vicinity and convinced that
it was theirs for a few words in the right key.
As soon as I arrived I made an attempt to find my host, but
the two or three people of whom I asked his whereabouts stared at me in such an
amazed way, and denied so vehemently any knowledge of his movements, that I
slunk off in the direction of the cocktail table — the only place in the garden
where a single man could linger without looking purposeless and alone.
I was on my way to get roaring drunk from sheer
embarrassment when Jordan Baker came out of the house and stood at the head of
the marble steps, leaning a little backward and looking with contemptuous
interest down into the garden.
Welcome or not, I found it necessary to attach myself to
some one before I should begin to address cordial remarks to the passers-by.
“Hello!” I roared, advancing toward her. My voice seemed
unnaturally loud across the garden.
“I thought you might be here,” she responded absently as I
came up. “I remembered you lived next door to ——” She held my hand impersonally,
as a promise that she’d take care of me in a minute, and gave ear to two girls
in twin yellow dresses, who stopped at the foot of the steps.
“Hello!” they cried together. “Sorry you didn’t win.”
That was for the golf tournament. She had lost in the finals
the week before.
“You don’t know who we are,” said one of the girls in
yellow, “but we met you here about a month ago.”
“You’ve dyed your hair since then,” remarked Jordan, and I
started, but the girls had moved casually on and her remark was addressed to
the premature moon, produced like the supper, no doubt, out of a caterer’s
basket. With Jordan’s slender golden arm resting in mine, we descended the
steps and sauntered about the garden. A tray of cocktails floated at us through
the twilight, and we sat down at a table with the two girls in yellow and three
men, each one introduced to us as Mr. Mumble.
“Do you come to these parties often?” inquired Jordan of the
girl beside her.
“The last one was the one I met you at,” answered the girl,
in an alert confident voice. She turned to her companion:“Wasn’t it for you,
Lucille?”
It was for Lucille, too.
“I like to come,” Lucille said. “I never care what I do, so
I always have a good time. When I was here last I tore my gown on a chair, and
he asked me my name and address — inside of a week I got a package from
Croirier’s with a new evening gown in it.”
“Did you keep it?” asked Jordan.
“Sure I did. I was going to wear it to-night, but it was too
big in the bust and had to be altered. It was gas blue with lavender beads. Two
hundred and sixty-five dollars.”
“There’s something funny about a fellow that’ll do a thing
like that,” said the other girl eagerly. “He doesn’t want any trouble with
ANYbody.”
“Who doesn’t?” I inquired.
“Gatsby. Somebody told me ——”
The two girls and Jordan leaned together confidentially.
“Somebody told me they thought he killed a man once.”
A thrill passed over all of us. The three Mr. Mumbles bent
forward and listened eagerly.
“I don’t think it’s so much that,” argued Lucille
sceptically; “it’s more that he was a German spy during the war.”
One of the men nodded in confirmation.
“I heard that from a man who knew all about him, grew up
with him in Germany,” he assured us positively.
“Oh, no,” said the first girl, “it couldn’t be that, because
he was in the American army during the war.” As our credulity switched back to
her she leaned forward with enthusiasm. “You look at him sometimes when he
thinks nobody’s looking at him. I’ll bet he killed a man.”
She narrowed her eyes and shivered. Lucille shivered. We all
turned and looked around for Gatsby. It was testimony to the romantic
speculation he inspired that there were whispers about him from those who found
little that it was necessary to whisper about in this world.
The first supper — there would be another one after midnight
— was now being served, and Jordan invited me to join her own party, who were
spread around a table on the other side of the garden. There were three married
couples and Jordan’s escort, a persistent undergraduate given to violent
innuendo, and obviously under the impression that sooner or later Jordan was
going to yield him up her person to a greater or lesser degree. Instead of
rambling, this party had preserved a dignified homogeneity, and assumed to
itself the function of representing the staid nobility of the country-side —
East Egg condescending to West Egg, and carefully on guard against its
spectroscopic gayety.
“Let’s get out,” whispered Jordan, after a somehow wasteful
and inappropriate half-hour. “This is much too polite for me.”
We got up, and she explained that we were going to find the
host: I had never met him, she said, and it was making me uneasy. The
undergraduate nodded in a cynical, melancholy way.
The bar, where we glanced first, was crowded, but Gatsby was
not there. She couldn’t find him from the top of the steps, and he wasn’t on
the veranda. On a chance we tried an important-looking door, and walked into a
high Gothic library, panelled with carved English oak, and probably transported
complete from some ruin overseas.
A stout, middle-aged man, with enormous owl-eyed spectacles,
was sitting somewhat drunk on the edge of a great table, staring with unsteady
concentration at the shelves of books. As we entered he wheeled excitedly
around and examined Jordan from head to foot.
“What do you think?” he demanded impetuously.
“About what?” He waved his hand toward the book-shelves.
“About that. As a matter of fact you needn’t bother to
ascertain. I ascertained. They’re real.”
“The books?”
He nodded.
“Absolutely real — have pages and everything. I thought
they’d be a nice durable cardboard. Matter of fact, they’re absolutely real.
Pages and — Here! Lemme show you.”
Taking our scepticism for granted, he rushed to the
bookcases and returned with Volume One of the “Stoddard Lectures.”
“See!” he cried triumphantly. “It’s a bona-fide piece of
printed matter. It fooled me. This fella’s a regular Belasco. It’s a triumph.
What thoroughness! What realism! Knew when to stop, too — didn’t cut the pages.
But what do you want? What do you expect?”
He snatched the book from me and replaced it hastily on its
shelf, muttering that if one brick was removed the whole library was liable to
collapse.
“Who brought you?” he demanded. “Or did you just come? I was
brought. Most people were brought.”
Jordan looked at him alertly, cheerfully, without answering.
“I was brought by a woman named Roosevelt,” he continued.
“Mrs. Claud Roosevelt. Do you know her? I met her somewhere last night. I’ve
been drunk for about a week now, and I thought it might sober me up to sit in a
library.”
“Has it?”
“A little bit, I think. I can’t tell yet. I’ve only been
here an hour. Did I tell you about the books? They’re real. They’re ——”
“You told us.” We shook hands with him gravely and went back
outdoors.
There was dancing now on the canvas in the garden; old men
pushing young girls backward in eternal graceless circles, superior couples
holding each other tortuously, fashionably, and keeping in the corners — and a
great number of single girls dancing individualistically or relieving the
orchestra for a moment of the burden of the banjo or the traps. By midnight the
hilarity had increased. A celebrated tenor had sung in Italian, and a notorious
contralto had sung in jazz, and between the numbers people were doing “stunts”
all over the garden, while happy, vacuous bursts of laughter rose toward the
summer sky. A pair of stage twins, who turned out to be the girls in yellow,
did a baby act in costume, and champagne was served in glasses bigger than
finger-bowls. The moon had risen higher, and floating in the Sound was a
triangle of silver scales, trembling a little to the stiff, tinny drip of the
banjoes on the lawn.
I was still with Jordan Baker. We were sitting at a table
with a man of about my age and a rowdy little girl, who gave way upon the
slightest provocation to uncontrollable laughter. I was enjoying myself now. I
had taken two finger-bowls of champagne, and the scene had changed before my
eyes into something significant, elemental, and profound.
At a lull in the entertainment the man looked at me and
smiled.
“Your face is familiar,” he said, politely. “Weren’t you in
the Third Division during the war?”
“Why, yes. I was in the Ninth Machine-gun Battalion.”
“I was in the Seventh Infantry until June nineteen-eighteen.
I knew I’d seen you somewhere before.”
We talked for a moment about some wet, gray little villages
in France. Evidently he lived in this vicinity, for he told me that he had just
bought a hydroplane, and was going to try it out in the morning.
“Want to go with me, old sport? Just near the shore along
the Sound.”
“What time?”
“Any time that suits you best.”
It was on the tip of my tongue to ask his name when Jordan
looked around and smiled.
“Having a gay time now?” she inquired.
“Much better.” I turned again to my new acquaintance. “This
is an unusual party for me. I haven’t even seen the host. I live over there ——”
I waved my hand at the invisible hedge in the distance, “and this man Gatsby
sent over his chauffeur with an invitation.” For a moment he looked at me as if
he failed to understand.
“I’m Gatsby,” he said suddenly.
“What!” I exclaimed. “Oh, I beg your pardon.”
“I thought you knew, old sport. I’m afraid I’m not a very
good host.”
He smiled understandingly — much more than understandingly.
It was one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it,
that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced — or seemed to
face — the whole external world for an instant, and then concentrated on you
with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just so far as
you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like to believe in
yourself, and assured you that it had precisely the impression of you that, at
your best, you hoped to convey. Precisely at that point it vanished — and I was
looking at an elegant young rough-neck, a year or two over thirty, whose
elaborate formality of speech just missed being absurd. Some time before he
introduced himself I’d got a strong impression that he was picking his words
with care.
Almost at the moment when Mr. Gatsby identified himself, a
butler hurried toward him with the information that Chicago was calling him on
the wire. He excused himself with a small bow that included each of us in turn.
“If you want anything just ask for it, old sport,” he urged
me. “Excuse me. I will rejoin you later.”
When he was gone I turned immediately to Jordan —
constrained to assure her of my surprise. I had expected that Mr. Gatsby would
be a florid and corpulent person in his middle years.
“Who is he?” I demanded.
“Do you know?”
“He’s just a man named Gatsby.”
“Where is he from, I mean? And what does he do?”
“Now you’re started on the subject,” she answered
with a wan smile. “Well, he told me once he was an Oxford man.” A dim
background started to take shape behind him, but at her next remark it faded
away.
“However, I don’t believe it.”
“Why not?” “I don’t know,” she insisted, “I just don’t think
he went there.”
Something in her tone reminded me of the other girl’s “I
think he killed a man,” and had the effect of stimulating my curiosity. I would
have accepted without question the information that Gatsby sprang from the swamps
of Louisiana or from the lower East Side of New York. That was comprehensible.
But young men didn’t — at least in my provincial inexperience I believed they
didn’t — drift coolly out of nowhere and buy a palace on Long Island Sound.
“Anyhow, he gives large parties,” said Jordan, changing the
subject with an urbane distaste for the concrete. “And I like large parties.
They’re so intimate. At small parties there isn’t any privacy.”
There was the boom of a bass drum, and the voice of the
orchestra leader rang out suddenly above the echolalia of the garden.
“Ladies and gentlemen,” he cried. “At the request of Mr.
Gatsby we are going to play for you Mr. Vladimir Tostoff’s latest work, which
attracted so much attention at Carnegie Hall last May. If you read the papers,
you know there was a big sensation.” He smiled with jovial condescension, and
added: “Some sensation!” Whereupon everybody laughed.
“The piece is known,” he concluded lustily, “as Vladimir
Tostoff’s Jazz History of the World.”
The nature of Mr. Tostoff’s composition eluded me, because
just as it began my eyes fell on Gatsby, standing alone on the marble steps and
looking from one group to another with approving eyes. His tanned skin was
drawn attractively tight on his face and his short hair looked as though it
were trimmed every day. I could see nothing sinister about him. I wondered if
the fact that he was not drinking helped to set him off from his guests, for it
seemed to me that he grew more correct as the fraternal hilarity increased. When
the Jazz History of the World was over, girls were putting their heads
on men’s shoulders in a puppyish, convivial way, girls were swooning backward
playfully into men’s arms, even into groups, knowing that some one would arrest
their falls — but no one swooned backward on Gatsby, and no French bob touched
Gatsby’s shoulder, and no singing quartets were formed with Gatsby’s head for
one link.
“I beg your pardon.”
Gatsby’s butler was suddenly standing beside us.
“Miss Baker?” he inquired. “I beg your pardon, but Mr.
Gatsby would like to speak to you alone.”
“With me?” she exclaimed in surprise.
“Yes, madame.”
She got up slowly, raising her eyebrows at me in
astonishment, and followed the butler toward the house. I noticed that she wore
her evening-dress, all her dresses, like sports clothes — there was a
jauntiness about her movements as if she had first learned to walk upon golf
courses on clean, crisp mornings.
I was alone and it was almost two. For some time confused
and intriguing sounds had issued from a long, many-windowed room which overhung
the terrace. Eluding Jordan’s undergraduate, who was now engaged in an
obstetrical conversation with two chorus girls, and who implored me to join
him, I went inside.
The large room was full of people. One of the girls in
yellow was playing the piano, and beside her stood a tall, red-haired young
lady from a famous chorus, engaged in song. She had drunk a quantity of
champagne, and during the course of her song she had decided, ineptly, that
everything was very, very sad — she was not only singing, she was weeping too.
Whenever there was a pause in the song she filled it with gasping, broken sobs,
and then took up the lyric again in a quavering soprano. The tears coursed down
her cheeks — not freely, however, for when they came into contact with her
heavily beaded eyelashes they assumed an inky color, and pursued the rest of
their way in slow black rivulets. A humorous suggestion was made that she sing
the notes on her face, whereupon she threw up her hands, sank into a chair, and
went off into a deep vinous sleep.
“She had a fight with a man who says he’s her husband,”
explained a girl at my elbow.
I looked around. Most of the remaining women were now having
fights with men said to be their husbands. Even Jordan’s party, the quartet
from East Egg, were rent asunder by dissension. One of the men was talking with
curious intensity to a young actress, and his wife, after attempting to laugh
at the situation in a dignified and indifferent way, broke down entirely and resorted
to flank attacks — at intervals she appeared suddenly at his side like an angry
diamond, and hissed: “You promised!” into his ear.
The reluctance to go home was not confined to wayward men.
The hall was at present occupied by two deplorably sober men and their highly
indignant wives. The wives were sympathizing with each other in slightly raised
voices.
“Whenever he sees I’m having a good time he wants to go
home.”
“Never heard anything so selfish in my life.”
“We’re always the first ones to leave.”
“So are we.”
“Well, we’re almost the last to-night,” said one of the men
sheepishly. “The orchestra left half an hour ago.”
In spite of the wives’ agreement that such malevolence was
beyond credibility, the dispute ended in a short struggle, and both wives were
lifted, kicking, into the night.
As I waited for my hat in the hall the door of the library
opened and Jordan Baker and Gatsby came out together. He was saying some last
word to her, but the eagerness in his manner tightened abruptly into formality
as several people approached him to say good-bye.
Jordan’s party were calling impatiently to her from the
porch, but she lingered for a moment to shake hands.
“I’ve just heard the most amazing thing,” she whispered.
“How long were we in there?”
“Why, about an hour.” “It was — simply amazing,” she
repeated abstractedly. “But I swore I wouldn’t tell it and here I am
tantalizing you.” She yawned gracefully in my face: “Please come and see me. .
. . Phone book . . . Under the name of Mrs. Sigourney Howard . . . My aunt . .
. ” She was hurrying off as she talked — her brown hand waved a jaunty salute
as she melted into her party at the door.
Rather ashamed that on my first appearance I had stayed so
late, I joined the last of Gatsby’s guests, who were clustered around him. I
wanted to explain that I’d hunted for him early in the evening and to apologize
for not having known him in the garden.
“Don’t mention it,” he enjoined me eagerly. “Don’t give it
another thought, old sport.” The familiar expression held no more familiarity
than the hand which reassuringly brushed my shoulder. “And don’t forget we’re
going up in the hydroplane to-morrow morning, at nine o’clock.”
Then the butler, behind his shoulder: “Philadelphia wants
you on the ‘phone, sir.”
“All right, in a minute. Tell them I’ll be right there. . .
. good night.”
“Good night.”
“Good night.” He smiled — and suddenly there seemed to be a
pleasant significance in having been among the last to go, as if he had desired
it all the time. “Good night, old sport. . . . good night.”
But as I walked down the steps I saw that the evening was
not quite over. Fifty feet from the door a dozen headlights illuminated a
bizarre and tumultuous scene. In the ditch beside the road, right side up, but
violently shorn of one wheel, rested a new coupe which had left Gatsby’s drive
not two minutes before. The sharp jut of a wall accounted for the detachment of
the wheel, which was now getting considerable attention from half a dozen
curious chauffeurs. However, as they had left their cars blocking the road, a
harsh, discordant din from those in the rear had been audible for some time,
and added to the already violent confusion of the scene.
A man in a long duster had dismounted from the wreck and now
stood in the middle of the road, looking from the car to the tire and from the
tire to the observers in a pleasant, puzzled way.
“See!” he explained. “It went in the ditch.”
The fact was infinitely astonishing to him, and I recognized
first the unusual quality of wonder, and then the man —it was the late patron
of Gatsby’s library.
“How’d it happen?”
He shrugged his shoulders.
“I know nothing whatever about mechanics,” he said
decisively.
“But how did it happen? Did you run into the wall?” “Don’t
ask me,” said Owl Eyes, washing his hands of the whole matter. “I know very
little about driving — next to nothing. It happened, and that’s all I know.”
“Well, if you’re a poor driver you oughtn’t to try driving
at night.”
“But I wasn’t even trying,” he explained indignantly, “I
wasn’t even trying.”
An awed hush fell upon the bystanders.
“Do you want to commit suicide?”
“You’re lucky it was just a wheel! A bad driver and not even
TRYing!”
“You don’t understand,” explained the criminal. “I wasn’t
driving. There’s another man in the car.”
The shock that followed this declaration found voice in a
sustained “Ah-h-h!” as the door of the coupe swung slowly open. The crowd — it
was now a crowd — stepped back involuntarily, and when the door had opened wide
there was a ghostly pause. Then, very gradually, part by part, a pale, dangling
individual stepped out of the wreck, pawing tentatively at the ground with a
large uncertain dancing shoe.
Blinded by the glare of the headlights and confused by the
incessant groaning of the horns, the apparition stood swaying for a moment
before he perceived the man in the duster.
“Wha’s matter?” he inquired calmly. “Did we run outa gas?”
“Look!”
Half a dozen fingers pointed at the amputated wheel — he
stared at it for a moment, and then looked upward as though he suspected that
it had dropped from the sky.
“It came off,” some one explained.
He nodded.
“At first I din’ notice we’d stopped.”
A pause. Then, taking a long breath and straightening his
shoulders, he remarked in a determined voice:
“Wonder’ff tell me where there’s a gas’line station?”
At least a dozen men, some of them little better off than he
was, explained to him that wheel and car were no longer joined by any physical
bond.
“Back out,” he suggested after a moment. “Put her in
reverse.”
“But the wheel’s off!”
He hesitated.
“No harm in trying,” he said.
The caterwauling horns had reached a crescendo and I turned
away and cut across the lawn toward home. I glanced back once. A wafer of a
moon was shining over Gatsby’s house, making the night fine as before, and surviving
the laughter and the sound of his still glowing garden. A sudden emptiness
seemed to flow now from the windows and the great doors, endowing with complete
isolation the figure of the host, who stood on the porch, his hand up in a
formal gesture of farewell.
Reading over what I have written so far, I see I have given
the impression that the events of three nights several weeks apart were all
that absorbed me. On the contrary, they were merely casual events in a crowded
summer, and, until much later, they absorbed me infinitely less than my
personal affairs.
Most of the time I worked. In the early morning the sun
threw my shadow westward as I hurried down the white chasms of lower New York
to the Probity Trust. I knew the other clerks and young bond-salesmen by their
first names, and lunched with them in dark, crowded restaurants on little pig
sausages and mashed potatoes and coffee. I even had a short affair with a girl
who lived in Jersey City and worked in the accounting department, but her
brother began throwing mean looks in my direction, so when she went on her
vacation in July I let it blow quietly away.
I took dinner usually at the Yale Club — for some reason it
was the gloomiest event of my day — and then I went up-stairs to the library
and studied investments and securities for a conscientious hour. There were
generally a few rioters around, but they never came into the library, so it was
a good place to work. After that, if the night was mellow, I strolled down
Madison Avenue past the old Murray Hill Hotel, and over 33rd Street to the
Pennsylvania Station.
I began to like New York, the racy, adventurous feel of it
at night, and the satisfaction that the constant flicker of men and women and
machines gives to the restless eye. I liked to walk up Fifth Avenue and pick
out romantic women from the crowd and imagine that in a few minutes I was going
to enter into their lives, and no one would ever know or disapprove. Sometimes,
in my mind, I followed them to their apartments on the corners of hidden streets,
and they turned and smiled back at me before they faded through a door into
warm darkness. At the enchanted metropolitan twilight I felt a haunting
loneliness sometimes, and felt it in others — poor young clerks who loitered in
front of windows waiting until it was time for a solitary restaurant dinner —
young clerks in the dusk, wasting the most poignant moments of night and life.
Again at eight o’clock, when the dark lanes of the Forties
were five deep with throbbing taxi-cabs, bound for the theatre district, I felt
a sinking in my heart. Forms leaned together in the taxis as they waited, and
voices sang, and there was laughter from unheard jokes, and lighted cigarettes
outlined unintelligible 70 gestures inside. Imagining that I, too, was hurrying
toward gayety and sharing their intimate excitement, I wished them well.
For a while I lost sight of Jordan Baker, and then in
midsummer I found her again. At first I was flattered to go places with her,
because she was a golf champion, and every one knew her name. Then it was
something more. I wasn’t actually in love, but I felt a sort of tender
curiosity. The bored haughty face that she turned to the world concealed
something — most affectations conceal something eventually, even though they
don’t in the beginning — and one day I found what it was. When we were on a
house-party together up in Warwick, she left a borrowed car out in the rain
with the top down, and then lied about it — and suddenly I remembered the story
about her that had eluded me that night at Daisy’s. At her first big golf
tournament there was a row that nearly reached the newspapers — a suggestion
that she had moved her ball from a bad lie in the semi-final round. The thing
approached the proportions of a scandal — then died away. A caddy retracted his
statement, and the only other witness admitted that he might have been
mistaken. The incident and the name had remained together in my mind.
Jordan Baker instinctively avoided clever, shrewd men, and
now I saw that this was because she felt safer on a plane where any divergence
from a code would be thought impossible. She was incurably dishonest. She
wasn’t able to endure being at a disadvantage and, given this unwillingness, I
suppose she had begun dealing in subterfuges when she was very young in order
to keep that cool, insolent smile turned to the world and yet satisfy the
demands of her hard, jaunty body.
It made no difference to me. Dishonesty in a woman is a
thing you never blame deeply — I was casually sorry, and then I forgot. It was on
that same house party that we had a curious conversation about driving a car.
It started because she passed so close to some workmen that our fender flicked
a button on one man’s coat.
“You’re a rotten driver,” I protested. “Either you ought to
be more careful, or you oughtn’t to drive at all.”
“I am careful.”
“No, you’re not.”
“Well, other people are,” she said lightly.
“What’s that got to do with it?”
“They’ll keep out of my way,” she insisted. “It takes two to
make an accident.”
“Suppose you met somebody just as careless as yourself.”
“I hope I never will,” she answered. “I hate careless
people. That’s why I like you.”
Her gray, sun-strained eyes stared straight ahead, but she
had deliberately shifted our relations, and for a moment I thought I loved her.
But I am slow-thinking and full of interior rules that act as brakes on my
desires, and I knew that first I had to get myself definitely out of that
tangle back home. I’d been writing letters once a week and signing them:“Love,
Nick,” and all I could think of was how, when that certain girl played tennis,
a faint mustache of perspiration appeared on her upper lip. Nevertheless there
was a vague understanding that had to be tactfully broken off before I was
free.
Every one suspects himself of at least one of the cardinal
virtues, and this is mine: I am one of the few honest people that I have ever
known.
Chapter 4
On Sunday morning while church bells rang in the villages
alongshore, the world and its mistress returned to Gatsby’s house and twinkled
hilariously on his lawn.
“He’s a bootlegger,” said the young ladies, moving somewhere
between his cocktails and his flowers. “One time he killed a man who had found
out that he was nephew to Von Hindenburg and second cousin to the devil. Reach
me a rose, honey, and pour me a last drop into that there crystal glass.”
Once I wrote down on the empty spaces of a time-table the
names of those who came to Gatsby’s house that summer. It is an old time-table
now, disintegrating at its folds, and headed “This schedule in effect July 5th,
1922.” But I can still read the gray names, and they will give you a better
impression than my generalities of those who accepted Gatsby’s hospitality and
paid him the subtle tribute of knowing nothing whatever about him.
From East Egg, then, came the Chester Beckers and the
Leeches, and a man named Bunsen, whom I knew at Yale, and Doctor Webster Civet,
who was drowned last summer up in Maine. And the Hornbeams and the Willie
Voltaires, and a whole clannamed Blackbuck, who always gathered in a corner and
flipped up their noses like goats at whosoever came near. And the Ismays and
the Chrysties (or rather Hubert Auerbach and Mr. Chrystie’s wife), and Edgar
Beaver, whose hair, they say, turned cotton-white one winter afternoon for no
good reason at all.
Clarence Endive was from East Egg, as I remember. He came
only once, in white knickerbockers, and had a fight with a bum named Etty in
the garden. From farther out on the Island came the Cheadles and the O. R. P.
Schraeders, and the Stonewall Jackson Abrams of Georgia, and the Fishguards and
the Ripley Snells. Snell was there three days before he went to the
penitentiary, so drunk out on the gravel drive that Mrs. Ulysses Swett’s
automobile ran over his right hand. The Dancies came, too, and S. B. Whitebait,
who was well over sixty, and Maurice A. Flink, and the Hammerheads, and Beluga
the tobacco importer, and Beluga’s girls.
From West Egg came the Poles and the Mulreadys and Cecil
Roebuck and Cecil Schoen and Gulick the state senator and Newton Orchid, who
controlled Films Par Excellence, and Eckhaust and Clyde Cohen and Don S.
Schwartze (the son) and Arthur McCarty, all connected with the movies in one
way or another. And the Catlips and the Bembergs and G. Earl Muldoon, brother
to that Muldoon who afterward strangled his wife. Da Fontano the promoter came
there, and Ed Legros and James B. (“Rot-Gut.”) Ferret and the De Jongs and
Ernest Lilly — they came to gamble, and when Ferret wandered into the garden it
meant he was cleaned out and Associated Traction would have to fluctuate
profitably next day.
A man named Klipspringer was there so often and so long that
he became known as “the boarder.”— I doubt if he had any other home. Of
theatrical people there were Gus Waize and Horace O’donavan and Lester Meyer
and George Duckweed and Francis Bull. Also from New York were the Chromes and
the Backhyssons and the Dennickers and Russel Betty and the Corrigans and the
Kellehers and the Dewars and the Scullys and S. W. Belcher and the Smirkes and
the young Quinns, divorced now, and Henry L. Palmetto, who killed himself by
jumping in front of a subway train in Times Square.
Benny McClenahan arrived always with four girls. They were
never quite the same ones in physical person, but they were so identical one with
another that it inevitably seemed they had been there before. I have forgotten
their names —Jaqueline, I think, or else Consuela, or Gloria or Judy or June,
and their last names were either the melodious names of flowers and months or
the sterner ones of the great American capitalists whose cousins, if pressed,
they would confess themselves to be.
In addition to all these I can remember that Faustina
O’brien came there at least once and the Baedeker girls and young Brewer, who
had his nose shot off in the war, and Mr. Albrucksburger and Miss Haag, his
fiancee, and Ardita Fitz-Peters and Mr. P. Jewett, once head of the American
Legion, and Miss Claudia Hip, with a man reputed to be her chauffeur, and a
prince of something, whom we called Duke, and whose name, if I ever knew it, I
have forgotten.
All these people came to Gatsby’s house in the summer.
At nine o’clock, one morning late in July, Gatsby’s gorgeous
car lurched up the rocky drive to my door and gave out a burst of melody from
its three-noted horn. It was the first time he had called on me, though I had
gone to two of his parties, mounted in his hydroplane, and, at his urgent
invitation, made frequent use of his beach.
“Good morning, old sport. You’re having lunch with me to-day
and I thought we’d ride up together.”
He was balancing himself on the dashboard of his car with
that resourcefulness of movement that is so peculiarly American — that comes, I
suppose, with the absence of lifting work or rigid sitting in youth and, even
more, with the formless grace of our nervous, sporadic games. This quality was
continually breaking through his punctilious manner in the shape of
restlessness. He was never quite still; there was always a tapping foot
somewhere or the impatient opening and closing of a hand.
He saw me looking with admiration at his car.
“It’s pretty, isn’t it, old sport?” He jumped off to give me
a better view. “Haven’t you ever seen it before?”
I’d seen it. Everybody had seen it. It was a rich cream
color, bright with nickel, swollen here and there in its monstrous length with
triumphant hat-boxes and supper-boxes and tool-boxes, and terraced with a
labyrinth of wind-shields that mirrored a dozen suns. Sitting down behind many
layers of glass in a sort of green leather conservatory, we started to town.
I had talked with him perhaps half a dozen times in the past
month and found, to my disappointment, that he had little to say: So my first
impression, that he was a person of some undefined consequence, had gradually
faded and he had become simply the proprietor of an elaborate road-house next
door.
And then came that disconcerting ride. We hadn’t reached
West Egg village before Gatsby began leaving his elegant sentences unfinished
and slapping himself indecisively on the knee of his caramel-colored suit.
“Look here, old sport,” he broke out surprisingly. “What’s
your opinion of me, anyhow?” A little overwhelmed, I began the generalized
evasions which that question deserves.
“Well, I’m going to tell you something about my life,” he
interrupted. “I don’t want you to get a wrong idea of me from all these stories
you hear.”
So he was aware of the bizarre accusations that flavored
conversation in his halls.
“I’ll tell you God’s truth.” His right hand suddenly ordered
divine retribution to stand by. “I am the son of some wealthy people in the
Middle West — all dead now. I was brought up in America but educated at Oxford,
because all my ancestors have been educated there for many years. It is a
family tradition.”
He looked at me sideways — and I knew why Jordan Baker had
believed he was lying. He hurried the phrase “educated at Oxford,” or swallowed
it, or choked on it, as though it had bothered him before. And with this doubt,
his whole statement fell to pieces, and I wondered if there wasn’t something a little
sinister about him, after all.
“What part of the Middle West?” I inquired casually.
“San Francisco.”
“I see.”
“My family all died and I came into a good deal of money.”
His voice was solemn, as if the memory of that sudden
extinction of a clan still haunted him. For a moment I suspected that he was
pulling my leg, but a glance at him convinced me otherwise.
“After that I lived like a young rajah in all the capitals
of Europe — Paris, Venice, Rome — collecting jewels, chiefly rubies, hunting
big game, painting a little, things for myself only, and trying to forget
something very sad that had happened to me long ago.”
With an effort I managed to restrain my incredulous
laughter. The very phrases were worn so threadbare that they evoked no image
except that of a turbaned “character” leaking sawdust at every pore as he
pursued a tiger through the Bois de Boulogne.
“Then came the war, old sport. It was a great relief, and I
tried very hard to die, but I seemed to bear an enchanted life. I accepted a
commission as first lieutenant when it began. In the Argonne Forest I took two
machine-gun detachments so far forward that there was a half mile gap on either
side of us where the infantry couldn’t advance. We stayed there two days and
two nights, a hundred and thirty men with sixteen Lewis guns, and when the
infantry came up at last they found the insignia of three German divisions
among the piles of dead. I was promoted to be a major, and every Allied
government gave me a decoration — even Montenegro, little Montenegro down on
the Adriatic Sea!”
Little Montenegro! He lifted up the words and nodded at them
— with his smile. The smile comprehended Montenegro’s troubled history and
sympathized with the brave struggles of the Montenegrin people. It appreciated
fully the chain of national circumstances which had elicited this tribute from
Montenegro’s warm little heart. My incredulity was submerged in fascination
now; it was like skimming hastily through a dozen magazines.
He reached in his pocket, and a piece of metal, slung on a
ribbon, fell into my palm.
“That’s the one from Montenegro.”
To my astonishment, the thing had an authentic look.
“Orderi di Danilo,” ran the circular legend, “Montenegro,
Nicolas Rex.”
“Turn it.”
“Major Jay Gatsby,” I read, “For Valour Extraordinary.”
“Here’s another thing I always carry. A souvenir of Oxford
days. It was taken in Trinity Quad — the man on my left is now the Earl of
Dorcaster.”
It was a photograph of half a dozen young men in blazers
loafing in an archway through which were visible a host of spires. There was
Gatsby, looking a little, not much, younger — with a cricket bat in his hand.
Then it was all true. I saw the skins of tigers flaming in
his palace on the Grand Canal; I saw him opening a chest of rubies to ease, with
their crimson-lighted depths, the gnawings of his broken heart.
“I’m going to make a big request of you to-day,” he said,
pocketing his souvenirs with satisfaction, “so I thought you ought to know
something about me. I didn’t want you to think I was just some nobody. You see,
I usually find myself among strangers because I drift here and there trying to
forget the sad thing that happened to me.” He hesitated. “You’ll hear about it
this afternoon.”
“At lunch?”
“No, this afternoon. I happened to find out that you’re
taking Miss Baker to tea.”
“Do you mean you’re in love with Miss Baker?”
“No, old sport, I’m not. But Miss Baker has kindly consented
to speak to you about this matter.”
I hadn’t the faintest idea what “this matter” was, but I was
more annoyed than interested. I hadn’t asked Jordan to tea in order to discuss
Mr. Jay Gatsby. I was sure the request would be something utterly fantastic,
and for a moment I was sorry I’d ever set foot upon his overpopulated lawn.
He wouldn’t say another word. His correctness grew on him as
we neared the city. We passed Port Roosevelt, where there was a glimpse of
red-belted ocean-going ships, and sped along a cobbled slum lined with the
dark, undeserted saloons of the faded-gilt nineteen-hundreds. Then the valley
of ashes opened out on both sides of us, and I had a glimpse of Mrs. Wilson
straining at the garage pump with panting vitality as we went by.
With fenders spread like wings we scattered light through
half Long Island City — only half, for as we twisted among the pillars of the
elevated I heard the familiar “jug — jug — spat!” of a motorcycle, and a
frantic policeman rode alongside.
“All right, old sport,” called Gatsby. We slowed down.
Taking a white card from his wallet, he waved it before the man’s eyes.
“Right you are,” agreed the policeman, tipping his cap.
“Know you next time, Mr. Gatsby. Excuse me!”
“What was that?” I inquired.
“The picture of Oxford?”
“I was able to do the commissioner a favor once, and he
sends me a Christmas card every year.”
Over the great bridge, with the sunlight through the girders
making a constant flicker upon the moving cars, with the city rising up across
the river in white heaps and sugar lumps all built with a wish out of
non-olfactory money. The city seen from the Queensboro Bridge is always the
city seen for the first time, in its first wild promise of all the mystery and
the beauty in the world.
A dead man passed us in a hearse heaped with blooms,
followed by two carriages with drawn blinds, and by more cheerful carriages for
friends. The friends looked out at us with the tragic eyes and short upper lips
of southeastern Europe, and I was glad that the sight of Gatsby’s splendid car
was included in their sombre holiday. As we crossed Blackwell’s Island a
limousine passed us, driven by a white chauffeur, in which sat three modish
negroes, two bucks and a girl. I laughed aloud as the yolks of their eyeballs
rolled toward us in haughty rivalry.
“Anything can happen now that we’ve slid over this bridge,”
I thought; “anything at all. . . . ”
Even Gatsby could happen, without any particular wonder.
Roaring noon. In a well-fanned Forty-second Street cellar I
met Gatsby for lunch. Blinking away the brightness of the street outside, my
eyes picked him out obscurely in the anteroom, talking to another man.
“Mr. Carraway, this is my friend Mr. Wolfsheim.”
A small, flat-nosed Jew raised his large head and regarded
me with two fine growths of hair which luxuriated in either nostril. After a
moment I discovered his tiny eyes in the half-darkness.
“— So I took one look at him,” said Mr. Wolfsheim, shaking
my hand earnestly, “and what do you think I did?”
“What?” I inquired politely.
But evidently he was not addressing me, for he dropped my
hand and covered Gatsby with his expressive nose.
“I handed the money to Katspaugh and I said: ‘all right,
Katspaugh, don’t pay him a penny till he shuts his mouth.’ He shut it then and
there.”
Gatsby took an arm of each of us and moved forward into the
restaurant, whereupon Mr. Wolfsheim swallowed a new sentence he was starting
and lapsed into a somnambulatory abstraction.
“Highballs?” asked the head waiter.
“This is a nice restaurant here,” said Mr. Wolfsheim,
looking at the Presbyterian nymphs on the ceiling. “But I like across the
street better!”
“Yes, highballs,” agreed Gatsby, and then to Mr. Wolfsheim:
“It’s too hot over there.”
“Hot and small — yes,” said Mr. Wolfsheim, “but full of
memories.”
“What place is that?” I asked.
“The old Metropole.
“The old Metropole,” brooded Mr. Wolfsheim gloomily. “Filled
with faces dead and gone. Filled with friends gone now forever. I can’t forget
so long as I live the night they shot Rosy Rosenthal there. It was six of us at
the table, and Rosy had eat and drunk a lot all evening. When it was almost
morning the waiter came up to him with a funny look and says somebody wants to
speak to him outside. ‘All right,’ says Rosy, and begins to get up, and I
pulled him down in his chair.
“‘Let the bastards come in here if they want you, Rosy, but
don’t you, so help me, move outside this room.’
“It was four o’clock in the morning then, and if we’d of
raised the blinds we’d of seen daylight.”
“Did he go?” I asked innocently.
“Sure he went.” Mr. Wolfsheim’s nose flashed at me
indignantly. “He turned around in the door and says: ‘Don’t let that waiter
take away my coffee!’ Then he went out on the sidewalk, and they shot him three
times in his full belly and drove away.”
“Four of them were electrocuted,” I said, remembering.
“Five, with Becker.” His nostrils turned to me in an
interested way. “I understand you’re looking for a business gonnegtion.”
The juxtaposition of these two remarks was startling. Gatsby
answered for me:
“Oh, no,” he exclaimed, “this isn’t the man.”
“No?” Mr. Wolfsheim seemed disappointed.
“This is just a friend. I told you we’d talk about that some
other time.”
“I beg your pardon,” said Mr. Wolfsheim, “I had a wrong
man.”
A succulent hash arrived, and Mr. Wolfsheim, forgetting the
more sentimental atmosphere of the old Metropole, began to eat with ferocious
delicacy. His eyes, meanwhile, roved very slowly all around the room — he
completed the arc by turning to inspect the people directly behind. I think
that, except for my presence, he would have taken one short glance beneath our
own table.
“Look here, old sport,” said Gatsby, leaning toward me, “I’m
afraid I made you a little angry this morning in the car.”
There was the smile again, but this time I held out against
it.
“I don’t like mysteries,” I answered. “And I don’t
understand why you won’t come out frankly and tell me what you want. Why has it
all got to come through Miss Baker?”
“Oh, it’s nothing underhand,” he assured me. “Miss Baker’s a
great sportswoman, you know, and she’d never do anything that wasn’t all
right.”
Suddenly he looked at his watch, jumped up, and hurried from
the room, leaving me with Mr. Wolfsheim at the table.
“He has to telephone,” said Mr. Wolfsheim, following him
with his eyes. “Fine fellow, isn’t he? Handsome to look at and a perfect
gentleman.”
“Yes.”
“He’s an Oggsford man.”
“Oh!”
“He went to Oggsford College in England. You know Oggsford
College?”
“I’ve heard of it.”
“It’s one of the most famous colleges in the world.”
“Have you known Gatsby for a long time?” I inquired.
“Several years,” he answered in a gratified way. “I made the
pleasure of his acquaintance just after the war. But I knew I had discovered a
man of fine breeding after I talked with him an hour. I said to myself:
‘There’s the kind of man you’d like to take home and introduce to your mother
and sister.’.” He paused. “I see you’re looking at my cuff buttons.”I hadn’t
been looking at them, but I did now.
They were composed of oddly familiar pieces of ivory.
“Finest specimens of human molars,” he informed me.
“Well!” I inspected them. “That’s a very interesting idea.”
“Yeah.” He flipped his sleeves up under his coat. “Yeah,
Gatsby’s very careful about women. He would never so much as look at a friend’s
wife.”
When the subject of this instinctive trust returned to the
table and sat down Mr. Wolfsheim drank his coffee with a jerk and got to his
feet.
“I have enjoyed my lunch,” he said, “and I’m going to run
off from you two young men before I outstay my welcome.”
“Don’t hurry, Meyer,” said Gatsby, without enthusiasm. Mr.
Wolfsheim raised his hand in a sort of benediction.
“You’re very polite, but I belong to another generation,” he
announced solemnly. “You sit here and discuss your sports and your young ladies
and your ——” He supplied an imaginary noun with another wave of his hand. “As
for me, I am fifty years old, and I won’t impose myself on you any longer.”
As he shook hands and turned away his tragic nose was
trembling. I wondered if I had said anything to offend him.
“He becomes very sentimental sometimes,” explained Gatsby.
“This is one of his sentimental days. He’s quite a character around New York —
a denizen of Broadway.”
“Who is he, anyhow, an actor?”
“No.”
“A dentist?”
“Meyer Wolfsheim? No, he’s a gambler.” Gatsby hesitated,
then added coolly: “He’s the man who fixed the World’s Series back in 1919.”
“Fixed the World’s Series?” I repeated.
The idea staggered me. I remembered, of course, that the
World’s Series had been fixed in 1919, but if I had thought of it at all I
would have thought of it as a thing that merely happened, the end of
some inevitable chain. It never occurred to me that one man could start to play
with the faith of fifty million people — with the single-mindedness of a
burglar blowing a safe.
“How did he happen to do that?” I asked after a minute.
“He just saw the opportunity.”
“Why isn’t he in jail?”
“They can’t get him, old sport. He’s a smart man.”
I insisted on paying the check. As the waiter brought my
change I caught sight of Tom Buchanan across the crowded room.
“Come along with me for a minute,” I said; “I’ve got to say
hello to some one.” When he saw us Tom jumped up and took half a dozen steps in
our direction.
“Where’ve you been?” he demamded eagerly. “Daisy’s furious
because you haven’t called up.”
“This is Mr. Gatsby, Mr. Buchanan.”
They shook hands briefly, and a strained, unfamiliar look of
embarrassment came over Gatsby’s face.
“How’ve you been, anyhow?” demanded Tom of me. “How’d you
happen to come up this far to eat?”
“I’ve been having lunch with Mr. Gatsby.”
I turned toward Mr. Gatsby, but he was no longer there.
One October day in nineteen-seventeen ——
(said Jordan Baker that afternoon, sitting up very straight
on a straight chair in the tea-garden at the Plaza Hotel)
— I was walking along from one place to another, half on the
sidewalks and half on the lawns. I was happier on the lawns because I had on
shoes from England with rubber nobs on the soles that bit into the soft ground.
I had on a new plaid skirt also that blew a little in the wind, and whenever
this happened the red, white, and blue banners in front of all the houses
stretched out stiff and said tut-TUT-TUT-TUT, in a disapproving way.
The largest of the banners and the largest of the lawns
belonged to Daisy Fay’s house. She was just eighteen, two years older than me,
and by far the most popular of all the young girls in Louisville. She dressed
in white, and had a little white roadster, and all day long the telephone rang
in her house and excited young officers from Camp Taylor demanded the privilege
of monopolizing her that night. “Anyways, for an hour!”
When I came opposite her house that morning her white
roadster was beside the curb, and she was sitting in it with a lieutenant I had
never seen before. They were so engrossed in each other that she didn’t see me
until I was five feet away.
“Hello, Jordan,” she called unexpectedly. “Please come
here.”
I was flattered that she wanted to speak to me, because of
all the older girls I admired her most. She asked me if I was going to the Red
Cross and make bandages. I was. Well, then, would I tell them that she couldn’t
come that day? The officer looked at Daisy while she was speaking, in a way
that every young girl wants to be looked at sometime, and because it seemed
romantic to me I have remembered the incident ever since. His name was Jay
Gatsby, and I didn’t lay eyes on him again for over four years — even after I’d
met him on Long Island I didn’t realize it was the same man.
That was nineteen-seventeen. By the next year I had a few
beaux myself, and I began to play in tournaments, so I didn’t see Daisy very
often. She went with a slightly older crowd — when she went with anyone at all.
Wild rumors were circulating about her — how her mother had found her packing
her bag one winter night to go to New York and say good-by to a soldier who was
going overseas. She was effectually prevented, but she wasn’t on speaking terms
with her family for several weeks. After that she didn’t play around with the
soldiers any more, but only with a few flat-footed, short-sighted young men in
town, who couldn’t get into the army at all.
By the next autumn she was gay again, gay as ever. She had a
debut after the Armistice, and in February she was presumably engaged to a man
from New Orleans. In June she married Tom Buchanan of Chicago, with more pomp
and circumstance than Louisville ever knew before. He came down with a hundred
people in four private cars, and hired a whole floor of the Seelbach Hotel, and
the day before the wedding he gave her a string of pearls valued at three
hundred and fifty thousand dollars.
I was bridesmaid. I came into her room half an hour before
the bridal dinner, and found her lying on her bed as lovely as the June night
in her flowered dress — and as drunk as a monkey. She had a bottle of Sauterne
in one hand and a letter in the other.
“’Gratulate me,” she muttered. “Never had a drink before,
but oh how I do enjoy it.”
“What’s the matter, Daisy?”
I was scared, I can tell you; I’d never seen a girl like
that before.
“Here, deares’.” She groped around in a waste-basket she had
with her on the bed and pulled out the string of pearls.“Take ’em down-stairs
and give ’em back to whoever they belong to. Tell ’em all Daisy’s change’ her
mine. Say: ‘Daisy’s change’ her mine!’.”
She began to cry — she cried and cried. I rushed out and
found her mother’s maid, and we locked the door and got her into a cold bath.
She wouldn’t let go of the letter. She took it into the tub with her and
squeezed it up into a wet ball, and only let me leave it in the soap-dish when
she saw that it was coming to pieces like snow.
But she didn’t say another word. We gave her spirits of
ammonia and put ice on her forehead and hooked her back into her dress, and
half an hour later, when we walked out of the room, the pearls were around her
neck and the incident was over. Next day at five o’clock she married Tom
Buchanan without so much as a shiver, and started off on a three months’trip to
the South Seas.
I saw them in Santa Barbara when they came back, and I
thought I’d never seen a girl so mad about her husband. If he left the room for
a minute she’d look around uneasily, and say: “Where’s Tom gone?” and wear the
most abstracted expression until she saw him coming in the door. She used to
sit on the sand with his head in her lap by the hour, rubbing her fingers over
his eyes and looking at him with unfathomable delight. It was touching to see
them together — it made you laugh in a hushed, fascinated way. That was in
August. A week after I left Santa Barbara Tom ran into a wagon on the Ventura
road one night, and ripped a front wheel off his car. The girl who was with him
got into the papers, too, because her arm was broken — she was one of the
chambermaids in the Santa Barbara Hotel.
The next April Daisy had her little girl, and they went to
France for a year. I saw them one spring in Cannes, and later in Deauville, and
then they came back to Chicago to settle down. Daisy was popular in Chicago, as
you know. They moved with a fast crowd, all of them young and rich and wild,
but she came out with an absolutely perfect reputation. Perhaps because she
doesn’t drink. It’s a great advantage not to drink among hard-drinking people.
You can hold your tongue, and, moreover, you can time any little irregularity
of your own so that everybody else is so blind that they don’t see or care.
Perhaps Daisy never went in for amour at all — and yet there’s something in
that voice of hers. . . .
Well, about six weeks ago, she heard the name Gatsby for the
first time in years. It was when I asked you — do you remember? — if you knew
Gatsby in West Egg. After you had gone home she came into my room and woke me
up, and said: “What Gatsby?” and when I described him — I was half asleep — she
said in the strangest voice that it must be the man she used to know. It wasn’t
until then that I connected this Gatsby with the officer in her white car.
When Jordan Baker had finished telling all this we had left
the Plaza for half an hour and were driving in a victoria through Central Park.
The sun had gone down behind the tall apartments of the movie stars in the West
Fifties, and the clear voices of girls, already gathered like crickets on the
grass, rose through the hot twilight:
“I’m the Sheik of Araby.
Your love belongs to me.
At night when you’re are asleep
Into your tent I’ll creep ——”
“It was a strange coincidence,” I said.
“But it wasn’t a coincidence at all.”
“Why not?”
“Gatsby bought that house so that Daisy would be just across
the bay.”
Then it had not been merely the stars to which he had
aspired on that June night. He came alive to me, delivered suddenly from the
womb of his purposeless splendor.
“He wants to know,” continued Jordan, “if you’ll invite
Daisy to your house some afternoon and then let him come over.”
The modesty of the demand shook me. He had waited five years
and bought a mansion where he dispensed starlight to casual moths — so that he
could “come over” some afternoon to a stranger’s garden.
“Did I have to know all this before he could ask such a
little thing?”
“He’s afraid, he’s waited so long. He thought you might be
offended. You see, he’s a regular tough underneath it all.”
Something worried me.
“Why didn’t he ask you to arrange a meeting?”
“He wants her to see his house,” she explained. “And your
house is right next door.”
“Oh!”
“I think he half expected her to wander into one of his
parties, some night,” went on Jordan, “but she never did. Then he began asking
people casually if they knew her, and I was the first one he found. It was that
night he sent for me at his dance, and you should have heard the elaborate way
he worked up to it. Of course, I immediately suggested a luncheon in New York —
and I thought he’d go mad:
“‘I don’t want to do anything out of the way!’ he kept
saying. ‘I want to see her right next door.’
“When I said you were a particular friend of Tom’s, he
started to abandon the whole idea. He doesn’t know very much about Tom, though
he says he’s read a Chicago paper for years just on the chance of catching a
glimpse of Daisy’s name.”
It was dark now, and as we dipped under a little bridge I
put my arm around Jordan’s golden shoulder and drew her toward me and asked her
to dinner. Suddenly I wasn’t thinking of Daisy and Gatsby any more, but of this
clean, hard, limited person, who dealt in universal scepticism, and who leaned
back jauntily just within the circle of my arm. A phrase began to beat in my
ears with a sort of heady excitement: “There are only the pursued, the
pursuing, the busy and the tired.”
“And Daisy ought to have something in her life,” murmured
Jordan to me.
“Does she want to see Gatsby?”
“She’s not to know about it. Gatsby doesn’t want her to
know. You’re just supposed to invite her to tea.”
We passed a barrier of dark trees, and then the facade of
Fifty-ninth Street, a block of delicate pale light, beamed down into the park.
Unlike Gatsby and Tom Buchanan, I had no girl whose disembodied face floated along
the dark cornices and blinding signs, and so I drew up the girl beside me,
tightening my arms. Her wan, scornful mouth smiled, and so I drew her up again
closer, this time to my face.
Chapter 5
When I came home to West Egg that night I was afraid for a
moment that my house was on fire. Two o’clock and the whole corner of the
peninsula was blazing with light, which fell unreal on the shrubbery and made
thin elongating glints upon the roadside wires. Turning a corner, I saw that it
was Gatsby’s house, lit from tower to cellar.
At first I thought it was another party, a wild rout that
had resolved itself into “hide-and-go-seek” or“sardines-in-the-box” with all
the house thrown open to the game. But there wasn’t a sound. Only wind in the
trees, which blew the wires and made the lights go off and on again as if the
house had winked into the darkness. As my taxi groaned away I saw Gatsby
walking toward me across his lawn.
“Your place looks like the World’s Fair,” I said.
“Does it?” He turned his eyes toward it absently. “I have
been glancing into some of the rooms. Let’s go to Coney Island, old sport. In
my car.”
“It’s too late.”
“Well, suppose we take a plunge in the swimming-pool? I
haven’t made use of it all summer.”
“I’ve got to go to bed.”
“All right.”
He waited, looking at me with suppressed eagerness.
“I talked with Miss Baker,” I said after a moment. “I’m
going to call up Daisy to-morrow and invite her over here to tea.”
“Oh, that’s all right,” he said carelessly. “I don’t want to
put you to any trouble.”
“What day would suit you?”
“What day would suit you?” he corrected me quickly.
“I don’t want to put you to any trouble, you see.”
“How about the day after to-morrow?” He considered for a
moment. Then, with reluctance:
“I want to get the grass cut,” he said.
We both looked at the grass — there was a sharp line where
my ragged lawn ended and the darker, well-kept expanse of his began. I
suspected that he meant my grass.
“There’s another little thing,” he said uncertainly, and
hesitated.
“Would you rather put it off for a few days?” I asked.
“Oh, it isn’t about that. At least ——” He fumbled with a
series of beginnings. “Why, I thought — why, look here, old sport, you don’t
make much money, do you?”
“Not very much.”
This seemed to reassure him and he continued more
confidently.
“I thought you didn’t, if you’ll pardon my — You see, I
carry on a little business on the side, a sort of side line, you understand.
And I thought that if you don’t make very much — You’re selling bonds, aren’t
you, old sport?”
“Trying to.”
“Well, this would interest you. It wouldn’t take up much of
your time and you might pick up a nice bit of money. It happens to be a rather
confidential sort of thing.”
I realize now that under different circumstances that
conversation might have been one of the crises of my life. But, because the
offer was obviously and tactlessly for a service to be rendered, I had no
choice except to cut him off there.
“I’ve got my hands full,” I said. “I’m much obliged but I
couldn’t take on any more work.”
“You wouldn’t have to do any business with Wolfsheim.”
Evidently he thought that I was shying away from the“gonnegtion” mentioned at
lunch, but I assured him he was wrong. He waited a moment longer, hoping I’d
begin a conversation, but I was too absorbed to be responsive, so he went
unwillingly home.
The evening had made me light-headed and happy; I think I
walked into a deep sleep as I entered my front door. So I didn’t know whether
or not Gatsby went to Coney Island, or for how many hours he “glanced into
rooms” while his house blazed gaudily on. I called up Daisy from the office
next morning, and invited her to come to tea.
“Don’t bring Tom,” I warned her.
“What?”
“Don’t bring Tom.”
“Who is ‘Tom’?” she asked innocently.
The day agreed upon was pouring rain. At eleven o’clock a
man in a raincoat, dragging a lawn-mower, tapped at my front door and said that
Mr. Gatsby had sent him over to cut my grass. This reminded me that I had
forgotten to tell my Finn to come back, so I drove into West Egg Village to
search for her among soggy, whitewashed alleys and to buy some cups and lemons
and flowers.
The flowers were unnecessary, for at two o’clock a
greenhouse arrived from Gatsby’s, with innumerable receptacles to contain it.
An hour later the front door opened nervously, and Gatsby, in a white flannel
suit, silver shirt, and gold-colored tie, hurried in. He was pale, and there
were dark signs of sleeplessness beneath his eyes.
“Is everything all right?” he asked immediately.
“The grass looks fine, if that’s what you mean.”
“What grass?” he inquired blankly. “Oh, the grass in the
yard.” He looked out the window at it, but, judging from his expression, I
don’t believe he saw a thing.
“Looks very good,” he remarked vaguely. “One of the papers
said they thought the rain would stop about four. I think it was the Journal.
Have you got everything you need in the shape of — of tea?”
I took him into the pantry, where he looked a little
reproachfully at the Finn. Together we scrutinized the twelve lemon cakes from
the delicatessen shop.
“Will they do?” I asked.
“Of course, of course! They’re fine!” and he added hollowly,
“ . . . old sport.”
The rain cooled about half-past three to a damp mist,
through which occasional thin drops swam like dew. Gatsby looked with vacant
eyes through a copy of Clay’s Economics, starting at the Finnish tread
that shook the kitchen floor, and peering toward the bleared windows from time
to time as if a series of invisible but alarming happenings were taking place
outside. Finally he got up and informed me, in an uncertain voice, that he was
going home.
“Why’s that?”
“Nobody’s coming to tea. It’s too late!” He looked at his
watch as if there was some pressing demand on his time elsewhere. “I can’t wait
all day.”
“Don’t be silly; it’s just two minutes to four.”
He sat down miserably, as if I had pushed him, and
simultaneously there was the sound of a motor turning into my lane. We both
jumped up, and, a little harrowed myself, I went out into the yard.
Under the dripping bare lilac-trees a large open car was
coming up the drive. It stopped. Daisy’s face, tipped sideways beneath a
three-cornered lavender hat, looked out at me with a bright ecstatic smile.
“Is this absolutely where you live, my dearest one?”
The exhilarating ripple of her voice was a wild tonic in the
rain. I had to follow the sound of it for a moment, up and down, with my ear
alone, before any words came through. A damp streak of hair lay like a dash of
blue paint across her cheek, and her hand was wet with glistening drops as I
took it to help her from the car.
“Are you in love with me,” she said low in my ear, “or why
did I have to come alone?”
“That’s the secret of Castle Rackrent. Tell your chauffeur
to go far away and spend an hour.”
“Come back in an hour, Ferdie.” Then in a grave murmur: “His
name is Ferdie.”
“Does the gasoline affect his nose?”
“I don’t think so,” she said innocently. “Why?”
We went in. To my overwhelming surprise the living-room was
deserted.
“Well, that’s funny,” I exclaimed.
“What’s funny?”
She turned her head as there was a light dignified knocking
at the front door. I went out and opened it. Gatsby, pale as death, with his
hands plunged like weights in his coat pockets, was standing in a puddle of
water glaring tragically into my eyes.
With his hands still in his coat pockets he stalked by me
into the hall, turned sharply as if he were on a wire, and disappeared into the
living-room. It wasn’t a bit funny. Aware of the loud beating of my own heart I
pulled the door to against the increasing rain.
For half a minute there wasn’t a sound. Then from the
living-room I heard a sort of choking murmur and part of a laugh, followed by
Daisy’s voice on a clear artificial note: “I certainly am awfully glad to see
you again.”
A pause; it endured horribly. I had nothing to do in the
hall, so I went into the room.
Gatsby, his hands still in his pockets, was reclining
against the mantelpiece in a strained counterfeit of perfect ease, even of
boredom. His head leaned back so far that it rested against the face of a
defunct mantelpiece clock, and from this position his distraught eyes stared
down at Daisy, who was sitting, frightened but graceful, on the edge of a stiff
chair.
“We’ve met before,” muttered Gatsby. His eyes glanced
momentarily at me, and his lips parted with an abortive attempt at a laugh.
Luckily the clock took this moment to tilt dangerously at the pressure of his
head, whereupon he turned and caught it with trembling fingers, and set it back
in place. Then he sat down, rigidly, his elbow on the arm of the sofa and his
chin in his hand.
“I’m sorry about the clock,” he said.
My own face had now assumed a deep tropical burn. I couldn’t
muster up a single commonplace out of the thousand in my head.
“It’s an old clock,” I told them idiotically.
I think we all believed for a moment that it had smashed in
pieces on the floor.
“We haven’t met for many years,” said Daisy, her voice as
matter-of-fact as it could ever be.
“Five years next November.”
The automatic quality of Gatsby’s answer set us all back at
least another minute. I had them both on their feet with the desperate
suggestion that they help me make tea in the kitchen when the demoniac Finn
brought it in on a tray.
Amid the welcome confusion of cups and cakes a certain
physical decency established itself. Gatsby got himself into a shadow and,
while Daisy and I talked, looked conscientiously from one to the other of us
with tense, unhappy eyes. However, as calmness wasn’t an end in itself, I made
an excuse at the first possible moment, and got to my feet.
“Where are you going?” demanded Gatsby in immediate alarm.
“I’ll be back.”
“I’ve got to speak to you about something before you go.”
He followed me wildly into the kitchen, closed the door, and
whispered:
“Oh, God!” in a miserable way.
“What’s the matter?”
“This is a terrible mistake,” he said, shaking his head from
side to side, “a terrible, terrible mistake.”
“You’re just embarrassed, that’s all,” and luckily I added:
“Daisy’s embarrassed too.”
“She’s embarrassed?” he repeated incredulously.
“Just as much as you are.”
“Don’t talk so loud.”
“You’re acting like a little boy,” I broke out impatiently.
“Not only that, but you’re rude. Daisy’s sitting in there all alone.”
He raised his hand to stop my words, looked at me with
unforgettable reproach, and, opening the door cautiously, went back into the
other room.
I walked out the back way — just as Gatsby had when he had
made his nervous circuit of the house half an hour before —and ran for a huge
black knotted tree, whose massed leaves made a fabric against the rain. Once
more it was pouring, and my irregular lawn, well-shaved by Gatsby’s gardener,
abounded in small, muddy swamps and prehistoric marshes. There was nothing to
look at from under the tree except Gatsby’s enormous house, so I stared at it,
like Kant at his church steeple, for half an hour. A brewer had built it early
in the “period” craze, a decade before, and there was a story that he’d agreed
to pay five years’ taxes on all the neighboring cottages if the owners would
have their roofs thatched with straw. Perhaps their refusal took the heart out
of his plan to Found a Family — he went into an immediate decline. His children
sold his house with the black wreath still on the door. Americans, while
occasionally willing to be serfs, have always been obstinate about being
peasantry.
After half an hour, the sun shone again, and the grocer’s
automobile rounded Gatsby’s drive with the raw material for his servants’
dinner — I felt sure he wouldn’t eat a spoonful. A maid began opening the upper
windows of his house, appeared momentarily in each, and, leaning from a large
central bay, spat meditatively into the garden. It was time I went back. While
the rain continued it had seemed like the murmur of their voices, rising and
swelling a little now and then with gusts of emotion. But in the new silence I
felt that silence had fallen within the house too.
I went in — after making every possible noise in the
kitchen, short of pushing over the stove — but I don’t believe they heard a
sound. They were sitting at either end of the couch, looking at each other as
if some question had been asked, or was in the air, and every vestige of
embarrassment was gone. Daisy’s face was smeared with tears, and when I came in
she jumped up and began wiping at it with her handkerchief before a mirror. But
there was a change in Gatsby that was simply confounding. He literally glowed;
without a word or a gesture of exultation a new well-being radiated from him
and filled the little room.
“Oh, hello, old sport,” he said, as if he hadn’t seen me for
years. I thought for a moment he was going to shake hands.
“It’s stopped raining.”
“Has it?” When he realized what I was talking about, that
there were twinkle-bells of sunshine in the room, he smiled like a weather man,
like an ecstatic patron of recurrent light, and repeated the news to Daisy.
“What do you think of that? It’s stopped raining.”
“I’m glad, Jay.” Her throat, full of aching, grieving
beauty, told only of her unexpected joy.
“I want you and Daisy to come over to my house,” he said,
“I’d like to show her around.”
“You’re sure you want me to come?”
“Absolutely, old sport.”
Daisy went up-stairs to wash her face — too late I thought
with humiliation of my towels — while Gatsby and I waited on the lawn.
“My house looks well, doesn’t it?” he demanded. “See how the
whole front of it catches the light.”
I agreed that it was splendid.
“Yes.” His eyes went over it, every arched door and square
tower. “It took me just three years to earn the money that bought it.”
“I thought you inherited your money.”
“I did, old sport,” he said automatically, “but I lost most
of it in the big panic — the panic of the war.”
I think he hardly knew what he was saying, for when I asked
him what business he was in he answered, “That’s my affair,” before he realized
that it wasn’t the appropriate reply.
“Oh, I’ve been in several things,” he corrected himself. “I
was in the drug business and then I was in the oil business. But I’m not in
either one now.” He looked at me with more attention. “Do you mean you’ve been
thinking over what I proposed the other night?”
Before I could answer, Daisy came out of the house and two
rows of brass buttons on her dress gleamed in the sunlight.
“That huge place there?” she cried pointing.
“Do you like it?”
“I love it, but I don’t see how you live there all alone.”
“I keep it always full of interesting people, night and day.
People who do interesting things. Celebrated people.”
Instead of taking the short cut along the Sound we went down
the road and entered by the big postern. With enchanting murmurs Daisy admired
this aspect or that of the feudal silhouette against the sky, admired the
gardens, the sparkling odor of jonquils and the frothy odor of hawthorn and
plum blossoms and the pale gold odor of kiss-me-at-the-gate. It was strange to
reach the marble steps and find no stir of bright dresses in and out the door,
and hear no sound but bird voices in the trees.
And inside, as we wandered through Marie Antoinette
music-rooms and Restoration salons, I felt that there were guests concealed
behind every couch and table, under orders to be breathlessly silent until we
had passed through. As Gatsby closed the door of “the Merton College Library.”
I could have sworn I heard the owl-eyed man break into ghostly laughter.
We went up-stairs, through period bedrooms swathed in rose
and lavender silk and vivid with new flowers, through dressing-rooms and
poolrooms, and bathrooms with sunken baths — intruding into one chamber where a
dishevelled man in pajamas was doing liver exercises on the floor. It was Mr. Klipspringer,
the “boarder.” I had seen him wandering hungrily about the beach that morning.
Finally we came to Gatsby’s own apartment, a bedroom and a bath, and an Adam
study, where we sat down and drank a glass of some Chartreuse he took from a
cupboard in the wall.
He hadn’t once ceased looking at Daisy, and I think he
revalued everything in his house according to the measure of response it drew
from her well-loved eyes. Sometimes, too, he stared around at his possessions
in a dazed way, as though in her actual and astounding presence none of it was
any longer real. Once he nearly toppled down a flight of stairs.
His bedroom was the simplest room of all — except where the
dresser was garnished with a toilet set of pure dull gold. Daisy took the brush
with delight, and smoothed her hair, whereupon Gatsby sat down and shaded his
eyes and began to laugh.
“It’s the funniest thing, old sport,” he said hilariously.
“I can’t — When I try to ——”
He had passed visibly through two states and was entering
upon a third. After his embarrassment and his unreasoning joy he was consumed
with wonder at her presence. He had been full of the idea so long, dreamed it
right through to the end, waited with his teeth set, so to speak, at an
inconceivable pitch of intensity. Now, in the reaction, he was running down
like an overwound clock.
Recovering himself in a minute he opened for us two hulking
patent cabinets which held his massed suits and dressing-gowns and ties, and
his shirts, piled like bricks in stacks a dozen high.
“I’ve got a man in England who buys me clothes. He sends
over a selection of things at the beginning of each season, spring and fall.”
He took out a pile of shirts and began throwing them, one by
one, before us, shirts of sheer linen and thick silk and fine flannel, which
lost their folds as they fell and covered the table in many-colored disarray.
While we admired he brought more and the soft rich heap mounted higher — shirts
with stripes and scrolls and plaids in coral and apple-green and lavender and faint
orange, and monograms of Indian blue. Suddenly, with a strained sound, Daisy
bent her head into the shirts and began to cry stormily.
“They’re such beautiful shirts,” she sobbed, her voice
muffled in the thick folds. “It makes me sad because I’ve never seen such —
such beautiful shirts before.”
After the house, we were to see the grounds and the
swimming-pool, and the hydroplane and the mid-summer flowers — but outside
Gatsby’s window it began to rain again, so we stood in a row looking at the
corrugated surface of the Sound.
“If it wasn’t for the mist we could see your home across the
bay,” said Gatsby. “You always have a green light that burns all night at the
end of your dock.”
Daisy put her arm through his abruptly, but he seemed
absorbed in what he had just said. Possibly it had occurred to him that the
colossal significance of that light had now vanished forever. Compared to the
great distance that had separated him from Daisy it had seemed very near to
her, almost touching her. It had seemed as close as a star to the moon. Now it
was again a green light on a dock. His count of enchanted objects had
diminished by one.
I began to walk about the room, examining various indefinite
objects in the half darkness. A large photograph of an elderly man in yachting
costume attracted me, hung on the wall over his desk.
“Who’s this?”
“That? That’s Mr. Dan Cody, old sport.”
The name sounded faintly familiar.
“He’s dead now. He used to be my best friend years ago.”
There was a small picture of Gatsby, also in yachting
costume, on the bureau — Gatsby with his head thrown back defiantly — taken
apparently when he was about eighteen.
“I adore it,” exclaimed Daisy. “The pompadour! You never
told me you had a pompadour — or a yacht.”
“Look at this,” said Gatsby quickly. “Here’s a lot of
clippings — about you.”
They stood side by side examining it. I was going to ask to
see the rubies when the phone rang, and Gatsby took up the receiver.
“Yes. . . . well, I can’t talk now. . . . I can’t talk now,
old sport. . . . I said asmall town. . . . he must know what a small
town is. . . . well, he’s no use to us if Detroit is his idea of a small town.
. . . ”
He rang off.
“Come here quick!” cried Daisy at the window.
The rain was still falling, but the darkness had parted in
the west, and there was a pink and golden billow of foamy clouds above the sea.
“Look at that,” she whispered, and then after a moment: “I’d
like to just get one of those pink clouds and put you in it and push you
around.”
I tried to go then, but they wouldn’t hear of it; perhaps my
presence made them feel more satisfactorily alone.
“I know what we’ll do,” said Gatsby, “we’ll have
Klipspringer play the piano.”
He went out of the room calling “Ewing!” and returned in a
few minutes accompanied by an embarrassed, slightly worn young man, with
shell-rimmed glasses and scanty blond hair. He was now decently clothed in a
“sport shirt,” open at the neck, sneakers, and duck trousers of a nebulous hue.
“Did we interrupt your exercises?” inquired Daisy politely.
“I was asleep,” cried Mr. Klipspringer, in a spasm of
embarrassment. “That is, I’d been asleep. Then I got up.. ..”
“Klipspringer plays the piano,” said Gatsby, cutting him
off. “Don’t you, Ewing, old sport?”
“I don’t play well. I don’t — I hardly play at all. I’m all
out of prac ——”
“We’ll go down-stairs,” interrupted Gatsby. He flipped a
switch. The gray windows disappeared as the house glowed full of light.
In the music-room Gatsby turned on a solitary lamp beside
the piano. He lit Daisy’s cigarette from a trembling match, and sat down with
her on a couch far across the room, where there was no light save what the
gleaming floor bounced in from the hall.
When Klipspringer had played The Love Nest, he turned
around on the bench and searched unhappily for Gatsby in the gloom.
“I’m all out of practice, you see. I told you I couldn’t
play. I’m all out of prac ——”
“Don’t talk so much, old sport,” commanded Gatsby. “Play!”
“In the morning,
In the evening,
Ain’t we got fun——”
Outside the wind was loud and there was a faint flow of
thunder along the Sound. All the lights were going on in West Egg now; the
electric trains, men-carrying, were plunging home through the rain from New
York. It was the hour of a profound human change, and excitement was generating
on the air.
“One thing’s sure and nothing’s surer
The rich get richer and the poor get— children.
In the meantime,
In between time——”
As I went over to say good-by I saw that the expression of
bewilderment had come back into Gatsby’s face, as though a faint doubt had
occurred to him as to the quality of his present happiness. Almost five years!
There must have been moments even that afternoon when Daisy tumbled short of
his dreams — not through her own fault, but because of the colossal vitality of
his illusion. It had gone beyond her, beyond everything. He had thrown himself
into it with a creative passion, adding to it all the time, decking it out with
every bright feather that drifted his way. No amount of fire or freshness can
challenge what a man will store up in his ghostly heart.
As I watched him he adjusted himself a little, visibly. His
hand took hold of hers, and as she said something low in his ear he turned
toward her with a rush of emotion. I think that voice held him most, with its
fluctuating, feverish warmth, because it couldn’t be over-dreamed — that voice
was a deathless song.
They had forgotten me, but Daisy glanced up and held out her
hand; Gatsby didn’t know me now at all. I looked once more at them and they
looked back at me, remotely, possessed by intense life. Then I went out of the
room and down the marble steps into the rain, leaving them there together.
Chapter 6
About this time an ambitious young reporter from New York
arrived one morning at Gatsby’s door and asked him if he had anything to say.
“Anything to say about what?” inquired Gatsby politely.
“Why — any statement to give out.”
It transpired after a confused five minutes that the man had
heard Gatsby’s name around his office in a connection which he either wouldn’t
reveal or didn’t fully understand. This was his day off and with laudable
initiative he had hurried out “to see.”
It was a random shot, and yet the reporter’s instinct was
right. Gatsby’s notoriety, spread about by the hundreds who had accepted his
hospitality and so become authorities on his past, had increased all summer
until he fell just short of being news. Contemporary legends such as the
“underground pipe-line to Canada” attached themselves to him, and there was one
persistent story that he didn’t live in a house at all, but in a boat that
looked like a house and was moved secretly up and down the Long Island shore.
Just why these inventions were a source of satisfaction to James Gatz of North
Dakota, isn’t easy to say.
James Gatz — that was really, or at least legally, his name.
He had changed it at the age of seventeen and at the specific moment that
witnessed the beginning of his career — when he saw Dan Cody’s yacht drop
anchor over the most insidious flat on Lake Superior. It was James Gatz who had
been loafing along the beach that afternoon in a torn green jersey and a pair
of canvas pants, but it was already Jay Gatsby who borrowed a rowboat, pulled
out to theTuolomee, and informed Cody that a wind might catch him and
break him up in half an hour.
I suppose he’d had the name ready for a long time, even
then. His parents were shiftless and unsuccessful farm people— his imagination
had never really accepted them as his parents at all. The truth was that Jay
Gatsby of West Egg, Long Island, sprang from his Platonic conception of
himself. He was a son of God — a phrase which, if it means anything, means just
that — and he must be about His Father’s business, the service of a vast,
vulgar, and meretricious beauty. So he invented just the sort of Jay Gatsby
that a seventeen-year-old boy would be likely to invent, and to this conception
he was faithful to the end.
For over a year he had been beating his way along the south
shore of Lake Superior as a clam-digger and a salmon-fisher or in any other
capacity that brought him food and bed. His brown, hardening body lived
naturally through the half-fierce, half-lazy work of the bracing days. He knew
women early, and since they spoiled him he became contemptuous of them, of
young virgins because they were ignorant, of the others because they were
hysterical about things which in his overwhelming self-absorbtion he took for
granted.
But his heart was in a constant, turbulent riot. The most
grotesque and fantastic conceits haunted him in his bed at night. A universe of
ineffable gaudiness spun itself out in his brain while the clock ticked on the
wash-stand and the moon soaked with wet light his tangled clothes upon the
floor. Each night he added to the pattern of his fancies until drowsiness
closed down upon some vivid scene with an oblivious embrace. For a while these
reveries provided an outlet for his imagination; they were a satisfactory hint
of the unreality of reality, a promise that the rock of the world was founded
securely on a fairy’s wing.
An instinct toward his future glory had led him, some months
before, to the small Lutheran college of St. Olaf in southern Minnesota. He
stayed there two weeks, dismayed at its ferocious indifference to the drums of
his destiny, to destiny itself, and despising the janitor’s work with which he
was to pay his way through. Then he drifted back to Lake Superior, and he was
still searching for something to do on the day that Dan Cody’s yacht dropped
anchor in the shallows alongshore.
Cody was fifty years old then, a product of the Nevada
silver fields, of the Yukon, of every rush for metal since seventy-five. The
transactions in Montana copper that made him many times a millionaire found him
physically robust but on the verge of soft-mindedness, and, suspecting this, an
infinite number of women tried to separate him from his money. The none too
savory ramifications by which Ella Kaye, the newspaper woman, played Madame de
Maintenon to his weakness and sent him to sea in a yacht, were common knowledge
to the turgid sub-journalism of 1902. He had been coasting along all too
hospitable shores for five years when he turned up as James Gatz’s destiny at
Little Girls Point.
To the young Gatz, resting on his oars and looking up at the
railed deck, the yacht represented all the beauty and glamour in the world. I
suppose he smiled at Cody — he had probably discovered that people liked him when
he smiled. At any rate Cody asked him a few questions (one of them elicited the
brand new name) and found that he was quick and extravagantly ambitious. A few
days later he took him to Duluth and bought him a blue coat, six pair of white
duck trousers, and a yachting cap. And when the Tuolomee left for the
West Indies and the Barbary Coast Gatsby left too.
He was employed in a vague personal capacity — while he
remained with Cody he was in turn steward, mate, skipper, secretary, and even
jailor, for Dan Cody sober knew what lavish doings Dan Cody drunk might soon be
about, and he provided for such contingencies by reposing more and more trust
in Gatsby. The arrangement lasted five years, during which the boat went three
times around the Continent. It might have lasted indefinitely except for the
fact that Ella Kaye came on board one night in Boston and a week later Dan Cody
inhospitably died.
I remember the portrait of him up in Gatsby’s bedroom, a
gray, florid man with a hard, empty face — the pioneer debauchee, who during
one phase of American life brought back to the Eastern seaboard the savage
violence of the frontier brothel and saloon. It was indirectly due to Cody that
Gatsby drank so little. Sometimes in the course of gay parties women used to
rub champagne into his hair; for himself he formed the habit of letting liquor
alone.
And it was from Cody that he inherited money — a legacy of
twenty-five thousand dollars. He didn’t get it. He never understood the legal
device that was used against him, but what remained of the millions went intact
to Ella Kaye. He was left with his singularly appropriate education; the vague
contour of Jay Gatsby had filled out to the substantiality of a man.
He told me all this very much later, but I’ve put it down
here with the idea of exploding those first wild rumors about his antecedents,
which weren’t even faintly true. Moreover he told it to me at a time of
confusion, when I had reached the point of believing everything and nothing
about him. So I take advantage of this short halt, while Gatsby, so to speak,
caught his breath, to clear this set of misconceptions away.
It was a halt, too, in my association with his affairs. For
several weeks I didn’t see him or hear his voice on the phone — mostly I was in
New York, trotting around with Jordan and trying to ingratiate myself with her
senile aunt — but finally I went over to his house one Sunday afternoon. I
hadn’t been there two minutes when somebody brought Tom Buchanan in for a
drink. I was startled, naturally, but the really surprising thing was that it
hadn’t happened before.
They were a party of three on horseback — Tom and a man
named Sloane and a pretty woman in a brown riding-habit, who had been there
previously.
“I’m delighted to see you,” said Gatsby, standing on his
porch. “I’m delighted that you dropped in.”
As though they cared!
“Sit right down. Have a cigarette or a cigar.” He walked
around the room quickly, ringing bells. “I’ll have something to drink for you
in just a minute.”
He was profoundly affected by the fact that Tom was there.
But he would be uneasy anyhow until he had given them something, realizing in a
vague way that that was all they came for. Mr. Sloane wanted nothing. A
lemonade? No, thanks. A little champagne? Nothing at all, thanks. . . . I’m sorry
——
“Did you have a nice ride?”
“Very good roads around here.”
“I suppose the automobiles ——”
“Yeah.”
Moved by an irresistible impulse, Gatsby turned to Tom, who
had accepted the introduction as a stranger.
“I believe we’ve met somewhere before, Mr. Buchanan.”
“Oh, yes,” said Tom, gruffly polite, but obviously not
remembering. “So we did. I remember very well.”
“About two weeks ago.”
“That’s right. You were with Nick here.”
“I know your wife,” continued Gatsby, almost aggressively.
“That so?”
Tom turned to me.
“You live near here, Nick?”
“Next door.”
“That so?”
Mr. Sloane didn’t enter into the conversation, but lounged
back haughtily in his chair; the woman said nothing either— until unexpectedly,
after two highballs, she became cordial.
“We’ll all come over to your next party, Mr. Gatsby,” she
suggested. “What do you say?”
“Certainly; I’d be delighted to have you.”
“Be ver’ nice,” said Mr. Sloane, without gratitude. “Well —
think ought to be starting home.”
“Please don’t hurry,” Gatsby urged them. He had control of
himself now, and he wanted to see more of Tom. “Why don’t you — why don’t you
stay for supper? I wouldn’t be surprised if some other people dropped in from
New York.”
“You come to supper with me,” said the lady
enthusiastically. “Both of you.”
This included me. Mr. Sloane got to his feet.
“Come along,” he said — but to her only.
“I mean it,” she insisted. “I’d love to have you. Lots of
room.”
Gatsby looked at me questioningly. He wanted to go, and he
didn’t see that Mr. Sloane had determined he shouldn’t.
“I’m afraid I won’t be able to,” I said.
“Well, you come,” she urged, concentrating on Gatsby.
Mr. Sloane murmured something close to her ear.
“We won’t be late if we start now,” she insisted aloud.
“I haven’t got a horse,” said Gatsby. “I used to ride in the
army, but I’ve never bought a horse. I’ll have to follow you in my car. Excuse
me for just a minute.”
The rest of us walked out on the porch, where Sloane and the
lady began an impassioned conversation aside.
“My God, I believe the man’s coming,” said Tom. “Doesn’t he
know she doesn’t want him?”
“She says she does want him.”
“She has a big dinner party and he won’t know a soul there.”
He frowned. “I wonder where in the devil he met Daisy. By God, I may be
old-fashioned in my ideas, but women run around too much these days to suit me.
They meet all kinds of crazy fish.”
Suddenly Mr. Sloane and the lady walked down the steps and
mounted their horses.
“Come on,” said Mr. Sloane to Tom, “we’re late. We’ve got to
go.” And then to me: “Tell him we couldn’t wait, will you?”
Tom and I shook hands, the rest of us exchanged a cool nod,
and they trotted quickly down the drive, disappearing under the August foliage
just as Gatsby, with hat and light overcoat in hand, came out the front door.
Tom was evidently perturbed at Daisy’s running around alone,
for on the following Saturday night he came with her to Gatsby’s party. Perhaps
his presence gave the evening its peculiar quality of oppressiveness — it
stands out in my memory from Gatsby’s other parties that summer. There were the
same people, or at least the same sort of people, the same profusion of
champagne, the same many-colored, many-keyed commotion, but I felt an
unpleasantness in the air, a pervading harshness that hadn’t been there before.
Or perhaps I had merely grown used to it, grown to accept West Egg as a world
complete in itself, with its own standards and its own great figures, second to
nothing because it had no consciousness of being so, and now I was looking at
it again, through Daisy’s eyes. It is invariably saddening to look through new
eyes at things upon which you have expended your own powers of adjustment.
They arrived at twilight, and, as we strolled out among the
sparkling hundreds, Daisy’s voice was playing murmurous tricks in her throat.
“These things excite me so,” she whispered.
“If you want to kiss me any time during the evening, Nick,
just let me know and I’ll be glad to arrange it for you. Just mention my name.
Or present a green card. I’m giving out green ——”
“Look around,” suggested Gatsby.
“I’m looking around. I’m having a marvelous ——”
“You must see the faces of many people you’ve heard about.”
Tom’s arrogant eyes roamed the crowd.
“We don’t go around very much,” he said. “In fact, I was
just thinking I don’t know a soul here.”
“Perhaps you know that lady.” Gatsby indicated a gorgeous,
scarcely human orchid of a woman who sat in state under a white plum tree. Tom
and Daisy stared, with that peculiarly unreal feeling that accompanies the
recognition of a hitherto ghostly celebrity of the movies.
“She’s lovely,” said Daisy.
“The man bending over her is her director.”
He took them ceremoniously from group to group:
“Mrs. Buchanan . . . and Mr. Buchanan ——” After an instant’s
hesitation he added: “the polo player.”
“Oh no,” objected Tom quickly, “not me.”
But evidently the sound of it pleased Gatsby, for Tom
remained “the polo player” for the rest of the evening.
“I’ve never met so many celebrities!” Daisy exclaimed. “I
liked that man — what was his name? — with the sort of blue nose.”
Gatsby identified him, adding that he was a small producer.
“Well, I liked him anyhow.”
“I’d a little rather not be the polo player,” said Tom
pleasantly, “I’d rather look at all these famous people in — in oblivion.”
Daisy and Gatsby danced. I remember being surprised by his
graceful, conservative fox-trot — I had never seen him dance before. Then they
sauntered over to my house and sat on the steps for half an hour, while at her
request I remained watchfully in the garden. “In case there’s a fire or a
flood,” she explained, “or any act of God.”
Tom appeared from his oblivion as we were sitting down to
supper together. “Do you mind if I eat with some people over here?” he said. “A
fellow’s getting off some funny stuff.”
“Go ahead,” answered Daisy genially, “and if you want to
take down any addresses here’s my little gold pencil.”. . . she looked around
after a moment and told me the girl was “common but pretty,” and I knew that
except for the half-hour she’d been alone with Gatsby she wasn’t having a good
time.
We were at a particularly tipsy table. That was my fault —
Gatsby had been called to the phone, and I’d enjoyed these same people only two
weeks before. But what had amused me then turned septic on the air now.
“How do you feel, Miss Baedeker?”
The girl addressed was trying, unsuccessfully, to slump
against my shoulder. At this inquiry she sat up and opened her eyes.
“Wha’?”
A massive and lethargic woman, who had been urging Daisy to
play golf with her at the local club to-morrow, spoke in Miss Baedeker’s
defence:
“Oh, she’s all right now. When she’s had five or six
cocktails she always starts screaming like that. I tell her she ought to leave
it alone.”
“I do leave it alone,” affirmed the accused hollowly.
“We heard you yelling, so I said to Doc Civet here: ‘There’s
somebody that needs your help, Doc.’”
“She’s much obliged, I’m sure,” said another friend, without
gratitude. “But you got her dress all wet when you stuck her head in the pool.”
“Anything I hate is to get my head stuck in a pool,” mumbled
Miss Baedeker. “They almost drowned me once over in New Jersey.”
“Then you ought to leave it alone,” countered Doctor Civet.
“Speak for yourself!” cried Miss Baedeker violently. “Your
hand shakes. I wouldn’t let you operate on me!”
It was like that. Almost the last thing I remember was
standing with Daisy and watching the moving-picture director and his Star. They
were still under the white plum tree and their faces were touching except for a
pale, thin ray of moonlight between. It occurred to me that he had been very
slowly bending toward her all evening to attain this proximity, and even while
I watched I saw him stoop one ultimate degree and kiss at her cheek.
“I like her,” said Daisy, “I think she’s lovely.”
But the rest offended her — and inarguably, because it
wasn’t a gesture but an emotion. She was appalled by West Egg, this
unprecedented “place” that Broadway had begotten upon a Long Island fishing
village — appalled by its raw vigor that chafed under the old euphemisms and by
the too obtrusive fate that herded its inhabitants along a short-cut from
nothing to nothing. She saw something awful in the very simplicity she failed
to understand.
I sat on the front steps with them while they waited for
their car. It was dark here in front; only the bright door sent ten square feet
of light volleying out into the soft black morning. Sometimes a shadow moved
against a dressing-room blind above, gave way to another shadow, an indefinite
procession of shadows, who rouged and powdered in an invisible glass.
“Who is this Gatsby anyhow?” demanded Tom suddenly. “Some
big bootlegger?”
“Where’d you hear that?” I inquired.
“I didn’t hear it. I imagined it. A lot of these newly rich
people are just big bootleggers, you know.”
“Not Gatsby,” I said shortly.
He was silent for a moment. The pebbles of the drive
crunched under his feet.
“Well, he certainly must have strained himself to get this
menagerie together.”
A breeze stirred the gray haze of Daisy’s fur collar.
“At least they’re more interesting than the people we know,”
she said with an effort.
“You didn’t look so interested.”
“Well, I was.”
Tom laughed and turned to me.
“Did you notice Daisy’s face when that girl asked her to put
her under a cold shower?”
Daisy began to sing with the music in a husky, rhythmic
whisper, bringing out a meaning in each word that it had never had before and
would never have again. When the melody rose, her voice broke up sweetly, following
it, in a way contralto voices have, and each change tipped out a little of her
warm human magic upon the air.
“Lots of people come who haven’t been invited,” she said
suddenly. “That girl hadn’t been invited. They simply force their way in and he’s
too polite to object.”
“I’d like to know who he is and what he does,” insisted Tom.
“And I think I’ll make a point of finding out.”
“I can tell you right now,” she answered. “He owned some
drug-stores, a lot of drug-stores. He built them up himself.”
The dilatory limousine came rolling up the drive.
“Good night, Nick,” said Daisy.
Her glance left me and sought the lighted top of the steps,
where Three O’clock in the Morning, a neat, sad little waltz of that
year, was drifting out the open door. After all, in the very casualness of
Gatsby’s party there were romantic possibilities totally absent from her world.
What was it up there in the song that seemed to be calling her back inside?
What would happen now in the dim, incalculable hours? Perhaps some unbelievable
guest would arrive, a person infinitely rare and to be marvelled at, some
authentically radiant young girl who with one fresh glance at Gatsby, one
moment of magical encounter, would blot out those five years of unwavering
devotion.
I stayed late that night, Gatsby asked me to wait until he
was free, and I lingered in the garden until the inevitable swimming party had
run up, chilled and exalted, from the black beach, until the lights were
extinguished in the guest-rooms overhead. When he came down the steps at last
the tanned skin was drawn unusually tight on his face, and his eyes were bright
and tired.
“She didn’t like it,” he said immediately.
“Of course she did.”
“She didn’t like it,” he insisted. “She didn’t have a good
time.”
He was silent, and I guessed at his unutterable depression.
“I feel far away from her,” he said. “It’s hard to make her
understand.”
“You mean about the dance?”
“The dance?” He dismissed all the dances he had given with a
snap of his fingers. “Old sport, the dance is unimportant.”
He wanted nothing less of Daisy than that she should go to
Tom and say: “I never loved you.” After she had obliterated four years with
that sentence they could decide upon the more practical measures to be taken.
One of them was that, after she was free, they were to go back to Louisville
and be married from her house — just as if it were five years ago.
“And she doesn’t understand,” he said. “She used to be able
to understand. We’d sit for hours ——”
He broke off and began to walk up and down a desolate path
of fruit rinds and discarded favors and crushed flowers.
“I wouldn’t ask too much of her,” I ventured. “You can’t
repeat the past.”
“Can’t repeat the past?” he cried incredulously. “Why of
course you can!”
He looked around him wildly, as if the past were lurking
here in the shadow of his house, just out of reach of his hand.
“I’m going to fix everything just the way it was before,” he
said, nodding determinedly. “She’ll see.”
He talked a lot about the past, and I gathered that he
wanted to recover something, some idea of himself perhaps, that had gone into
loving Daisy. His life had been confused and disordered since then, but if he
could once return to a certain starting place and go over it all slowly, he
could find out what that thing was. . . .
. . . One autumn night, five years before, they had been
walking down the street when the leaves were falling, and they came to a place
where there were no trees and the sidewalk was white with moonlight. They
stopped here and turned toward each other. Now it was a cool night with that
mysterious excitement in it which comes at the two changes of the year. The
quiet lights in the houses were humming out into the darkness and there was a
stir and bustle among the stars. Out of the corner of his eye Gatsby saw that
the blocks of the sidewalks really formed a ladder and mounted to a secret
place above the trees — he could climb to it, if he climbed alone, and once
there he could suck on the pap of life, gulp down the incomparable milk of
wonder.
His heart beat faster and faster as Daisy’s white face came
up to his own. He knew that when he kissed this girl, and forever wed his
unutterable visions to her perishable breath, his mind would never romp again
like the mind of God. So he waited, listening for a moment longer to the
tuning-fork that had been struck upon a star. Then he kissed her. At his lips’
touch she blossomed for him like a flower and the incarnation was complete.
Through all he said, even through his appalling
sentimentality, I was reminded of something — an elusive rhythm, a fragment of
lost words, that I had heard somewhere a long time ago. For a moment a phrase
tried to take shape in my mouth and my lips parted like a dumb man’s, as though
there was more struggling upon them than a wisp of startled air. But they made
no sound, and what I had almost remembered was uncommunicable forever.
Chapter 7
It was when curiosity about Gatsby was at its highest that
the lights in his house failed to go on one Saturday night — and, as obscurely
as it had begun, his career as Trimalchio was over. Only gradually did I become
aware that the automobiles which turned expectantly into his drive stayed for
just a minute and then drove sulkily away. Wondering if he were sick I went
over to find out — an unfamiliar butler with a villainous face squinted at me
suspiciously from the door.
“Is Mr. Gatsby sick?”
“Nope.” After a pause he added “sir” in a dilatory, grudging
way.
“I hadn’t seen him around, and I was rather worried. Tell
him Mr. Carraway came over.”
“Who?” he demanded rudely.
“Carraway.”
“Carraway. All right, I’ll tell him.” Abruptly he slammed
the door.
My Finn informed me that Gatsby had dismissed every servant
in his house a week ago and replaced them with half a dozen others, who never
went into West Egg Village to be bribed by the tradesmen, but ordered moderate
supplies over the telephone. The grocery boy reported that the kitchen looked
like a pigsty, and the general opinion in the village was that the new people
weren’t servants at all.
Next day Gatsby called me on the phone.
“Going away?” I inquired.
“No, old sport.”
“I hear you fired all your servants.”
“I wanted somebody who wouldn’t gossip. Daisy comes over
quite often — in the afternoons.”
So the whole caravansary had fallen in like a card house at
the disapproval in her eyes.
“They’re some people Wolfsheim wanted to do something for.
They’re all brothers and sisters. They used to run a small hotel.”
“I see.”
He was calling up at Daisy’s request — would I come to lunch
at her house to-morrow? Miss Baker would be there. Half an hour later Daisy
herself telephoned and seemed relieved to find that I was coming. Something was
up. And yet I couldn’t believe that they would choose this occasion for a scene
— especially for the rather harrowing scene that Gatsby had outlined in the
garden.
The next day was broiling, almost the last, certainly the
warmest, of the summer. As my train emerged from the tunnel into sunlight, only
the hot whistles of the National Biscuit Company broke the simmering hush at
noon. The straw seats of the car hovered on the edge of combustion; the woman
next to me perspired delicately for a while into her white shirtwaist, and
then, as her newspaper dampened under her fingers, lapsed despairingly into
deep heat with a desolate cry. Her pocket-book slapped to the floor.
“Oh, my!” she gasped.
I picked it up with a weary bend and handed it back to her,
holding it at arm’s length and by the extreme tip of the corners to indicate
that I had no designs upon it — but every one near by, including the woman,
suspected me just the same.
“Hot!” said the conductor to familiar faces. “Some weather!
hot! hot! hot! Is it hot enough for you? Is it hot? Is it.. .?”
My commutation ticket came back to me with a dark stain from
his hand. That any one should care in this heat whose flushed lips he kissed,
whose head made damp the pajama pocket over his heart!
. . . Through the hall of the Buchanans’ house blew a faint
wind, carrying the sound of the telephone bell out to Gatsby and me as we
waited at the door.
“The master’s body!” roared the butler into the mouthpiece.
“I’m sorry, madame, but we can’t furnish it — it’s far too hot to touch this
noon!”
What he really said was: “Yes . . . yes . . . I’ll see.”
He set down the receiver and came toward us, glistening
slightly, to take our stiff straw hats.
“Madame expects you in the salon!” he cried, needlessly
indicating the direction. In this heat every extra gesture was an affront to
the common store of life.
The room, shadowed well with awnings, was dark and cool.
Daisy and Jordan lay upon an enormous couch, like silver idols weighing down
their own white dresses against the singing breeze of the fans.
“We can’t move,” they said together.
Jordan’s fingers, powdered white over their tan, rested for
a moment in mine.
“And Mr. Thomas Buchanan, the athlete?” I inquired.
Simultaneously I heard his voice, gruff, muffled, husky, at
the hall telephone.
Gatsby stood in the centre of the crimson carpet and gazed
around with fascinated eyes. Daisy watched him and laughed, her sweet, exciting
laugh; a tiny gust of powder rose from her bosom into the air.
“The rumor is,” whispered Jordan, “that that’s Tom’s girl on
the telephone.”
We were silent. The voice in the hall rose high with
annoyance: “Very well, then, I won’t sell you the car at all. . . . I’m under
no obligations to you at all . . . and as for your bothering me about it at
lunch time, I won’t stand that at all!”
“Holding down the receiver,” said Daisy cynically.
“No, he’s not,” I assured her. “It’s a bona-fide deal. I
happen to know about it.”
Tom flung open the door, blocked out its space for a moment
with his thick body, and hurried into the room.
“Mr. Gatsby!” He put out his broad, flat hand with
well-concealed dislike. “I’m glad to see you, sir. . . . Nick . . . .”
“Make us a cold drink,” cried Daisy.
As he left the room again she got up and went over to Gatsby
and pulled his face down, kissing him on the mouth.
“You know I love you,” she murmured.
“You forget there’s a lady present,” said Jordan.
Daisy looked around doubtfully.
“You kiss Nick too.”
“What a low, vulgar girl!”
“I don’t care!” cried Daisy, and began to clog on the brick
fireplace. Then she remembered the heat and sat down guiltily on the couch just
as a freshly laundered nurse leading a little girl came into the room.
“Bles-sed pre-cious,” she crooned, holding out her arms.
“Come to your own mother that loves you.”
The child, relinquished by the nurse, rushed across the room
and rooted shyly into her mother’s dress.
“The bles-sed pre-cious! Did mother get powder on your old
yellowy hair? Stand up now, and say — How-de-do.”
Gatsby and I in turn leaned down and took the small,
reluctant hand. Afterward he kept looking at the child with surprise. I don’t
think he had ever really believed in its existence before.
“I got dressed before luncheon,” said the child, turning
eagerly to Daisy.
“That’s because your mother wanted to show you off.” Her
face bent into the single wrinkle of the small, white neck.“You dream, you. You
absolute little dream.”
“Yes,” admitted the child calmly. “Aunt Jordan’s got on a
white dress too.”
“How do you like mother’s friends?” Daisy turned her around
so that she faced Gatsby. “Do you think they’re pretty?”
“Where’s Daddy?”
“She doesn’t look like her father,” explained Daisy. “She
looks like me. She’s got my hair and shape of the face.”
Daisy sat back upon the couch. The nurse took a step forward
and held out her hand.
“Come, Pammy.”
“Good-by, sweetheart!”
With a reluctant backward glance the well-disciplined child
held to her nurse’s hand and was pulled out the door, just as Tom came back,
preceding four gin rickeys that clicked full of ice.
Gatsby took up his drink.
“They certainly look cool,” he said, with visible tension.
We drank in long, greedy swallows.
“I read somewhere that the sun’s getting hotter every year,”
said Tom genially. “It seems that pretty soon the earth’s going to fall into
the sun — or wait a minute — it’s just the opposite — the sun’s getting colder
every year.
“Come outside,” he suggested to Gatsby, “I’d like you to
have a look at the place.”
I went with them out to the veranda. On the green Sound,
stagnant in the heat, one small sail crawled slowly toward the fresher sea.
Gatsby’s eyes followed it momentarily; he raised his hand and pointed across
the bay.
“I’m right across from you.”
“So you are.”
Our eyes lifted over the rose-beds and the hot lawn and the
weedy refuse of the dog-days along-shore. Slowly the white wings of the boat
moved against the blue cool limit of the sky. Ahead lay the scalloped ocean and
the abounding blessed isles.
“There’s sport for you,” said Tom, nodding. “I’d like to be
out there with him for about an hour.”
We had luncheon in the dining-room, darkened too against the
heat, and drank down nervous gayety with the cold ale.
“What’ll we do with ourselves this afternoon?” cried Daisy,
“and the day after that, and the next thirty years?”
“Don’t be morbid,” Jordan said. “Life starts all over again
when it gets crisp in the fall.”
“But it’s so hot,” insisted Daisy, on the verge of tears, “and
everything’s so confused. Let’s all go to town!”
Her voice struggled on through the heat, beating against it,
molding its senselessness into forms.
“I’ve heard of making a garage out of a stable,” Tom was
saying to Gatsby, “but I’m the first man who ever made a stable out of a
garage.”
“Who wants to go to town?” demanded Daisy insistently.
Gatsby’s eyes floated toward her. “Ah,” she cried, “you look so cool.”
Their eyes met, and they stared together at each other,
alone in space. With an effort she glanced down at the table.
“You always look so cool,” she repeated.
She had told him that she loved him, and Tom Buchanan saw.
He was astounded. His mouth opened a little, and he looked at Gatsby, and then
back at Daisy as if he had just recognized her as some one he knew a long time
ago.
“You resemble the advertisement of the man,” she went on
innocently. “You know the advertisement of the man ——”
“All right,” broke in Tom quickly, “I’m perfectly willing to
go to town. Come on — we’re all going to town.”
He got up, his eyes still flashing between Gatsby and his
wife. No one moved.
“Come on!” His temper cracked a little. “What’s the matter,
anyhow? If we’re going to town, let’s start.”
His hand, trembling with his effort at self-control, bore to
his lips the last of his glass of ale. Daisy’s voice got us to our feet and out
on to the blazing gravel drive.
“Are we just going to go?” she objected. “Like this? Aren’t
we going to let any one smoke a cigarette first?”
“Everybody smoked all through lunch.”
“Oh, let’s have fun,” she begged him. “It’s too hot to
fuss.” He didn’t answer.
“Have it your own way,” she said. “Come on, Jordan.”
They went up-stairs to get ready while we three men stood
there shuffling the hot pebbles with our feet. A silver curve of the moon hovered
already in the western sky. Gatsby started to speak, changed his mind, but not
before Tom wheeled and faced him expectantly.
“Have you got your stables here?” asked Gatsby with an
effort.
“About a quarter of a mile down the road.”
“Oh.”
A pause.
“I don’t see the idea of going to town,” broke out Tom
savagely. “Women get these notions in their heads ——”
“Shall we take anything to drink?” called Daisy from an
upper window.
“I’ll get some whiskey,” answered Tom. He went inside.
Gatsby turned to me rigidly:
“I can’t say anything in his house, old sport.”
“She’s got an indiscreet voice,” I remarked. “It’s full of
——” I hesitated.
“Her voice is full of money,” he said suddenly.
That was it. I’d never understood before. It was full of
money — that was the inexhaustible charm that rose and fell in it, the jingle
of it, the cymbals’ song of it. . . . high in a white palace the king’s
daughter, the golden girl. . . .
Tom came out of the house wrapping a quart bottle in a
towel, followed by Daisy and Jordan wearing small tight hats of metallic cloth
and carrying light capes over their arms.
“Shall we all go in my car?” suggested Gatsby. He felt the
hot, green leather of the seat. “I ought to have left it in the shade.”
“Is it standard shift?” demanded Tom.
“Yes.”
“Well, you take my coupe and let me drive your car to town.”
The suggestion was distasteful to Gatsby.
“I don’t think there’s much gas,” he objected.
“Plenty of gas,” said Tom boisterously. He looked at the
gauge. “And if it runs out I can stop at a drug-store. You can buy anything at
a drug-store nowadays.”
A pause followed this apparently pointless remark. Daisy
looked at Tom frowning, and an indefinable expression, at once definitely
unfamiliar and vaguely recognizable, as if I had only heard it described in
words, passed over Gatsby’s face.
“Come on, Daisy,” said Tom, pressing her with his hand
toward Gatsby’s car. “I’ll take you in this circus wagon.”
He opened the door, but she moved out from the circle of his
arm.
“You take Nick and Jordan. We’ll follow you in the coupe.”
She walked close to Gatsby, touching his coat with her hand.
Jordan and Tom and I got into the front seat of Gatsby’s car, Tom pushed the
unfamiliar gears tentatively, and we shot off into the oppressive heat, leaving
them out of sight behind.
“Did you see that?” demanded Tom.
“See what?”
He looked at me keenly, realizing that Jordan and I must
have known all along.
“You think I’m pretty dumb, don’t you?” he suggested.
“Perhaps I am, but I have a — almost a second sight, sometimes, that tells me
what to do. Maybe you don’t believe that, but science ——”
He paused. The immediate contingency overtook him, pulled
him back from the edge of the theoretical abyss.
“I’ve made a small investigation of this fellow,” he
continued. “I could have gone deeper if I’d known ——”
“Do you mean you’ve been to a medium?” inquired Jordan
humorously.
“What?” Confused, he stared at us as we laughed. “A medium?”
“About Gatsby.”
“About Gatsby! No, I haven’t. I said I’d been making a small
investigation of his past.”
“And you found he was an Oxford man,” said Jordan helpfully.
“An Oxford man!” He was incredulous. “Like hell he is! He
wears a pink suit.”
“Nevertheless he’s an Oxford man.”
“Oxford, New Mexico,” snorted Tom contemptuously, “or
something like that.”
“Listen, Tom. If you’re such a snob, why did you invite him
to lunch?” demanded Jordan crossly.
“Daisy invited him; she knew him before we were married —
God knows where!”
We were all irritable now with the fading ale, and aware of
it we drove for a while in silence. Then as Doctor T. J. Eckleburg’s faded eyes
came into sight down the road, I remembered Gatsby’s caution about gasoline.
“We’ve got enough to get us to town,” said Tom.
“But there’s a garage right here,” objected Jordan. “I don’t
want to get stalled in this baking heat.” Tom threw on both brakes impatiently,
and we slid to an abrupt dusty stop under Wilson’s sign. After a moment the
proprietor emerged from the interior of his establishment and gazed hollow-eyed
at the car.
“Let’s have some gas!” cried Tom roughly. “What do you think
we stopped for — to admire the view?”
“I’m sick,” said Wilson without moving. “Been sick all day.”
“What’s the matter?”
“I’m all run down.”
“Well, shall I help myself?” Tom demanded. “You sounded well
enough on the phone.”
With an effort Wilson left the shade and support of the
doorway and, breathing hard, unscrewed the cap of the tank. In the sunlight his
face was green.
“I didn’t mean to interrupt your lunch,” he said. “But I
need money pretty bad, and I was wondering what you were going to do with your
old car.”
“How do you like this one?” inquired Tom. “I bought it last
week.”
“It’s a nice yellow one,” said Wilson, as he strained at the
handle.
“Like to buy it?”
“Big chance,” Wilson smiled faintly. “No, but I could make
some money on the other.”
“What do you want money for, all of a sudden?”
“I’ve been here too long. I want to get away. My wife and I
want to go West.”
“Your wife does,” exclaimed Tom, startled.
“She’s been talking about it for ten years.” He rested for a
moment against the pump, shading his eyes. “And now she’s going whether she
wants to or not. I’m going to get her away.”
The coupe flashed by us with a flurry of dust and the flash
of a waving hand.
“What do I owe you?” demanded Tom harshly.
“I just got wised up to something funny the last two days,”
remarked Wilson. “That’s why I want to get away. That’s why I been bothering
you about the car.”
“What do I owe you?”
“Dollar twenty.”
The relentless beating heat was beginning to confuse me and
I had a bad moment there before I realized that so far his suspicions hadn’t
alighted on Tom. He had discovered that Myrtle had some sort of life apart from
him in another world, and the shock had made him physically sick. I stared at
him and then at Tom, who had made a parallel discovery less than an hour before
— and it occurred to me that there was no difference between men, in
intelligence or race, so profound as the difference between the sick and the
well. Wilson was so sick that he looked guilty, unforgivably guilty — as if he
had just got some poor girl with child.
“I’ll let you have that car,” said Tom. “I’ll send it over
to-morrow afternoon.”
That locality was always vaguely disquieting, even in the
broad glare of afternoon, and now I turned my head as though I had been warned
of something behind. Over the ashheaps the giant eyes of Doctor T. J. Eckleburg
kept their vigil, but I perceived, after a moment, that other eyes were
regarding us with peculiar intensity from less than twenty feet away.
In one of the windows over the garage the curtains had been
moved aside a little, and Myrtle Wilson was peering down at the car. So
engrossed was she that she had no consciousness of being observed, and one
emotion after another crept into her face like objects into a slowly developing
picture. Her expression was curiously familiar — it was an expression I had
often seen on women’s faces, but on Myrtle Wilson’s face it seemed purposeless
and inexplicable until I realized that her eyes, wide with jealous terror, were
fixed not on Tom, but on Jordan Baker, whom she took to be his wife.
There is no confusion like the confusion of a simple mind,
and as we drove away Tom was feeling the hot whips of panic. His wife and his
mistress, until an hour ago secure and inviolate, were slipping precipitately
from his control. Instinct made him step on the accelerator with the double
purpose of overtaking Daisy and leaving Wilson behind, and we sped along toward
Astoria at fifty miles an hour, until, among the spidery girders of the
elevated, we came in sight of the easy-going blue coupe.
“Those big movies around Fiftieth Street are cool,”
suggested Jordan. “I love New York on summer afternoons when every one’s away.
There’s something very sensuous about it — overripe, as if all sorts of funny
fruits were going to fall into your hands.”
The word “sensuous” had the effect of further disquieting
Tom, but before he could invent a protest the coupe came to a stop, and Daisy
signaled us to draw up alongside.
“Where are we going?” she cried.
“How about the movies?”
“It’s so hot,” she complained. “You go. We’ll ride around
and meet you after.” With an effort her wit rose faintly,“We’ll meet you on
some corner. I’ll be the man smoking two cigarettes.”
“We can’t argue about it here,” Tom said impatiently, as a
truck gave out a cursing whistle behind us. “You follow me to the south side of
Central Park, in front of the Plaza.”
Several times he turned his head and looked back for their
car, and if the traffic delayed them he slowed up until they came into sight. I
think he was afraid they would dart down a side street and out of his life
forever.
But they didn’t. And we all took the less explicable step of
engaging the parlor of a suite in the Plaza Hotel.
The prolonged and tumultuous argument that ended by herding
us into that room eludes me, though I have a sharp physical memory that, in the
course of it, my underwear kept climbing like a damp snake around my legs and
intermittent beads of sweat raced cool across my back. The notion originated
with Daisy’s suggestion that we hire five bath-rooms and take cold baths, and
then assumed more tangible form as “a place to have a mint julep.” Each of us
said over and over that it was a “crazy idea.”— we all talked at once to a
baffled clerk and thought, or pretended to think, that we were being very
funny.. ..
The room was large and stifling, and, though it was already
four o’clock, opening the windows admitted Only a gust of hot shrubbery from
the Park. Daisy went to the mirror and stood with her back to us, fixing her
hair.
“It’s a swell suite,” whispered Jordan respectfully, and
every one laughed.
“Open another window,” commanded Daisy, without turning
around.
“There aren’t any more.”
“Well, we’d better telephone for an axe ——”
“The thing to do is to forget about the heat,” said Tom
impatiently. “You make it ten times worse by crabbing about it.”
He unrolled the bottle of whiskey from the towel and put it
on the table.
“Why not let her alone, old sport?” remarked Gatsby. “You’re
the one that wanted to come to town.”
There was a moment of silence. The telephone book slipped
from its nail and splashed to the floor, whereupon Jordan whispered, “Excuse
me.”— but this time no one laughed.
“I’ll pick it up,” I offered.
“I’ve got it.” Gatsby examined the parted string, muttered
“Hum!” in an interested way, and tossed the book on a chair.
“That’s a great expression of yours, isn’t it?” said Tom
sharply.
“What is?”
“All this ‘old sport’ business. Where’d you pick that up?”
“Now see here, Tom,” said Daisy, turning around from the
mirror, “if you’re going to make personal remarks I won’t stay here a minute.
Call up and order some ice for the mint julep.”
As Tom took up the receiver the compressed heat exploded
into sound and we were listening to the portentous chords of Mendelssohn’s
Wedding March from the ballroom below.
“Imagine marrying anybody in this heat!” cried Jordan
dismally.
“Still — I was married in the middle of June,” Daisy
remembered, “Louisville in June! Somebody fainted. Who was it fainted, Tom?”
“Biloxi,” he answered shortly.
“A man named Biloxi. ‘blocks’ Biloxi, and he made boxes —
that’s a fact — and he was from Biloxi, Tennessee.”
“They carried him into my house,” appended Jordan, “because
we lived just two doors from the church. And he stayed three weeks, until Daddy
told him he had to get out. The day after he left Daddy died.” After a moment
she added as if she might have sounded irreverent, “There wasn’t any
connection.”
“I used to know a Bill Biloxi from Memphis,” I remarked.
“That was his cousin. I knew his whole family history before
he left. He gave me an aluminum putter that I use to-day.”
The music had died down as the ceremony began and now a long
cheer floated in at the window, followed by intermittent cries of “Yea-ea-ea!”
and finally by a burst of jazz as the dancing began.
“We’re getting old,” said Daisy. “If we were young we’d rise
and dance.”
“Remember Biloxi,” Jordan warned her. “Where’d you know him,
Tom?”
“Biloxi?” He concentrated with an effort. “I didn’t know
him. He was a friend of Daisy’s.”
“He was not,” she denied. “I’d never seen him before. He
came down in the private car.”
“Well, he said he knew you. He said he was raised in
Louisville. Asa Bird brought him around at the last minute and asked if we had
room for him.”
Jordan smiled.
“He was probably bumming his way home. He told me he was
president of your class at Yale.”
Tom and I looked at each other blankly.
“Biloxi?”
“First place, we didn’t have any president ——”
Gatsby’s foot beat a short, restless tattoo and Tom eyed him
suddenly.
“By the way, Mr. Gatsby, I understand you’re an Oxford man.”
“Not exactly.”
“Oh, yes, I understand you went to Oxford.”
“Yes — I went there.”
A pause. Then Tom’s voice, incredulous and insulting: “You
must have gone there about the time Biloxi went to New Haven.”
Another pause. A waiter knocked and came in with crushed
mint and ice but, the silence was unbroken by his “thank you”and the soft
closing of the door. This tremendous detail was to be cleared up at last.
“I told you I went there,” said Gatsby.
“I heard you, but I’d like to know when.”
“It was in nineteen-nineteen, I only stayed five months.
That’s why I can’t really call myself an Oxford man.”
Tom glanced around to see if we mirrored his unbelief. But
we were all looking at Gatsby.
“It was an opportunity they gave to some of the officers
after the Armistice,” he continued. “We could go to any of the universities in
England or France.”
I wanted to get up and slap him on the back. I had one of
those renewals of complete faith in him that I’d experienced before.
Daisy rose, smiling faintly, and went to the table.
“Open the whiskey, Tom,” she ordered, “and I’ll make you a
mint julep. Then you won’t seem so stupid to yourself. . . . Look at the mint!”
“Wait a minute,” snapped Tom, “I want to ask Mr. Gatsby one
more question.”
“Go on,” Gatsby said politely.
“What kind of a row are you trying to cause in my house
anyhow?”
They were out in the open at last and Gatsby was content.
“He isn’t causing a row.” Daisy looked desperately from one
to the other. “You’re causing a row. Please have a little self-control.”
“Self-control!” Repeated Tom incredulously. “I suppose the
latest thing is to sit back and let Mr. Nobody from Nowhere make love to your
wife. Well, if that’s the idea you can count me out. . . . Nowadays people
begin by sneering at family life and family institutions, and next they’ll
throw everything overboard and have intermarriage between black and white.”
Flushed with his impassioned gibberish, he saw himself
standing alone on the last barrier of civilization.
“We’re all white here,” murmured Jordan.
“I know I’m not very popular. I don’t give big parties. I
suppose you’ve got to make your house into a pigsty in order to have any
friends — in the modern world.”
Angry as I was, as we all were, I was tempted to laugh
whenever he opened his mouth. The transition from libertine to prig was so
complete.
“I’ve got something to tell you, old sport ——” began
Gatsby. But Daisy guessed at his intention.
“Please don’t!” she interrupted helplessly. “Please let’s
all go home. Why don’t we all go home?”
“That’s a good idea.” I got up. “Come on, Tom. Nobody wants
a drink.”
“I want to know what Mr. Gatsby has to tell me.”
“Your wife doesn’t love you,” said Gatsby. “She’s never
loved you. She loves me.”
“You must be crazy!” exclaimed Tom automatically.
Gatsby sprang to his feet, vivid with excitement.
“She never loved you, do you hear?” he cried. “She only
married you because I was poor and she was tired of waiting for me. It was a
terrible mistake, but in her heart she never loved any one except me!”
At this point Jordan and I tried to go, but Tom and Gatsby
insisted with competitive firmness that we remain — as though neither of them
had anything to conceal and it would be a privilege to partake vicariously of
their emotions.
“Sit down, Daisy,” Tom’s voice groped unsuccessfully for the
paternal note. “What’s been going on? I want to hear all about it.”
“I told you what’s been going on,” said Gatsby. “Going on
for five years — and you didn’t know.”
Tom turned to Daisy sharply.
“You’ve been seeing this fellow for five years?”
“Not seeing,” said Gatsby. “No, we couldn’t meet. But both
of us loved each other all that time, old sport, and you didn’t know. I used to
laugh sometimes.”— but there was no laughter in his eyes ——” to think that you
didn’t know.”
“Oh — that’s all.” Tom tapped his thick fingers together
like a clergyman and leaned back in his chair.
“You’re crazy!” he exploded. “I can’t speak about what
happened five years ago, because I didn’t know Daisy then — and I’ll be damned
if I see how you got within a mile of her unless you brought the groceries to
the back door. But all the rest of that’s a God damned lie. Daisy loved me when
she married me and she loves me now.”
“No,” said Gatsby, shaking his head.
“She does, though. The trouble is that sometimes she gets
foolish ideas in her head and doesn’t know what she’s doing.” He nodded sagely.
“And what’s more, I love Daisy too. Once in a while I go off on a spree and
make a fool of myself, but I always come back, and in my heart I love her all
the time.”
“You’re revolting,” said Daisy. She turned to me, and her
voice, dropping an octave lower, filled the room with thrilling scorn: “Do you
know why we left Chicago? I’m surprised that they didn’t treat you to the story
of that little spree.”
Gatsby walked over and stood beside her.
“Daisy, that’s all over now,” he said earnestly. “It doesn’t
matter any more. Just tell him the truth — that you never loved him — and it’s
all wiped out forever.”
She looked at him blindly. “Why — how could I love him —
possibly?”
“You never loved him.”
She hesitated. Her eyes fell on Jordan and me with a sort of
appeal, as though she realized at last what she was doing— and as though she
had never, all along, intended doing anything at all. But it was done now. It
was too late.
“I never loved him,” she said, with perceptible reluctance.
“Not at Kapiolani?” demanded Tom suddenly.
“No.”
From the ballroom beneath, muffled and suffocating chords
were drifting up on hot waves of air.
“Not that day I carried you down from the Punch Bowl to keep
your shoes dry?” There was a husky tenderness in his tone.. .. “Daisy?”
“Please don’t.” Her voice was cold, but the rancor was gone
from it. She looked at Gatsby. “There, Jay,” she said —but her hand as she
tried to light a cigarette was trembling. Suddenly she threw the cigarette and
the burning match on the carpet.
“Oh, you want too much!” she cried to Gatsby. “I love you
now — isn’t that enough? I can’t help what’s past.” She began to sob helplessly.
“I did love him once — but I loved you too.”
Gatsby’s eyes opened and closed.
“You loved me too?” he repeated.
“Even that’s a lie,” said Tom savagely. “She didn’t know you
were alive. Why — there’re things between Daisy and me that you’ll never know,
things that neither of us can ever forget.”
The words seemed to bite physically into Gatsby.
“I want to speak to Daisy alone,” he insisted. “She’s all
excited now ——”
“Even alone I can’t say I never loved Tom,” she admitted in
a pitiful voice. “It wouldn’t be true.”
“Of course it wouldn’t,” agreed Tom.
She turned to her husband.
“As if it mattered to you,” she said.
“Of course it matters. I’m going to take better care of you
from now on.”
“You don’t understand,” said Gatsby, with a touch of panic.
“You’re not going to take care of her any more.”
“I’m not?” Tom opened his eyes wide and laughed. He could
afford to control himself now. “Why’s that?”
“Daisy’s leaving you.”
“Nonsense.”
“I am, though,” she said with a visible effort.
“She’s not leaving me!” Tom’s words suddenly leaned down
over Gatsby. “Certainly not for a common swindler who’d have to steal the ring
he put on her finger.”
“I won’t stand this!” cried Daisy. “Oh, please let’s get
out.”
“Who are you, anyhow?” broke out Tom. “You’re one of that
bunch that hangs around with Meyer Wolfsheim — that much I happen to know. I’ve
made a little investigation into your affairs — and I’ll carry it further
to-morrow.”
“You can suit yourself about that, old sport,” said Gatsby
steadily.
“I found out what your ‘drug-stores’ were.” He turned to us
and spoke rapidly. “He and this Wolfsheim bought up a lot of side-street
drug-stores here and in Chicago and sold grain alcohol over the counter. That’s
one of his little stunts. I picked him for a bootlegger the first time I saw
him, and I wasn’t far wrong.”
“What about it?” said Gatsby politely. “I guess your friend
Walter Chase wasn’t too proud to come in on it.”
“And you left him in the lurch, didn’t you? You let him go
to jail for a month over in New Jersey. God! You ought to hear Walter on the
subject of you.”
“He came to us dead broke. He was very glad to pick up some
money, old sport.”
“Don’t you call me ‘old sport’!” cried Tom. Gatsby said
nothing. “Walter could have you up on the betting laws too, but Wolfsheim scared
him into shutting his mouth.”
That unfamiliar yet recognizable look was back again in
Gatsby’s face.
“That drug-store business was just small change,” continued
Tom slowly, “but you’ve got something on now that Walter’s afraid to tell me
about.”
I glanced at Daisy, who was staring terrified between Gatsby
and her husband, and at Jordan, who had begun to balance an invisible but
absorbing object on the tip of her chin. Then I turned back to Gatsby — and was
startled at his expression. He looked — and this is said in all contempt for
the babbled slander of his garden — as if he had “killed a man.” For a moment
the set of his face could be described in just that fantastic way.
It passed, and he began to talk excitedly to Daisy, denying
everything, defending his name against accusations that had not been made. But
with every word she was drawing further and further into herself, so he gave
that up, and only the dead dream fought on as the afternoon slipped away,
trying to touch what was no longer tangible, struggling unhappily,
undespairingly, toward that lost voice across the room.
The voice begged again to go.
“please, Tom! I can’t stand this any more.”
Her frightened eyes told that whatever intentions, whatever
courage, she had had, were definitely gone.
“You two start on home, Daisy,” said Tom. “In Mr. Gatsby’s
car.”
She looked at Tom, alarmed now, but he insisted with
magnanimous scorn.
“Go on. He won’t annoy you. I think he realizes that his
presumptuous little flirtation is over.”
They were gone, without a word, snapped out, made
accidental, isolated, like ghosts, even from our pity.
After a moment Tom got up and began wrapping the unopened
bottle of whiskey in the towel.
“Want any of this stuff? Jordan? . . . Nick?”
I didn’t answer.
“Nick?” He asked again.
“What?”
“Want any?”
“No . . . I just remembered that to-day’s my birthday.”
I was thirty. Before me stretched the portentous, menacing
road of a new decade.
It was seven o’clock when we got into the coupe with him and
started for Long Island. Tom talked incessantly, exulting and laughing, but his
voice was as remote from Jordan and me as the foreign clamor on the sidewalk or
the tumult of the elevated overhead. Human sympathy has its limits, and we were
content to let all their tragic arguments fade with the city lights behind.
Thirty — the promise of a decade of loneliness, a thinning list of single men
to know, a thinning brief-case of enthusiasm, thinning hair. But there was
Jordan beside me, who, unlike Daisy, was too wise ever to carry well-forgotten
dreams from age to age. As we passed over the dark bridge her wan face fell
lazily against my coat’s shoulder and the formidable stroke of thirty died away
with the reassuring pressure of her hand.
So we drove on toward death through the cooling twilight.
The young Greek, Michaelis, who ran the coffee joint beside
the ashheaps was the principal witness at the inquest. He had slept through the
heat until after five, when he strolled over to the garage, and found George
Wilson sick in his office — really sick, pale as his own pale hair and shaking
all over. Michaelis advised him to go to bed, but Wilson refused, saying that
he’d miss a lot of business if he did. While his neighbor was trying to
persuade him a violent racket broke out overhead.
“I’ve got my wife locked in up there,” explained Wilson
calmly. “She’s going to stay there till the day after to-morrow, and then we’re
going to move away.”
Michaelis was astonished; they had been neighbors for four
years, and Wilson had never seemed faintly capable of such a statement.
Generally he was one of these worn-out men: when he wasn’t working, he sat on a
chair in the doorway and stared at the people and the cars that passed along
the road. When any one spoke to him he invariably laughed in an agreeable,
colorless way. He was his wife’s man and not his own.
So naturally Michaelis tried to find out what had happened,
but Wilson wouldn’t say a word — instead he began to throw curious, suspicious
glances at his visitor and ask him what he’d been doing at certain times on
certain days. Just as the latter was getting uneasy, some workmen came past the
door bound for his restaurant, and Michaelis took the opportunity to get away,
intending to come back later. But he didn’t. He supposed he forgot to, that’s
all. When he came outside again, a little after seven, he was reminded of the
conversation because he heard Mrs. Wilson’s voice, loud and scolding, down-stairs
in the garage.
“Beat me!” he heard her cry. “Throw me down and beat me, you
dirty little coward!”
A moment later she rushed out into the dusk, waving her
hands and shouting — before he could move from his door the business was over.
The “death car,” as the newspapers called it, didn’t stop;
it came out of the gathering darkness, wavered tragically for a moment, and
then disappeared around the next bend. Michaelis wasn’t even sure of its color
— he told the first policeman that it was light green. The other car, the one
going toward New York, came to rest a hundred yards beyond, and its driver
hurried back to where Myrtle Wilson, her life violently extinguished, knelt in
the road and mingled her thick dark blood with the dust.
Michaelis and this man reached her first, but when they had
torn open her shirtwaist, still damp with perspiration, they saw that her left
breast was swinging loose like a flap, and there was no need to listen for the
heart beneath. The mouth was wide open and ripped at the corners, as though she
had choked a little in giving up the tremendous vitality she had stored so
long.
We saw the three or four automobiles and the crowd when we
were still some distance away.
“Wreck!” said Tom. “That’s good. Wilson’ll have a little
business at last.”
He slowed down, but still without any intention of stopping,
until, as we came nearer, the hushed, intent faces of the people at the garage
door made him automatically put on the brakes.
“We’ll take a look,” he said doubtfully, “just a look.”
I became aware now of a hollow, wailing sound which issued
incessantly from the garage, a sound which as we got out of the coupe and
walked toward the door resolved itself into the words “Oh, my God!” uttered
over and over in a gasping moan.
“There’s some bad trouble here,” said Tom excitedly.
He reached up on tiptoes and peered over a circle of heads
into the garage, which was lit only by a yellow light in a swinging wire basket
overhead. Then he made a harsh sound in his throat, and with a violent
thrusting movement of his powerful arms pushed his way through.
The circle closed up again with a running murmur of
expostulation; it was a minute before I could see anything at all. Then new
arrivals deranged the line, and Jordan and I were pushed suddenly inside.
Myrtle Wilson’s body, wrapped in a blanket, and then in
another blanket, as though she suffered from a chill in the hot night, lay on a
work-table by the wall, and Tom, with his back to us, was bending over it,
motionless. Next to him stood a motorcycle policeman taking down names with
much sweat and correction in a little book. At first I couldn’t find the source
of the high, groaning words that echoed clamorously through the bare garage —
then I saw Wilson standing on the raised threshold of his office, swaying back
and forth and holding to the doorposts with both hands. Some man was talking to
him in a low voice and attempting, from time to time, to lay a hand on his
shoulder, but Wilson neither heard nor saw. His eyes would drop slowly from the
swinging light to the laden table by the wall, and then jerk back to the light
again, and he gave out incessantly his high, horrible call:
“Oh, my Ga-od! Oh, my Ga-od! oh, Ga-od! oh, my Ga-od!”
Presently Tom lifted his head with a jerk and, after staring
around the garage with glazed eyes, addressed a mumbled incoherent remark to
the policeman.
“M-a-y-,” the policeman was saying, “-o ——”
“No, r-,” corrected the man, “M-a-v-r-o ——”
“Listen to me!” muttered Tom fiercely.
“r” said the policeman, “o ——”
“g ——”
“g ——” He looked up as Tom’s broad hand fell sharply on his
shoulder. “What you want, fella?”
“What happened? — that’s what I want to know.”
“Auto hit her. Ins’antly killed.”
“Instantly killed,” repeated Tom, staring.
“She ran out ina road. Son-of-a-bitch didn’t even stopus
car.”
“There was two cars,” said Michaelis, “one comin’, one
goin’, see?”
“Going where?” asked the policeman keenly.
“One goin’ each way. Well, she.”— his hand rose toward the
blankets but stopped half way and fell to his side ——” she ran out there an’
the one comin’ from N’york knock right into her, goin’ thirty or forty miles an
hour.”
“What’s the name of this place here?” demanded the officer.
“Hasn’t got any name.”
A pale well-dressed negro stepped near.
“It was a yellow car,” he said, “big yellow car. New.”
“See the accident?” asked the policeman.
“No, but the car passed me down the road, going faster’n
forty. Going fifty, sixty.”
“Come here and let’s have your name. Look out now. I want to
get his name.”
Some words of this conversation must have reached Wilson,
swaying in the office door, for suddenly a new theme found voice among his
gasping cries:
“You don’t have to tell me what kind of car it was! I know
what kind of car it was!”
Watching Tom, I saw the wad of muscle back of his shoulder
tighten under his coat. He walked quickly over to Wilson and, standing in front
of him, seized him firmly by the upper arms.
“You’ve got to pull yourself together,” he said with
soothing gruffness.
Wilson’s eyes fell upon Tom; he started up on his tiptoes
and then would have collapsed to his knees had not Tom held him upright.
“Listen,” said Tom, shaking him a little. “I just got here a
minute ago, from New York. I was bringing you that coupe we’ve been talking
about. That yellow car I was driving this afternoon wasn’t mine — do you hear?
I haven’t seen it all afternoon.”
Only the negro and I were near enough to hear what he said,
but the policeman caught something in the tone and looked over with truculent
eyes.
“What’s all that?” he demanded.
“I’m a friend of his.” Tom turned his head but kept his
hands firm on Wilson’s body. “He says he knows the car that did it . . . it was
a yellow car.”
Some dim impulse moved the policeman to look suspiciously at
Tom.
“And what color’s your car?”
“It’s a blue car, a coupe.”
“We’ve come straight from New York,” I said.
Some one who had been driving a little behind us confirmed
this, and the policeman turned away.
“Now, if you’ll let me have that name again correct ——”
Picking up Wilson like a doll, Tom carried him into the office, set him down in
a chair, and came back.
“If somebody’ll come here and sit with him,” he snapped
authoritatively. He watched while the two men standing closest glanced at each
other and went unwillingly into the room. Then Tom shut the door on them and
came down the single step, his eyes avoiding the table. As he passed close to
me he whispered: “Let’s get out.”
Self-consciously, with his authoritative arms breaking the
way, we pushed through the still gathering crowd, passing a hurried doctor,
case in hand, who had been sent for in wild hope half an hour ago.
Tom drove slowly until we were beyond the bend — then his
foot came down hard, and the coupe raced along through the night. In a little
while I heard a low husky sob, and saw that the tears were overflowing down his
face.
“The God damned coward!” he whimpered. “He didn’t even stop
his car.”
The Buchanans’ house floated suddenly toward us through the
dark rustling trees. Tom stopped beside the porch and looked up at the second
floor, where two windows bloomed with light among the vines.
“Daisy’s home,” he said. As we got out of the car he glanced
at me and frowned slightly.
“I ought to have dropped you in West Egg, Nick. There’s
nothing we can do to-night.”
A change had come over him, and he spoke gravely, and with
decision. As we walked across the moonlight gravel to the porch he disposed of
the situation in a few brisk phrases.
“I’ll telephone for a taxi to take you home, and while
you’re waiting you and Jordan better go in the kitchen and have them get you
some supper — if you want any.” He opened the door. “Come in.”
“No, thanks. But I’d be glad if you’d order me the taxi.
I’ll wait outside.”
Jordan put her hand on my arm.
“Won’t you come in, Nick?”
“No, thanks.”
I was feeling a little sick and I wanted to be alone. But
Jordan lingered for a moment more.
“It’s only half-past nine,” she said.
I’d be damned if I’d go in; I’d had enough of all of them
for one day, and suddenly that included Jordan too. She must have seen
something of this in my expression, for she turned abruptly away and ran up the
porch steps into the house. I sat down for a few minutes with my head in my
hands, until I heard the phone taken up inside and the butler’s voice calling a
taxi. Then I walked slowly down the drive away from the house, intending to
wait by the gate.
I hadn’t gone twenty yards when I heard my name and Gatsby
stepped from between two bushes into the path. I must have felt pretty weird by
that time, because I could think of nothing except the luminosity of his pink
suit under the moon.
“What are you doing?” I inquired.
“Just standing here, old sport.”
Somehow, that seemed a despicable occupation. For all I knew
he was going to rob the house in a moment; I wouldn’t have been surprised to
see sinister faces, the faces of ‘Wolfsheim’s people,’ behind him in the dark
shrubbery.
“Did you see any trouble on the road?” he asked after a
minute.
“Yes.”
He hesitated.
“Was she killed?”
“Yes.”
“I thought so; I told Daisy I thought so. It’s better that
the shock should all come at once. She stood it pretty well.”
He spoke as if Daisy’s reaction was the only thing that
mattered.
“I got to West Egg by a side road,” he went on, “and left
the car in my garage. I don’t think anybody saw us, but of course I can’t be
sure.”
I disliked him so much by this time that I didn’t find it
necessary to tell him he was wrong.
“Who was the woman?” he inquired.
“Her name was Wilson. Her husband owns the garage. How the
devil did it happen?”
“Well, I tried to swing the wheel ——” He broke off, and
suddenly I guessed at the truth.
“Was Daisy driving?”
“Yes,” he said after a moment, “but of course I’ll say I
was. You see, when we left New York she was very nervous and she thought it
would steady her to drive — and this woman rushed out at us just as we were
passing a car coming the other way. It all happened in a minute, but it seemed
to me that she wanted to speak to us, thought we were somebody she knew. Well,
first Daisy turned away from the woman toward the other car, and then she lost
her nerve and turned back. The second my hand reached the wheel I felt the
shock — it must have killed her instantly.”
“It ripped her open ——”
“Don’t tell me, old sport.” He winced. “Anyhow — Daisy
stepped on it. I tried to make her stop, but she couldn’t, so I pulled on the
emergency brake. Then she fell over into my lap and I drove on.
“She’ll be all right to-morrow,” he said presently. “I’m
just going to wait here and see if he tries to bother her about that
unpleasantness this afternoon. She’s locked herself into her room, and if he
tries any brutality she’s going to turn the light out and on again.”
“He won’t touch her,’ I said. “He’s not thinking about her.”
“I don’t trust him, old sport.”
“How long are you going to wait?”
“All night, if necessary. Anyhow, till they all go to bed.”
A new point of view occurred to me. Suppose Tom found out
that Daisy had been driving. He might think he saw a connection in it — he
might think anything. I looked at the house; there were two or three bright
windows down-stairs and the pink glow from Daisy’s room on the second floor.
“You wait here,” I said. “I’ll see if there’s any sign of a
commotion.”
I walked back along the border of the lawn, traversed the
gravel softly, and tiptoed up the veranda steps. The drawing-room curtains were
open, and I saw that the room was empty. Crossing the porch where we had dined
that June night three months before, I came to a small rectangle of light which
I guessed was the pantry window. The blind was drawn, but I found a rift at the
sill.
Daisy and Tom were sitting opposite each other at the
kitchen table, with a plate of cold fried chicken between them, and two bottles
of ale. He was talking intently across the table at her, and in his earnestness
his hand had fallen upon and covered her own. Once in a while she looked up at
him and nodded in agreement.
They weren’t happy, and neither of them had touched the
chicken or the ale — and yet they weren’t unhappy either. There was an
unmistakable air of natural intimacy about the picture, and anybody would have
said that they were conspiring together.
As I tiptoed from the porch I heard my taxi feeling its way
along the dark road toward the house. Gatsby was waiting where I had left him
in the drive.
“Is it all quiet up there?” he asked anxiously.
“Yes, it’s all quiet.” I hesitated. “You’d better come home
and get some sleep.”
He shook his head.
“I want to wait here till Daisy goes to bed. Good night, old
sport.”
He put his hands in his coat pockets and turned back eagerly
to his scrutiny of the house, as though my presence marred the sacredness of
the vigil. So I walked away and left him standing there in the moonlight —
watching over nothing.
Chapter 8
I couldn’t sleep all night; a fog-horn was groaning
incessantly on the Sound, and I tossed half-sick between grotesque reality and
savage, frightening dreams. Toward dawn I heard a taxi go up Gatsby’s drive,
and immediately I jumped out of bed and began to dress — I felt that I had
something to tell him, something to warn him about, and morning would be too
late.
Crossing his lawn, I saw that his front door was still open
and he was leaning against a table in the hall, heavy with dejection or sleep.
“Nothing happened,” he said wanly. “I waited, and about four
o’clock she came to the window and stood there for a minute and then turned out
the light.”
His house had never seemed so enormous to me as it did that
night when we hunted through the great rooms for cigarettes. We pushed aside
curtains that were like pavilions, and felt over innumerable feet of dark wall
for electric light switches — once I tumbled with a sort of splash upon the
keys of a ghostly piano. There was an inexplicable amount of dust everywhere,
and the rooms were musty, as though they hadn’t been aired for many days. I
found the humidor on an unfamiliar table, with two stale, dry cigarettes
inside. Throwing open the French windows of the drawing-room, we sat smoking
out into the darkness.
“You ought to go away,” I said. “It’s pretty certain they’ll
trace your car.”
“Go away now, old sport?”
“Go to Atlantic City for a week, or up to Montreal.”
He wouldn’t consider it. He couldn’t possibly leave Daisy
until he knew what she was going to do. He was clutching at some last hope and
I couldn’t bear to shake him free.
It was this night that he told me the strange story of his
youth with Dan Cody — told it to me because “Jay Gatsby.”had broken up like
glass against Tom’s hard malice, and the long secret extravaganza was played
out. I think that he would have acknowledged anything now, without reserve, but
he wanted to talk about Daisy.
She was the first “nice” girl he had ever known. In various
unrevealed capacities he had come in contact with such people, but always with
indiscernible barbed wire between. He found her excitingly desirable. He went
to her house, at first with other officers from Camp Taylor, then alone. It
amazed him — he had never been in such a beautiful house before, but what gave
it an air of breathless intensity, was that Daisy lived there — it was as
casual a thing to her as his tent out at camp was to him. There was a ripe
mystery about it, a hint of bedrooms up-stairs more beautiful and cool than
other bedrooms, of gay and radiant activities taking place through its
corridors, and of romances that were not musty and laid away already in
lavender but fresh and breathing and redolent of this year’s shining motor-cars
and of dances whose flowers were scarcely withered. It excited him, too, that
many men had already loved Daisy — it increased her value in his eyes. He felt
their presence all about the house, pervading the air with the shades and
echoes of still vibrant emotions.
But he knew that he was in Daisy’s house by a colossal
accident. However glorious might be his future as Jay Gatsby, he was at present
a penniless young man without a past, and at any moment the invisible cloak of
his uniform might slip from his shoulders. So he made the most of his time. He
took what he could get, ravenously and unscrupulously —eventually he took Daisy
one still October night, took her because he had no real right to touch her hand.
He might have despised himself, for he had certainly taken
her under false pretenses. I don’t mean that he had traded on his phantom
millions, but he had deliberately given Daisy a sense of security; he let her
believe that he was a person from much the same stratum as herself — that he
was fully able to take care of her. As a matter of fact, he had no such
facilities — he had no comfortable family standing behind him, and he was
liable at the whim of an impersonal government to be blown anywhere about the
world.
But he didn’t despise himself and it didn’t turn out as he
had imagined. He had intended, probably, to take what he could and go — but now
he found that he had committed himself to the following of a grail. He knew
that Daisy was extraordinary, but he didn’t realize just how extraordinary a
“nice” girl could be. She vanished into her rich house, into her rich, full
life, leaving Gatsby — nothing. He felt married to her, that was all.
When they met again, two days later, it was Gatsby who was
breathless, who was, somehow, betrayed. Her porch was bright with the bought
luxury of star-shine; the wicker of the settee squeaked fashionably as she
turned toward him and he kissed her curious and lovely mouth. She had caught a
cold, and it made her voice huskier and more charming than ever, and Gatsby was
overwhelmingly aware of the youth and mystery that wealth imprisons and
preserves, of the freshness of many clothes, and of Daisy, gleaming like
silver, safe and proud above the hot struggles of the poor.
“I can’t describe to you how surprised I was to find out I
loved her, old sport. I even hoped for a while that she’d throw me over, but
she didn’t, because she was in love with me too. She thought I knew a lot
because I knew different things from her. . . . Well, there I was, ‘way off my
ambitions, getting deeper in love every minute, and all of a sudden I didn’t
care. What was the use of doing great things if I could have a better time
telling her what I was going to do?” On the last afternoon before he went
abroad, he sat with Daisy in his arms for a long, silent time. It was a cold
fall day, with fire in the room and her cheeks flushed. Now and then she moved
and he changed his arm a little, and once he kissed her dark shining hair. The
afternoon had made them tranquil for a while, as if to give them a deep memory
for the long parting the next day promised. They had never been closer in their
month of love, nor communicated more profoundly one with another, than when she
brushed silent lips against his coat’s shoulder or when he touched the end of
her fingers, gently, as though she were asleep.
He did extraordinarily well in the war. He was a captain
before he went to the front, and following the Argonne battles he got his
majority and the command of the divisional machine-guns. After the Armistice he
tried frantically to get home, but some complication or misunderstanding sent
him to Oxford instead. He was worried now — there was a quality of nervous
despair in Daisy’s letters. She didn’t see why he couldn’t come. She was
feeling the pressure of the world outside, and she wanted to see him and feel
his presence beside her and be reassured that she was doing the right thing
after all.
For Daisy was young and her artificial world was redolent of
orchids and pleasant, cheerful snobbery and orchestras which set the rhythm of
the year, summing up the sadness and suggestiveness of life in new tunes. All
night the saxophones wailed the hopeless comment of the Beale Street Blues
while a hundred pairs of golden and silver slippers shuffled the shining dust.
At the gray tea hour there were always rooms that throbbed incessantly with
this low, sweet fever, while fresh faces drifted here and there like rose
petals blown by the sad horns around the floor.
Through this twilight universe Daisy began to move again
with the season; suddenly she was again keeping half a dozen dates a day with
half a dozen men, and drowsing asleep at dawn with the beads and chiffon of an
evening dress tangled among dying orchids on the floor beside her bed. And all
the time something within her was crying for a decision. She wanted her life
shaped now, immediately — and the decision must be made by some force — of
love, of money, of unquestionable practicality — that was close at hand.
That force took shape in the middle of spring with the
arrival of Tom Buchanan. There was a wholesome bulkiness about his person and
his position, and Daisy was flattered. Doubtless there was a certain struggle
and a certain relief. The letter reached Gatsby while he was still at Oxford.
It was dawn now on Long Island and we went about opening the
rest of the windows down-stairs, filling the house with gray-turning,
gold-turning light. The shadow of a tree fell abruptly across the dew and
ghostly birds began to sing among the blue leaves. There was a slow, pleasant
movement in the air, scarcely a wind, promising a cool, lovely day.
“I don’t think she ever loved him.” Gatsby turned around
from a window and looked at me challengingly. “You must remember, old sport,
she was very excited this afternoon. He told her those things in a way that
frightened her — that made it look as if I was some kind of cheap sharper. And
the result was she hardly knew what she was saying.”
He sat down gloomily.
“Of course she might have loved him just for a minute, when
they were first married — and loved me more even then, do you see?”
Suddenly he came out with a curious remark.
“In any case,” he said, “it was just personal.”
What could you make of that, except to suspect some
intensity in his conception of the affair that couldn’t be measured?
He came back from France when Tom and Daisy were still on
their wedding trip, and made a miserable but irresistible journey to Louisville
on the last of his army pay. He stayed there a week, walking the streets where
their footsteps had clicked together through the November night and revisiting
the out-of-the-way places to which they had driven in her white car. Just as
Daisy’s house had always seemed to him more mysterious and gay than other
houses, so his idea of the city itself, even though she was gone from it, was
pervaded with a melancholy beauty.
He left feeling that if he had searched harder, he might
have found her — that he was leaving her behind. The day-coach — he was
penniless now — was hot. He went out to the open vestibule and sat down on a
folding-chair, and the station slid away and the backs of unfamiliar buildings
moved by. Then out into the spring fields, where a yellow trolley raced them
for a minute with people in it who might once have seen the pale magic of her
face along the casual street.
The track curved and now it was going away from the sun,
which as it sank lower, seemed to spread itself in benediction over the
vanishing city where she had drawn her breath. He stretched out his hand
desperately as if to snatch only a wisp of air, to save a fragment of the spot
that she had made lovely for him. But it was all going by too fast now for his
blurred eyes and he knew that he had lost that part of it, the freshest and the
best, forever.
It was nine o’clock when we finished breakfast and went out
on the porch. The night had made a sharp difference in the weather and there
was an autumn flavor in the air. The gardener, the last one of Gatsby’s former
servants, came to the foot of the steps.
“I’m going to drain the pool to-day, Mr. Gatsby. Leaves’ll
start falling pretty soon, and then there’s always trouble with the pipes.”
“Don’t do it to-day,” Gatsby answered. He turned to me
apologetically. “You know, old sport, I’ve never used that pool all summer?”
I looked at my watch and stood up.
“Twelve minutes to my train.”
I didn’t want to go to the city. I wasn’t worth a decent
stroke of work, but it was more than that — I didn’t want to leave Gatsby. I
missed that train, and then another, before I could get myself away.
“I’ll call you up,” I said finally.
“Do, old sport.”
“I’ll call you about noon.”
We walked slowly down the steps.
“I suppose Daisy’ll call too.” He looked at me anxiously, as
if he hoped I’d corroborate this.
“I suppose so.”
“Well, good-by.”
We shook hands and I started away. Just before I reached the
hedge I remembered something and turned around.
“They’re a rotten crowd,” I shouted across the lawn. “You’re
worth the whole damn bunch put together.”
I’ve always been glad I said that. It was the only
compliment I ever gave him, because I disapproved of him from beginning to end.
First he nodded politely, and then his face broke into that radiant and
understanding smile, as if we’d been in ecstatic cahoots on that fact all the time.
His gorgeous pink rag of a suit made a bright spot of color against the white
steps, and I thought of the night when I first came to his ancestral home,
three months before. The lawn and drive had been crowded with the faces of
those who guessed at his corruption — and he had stood on those steps,
concealing his incorruptible dream, as he waved them good-by.
I thanked him for his hospitality. We were always thanking
him for that — I and the others.
“Good-by,” I called. “I enjoyed breakfast, Gatsby.”
Up in the city, I tried for a while to list the quotations
on an interminable amount of stock, then I fell asleep in my swivel-chair. Just
before noon the phone woke me, and I started up with sweat breaking out on my
forehead. It was Jordan Baker; she often called me up at this hour because the
uncertainty of her own movements between hotels and clubs and private houses
made her hard to find in any other way. Usually her voice came over the wire as
something fresh and cool, as if a divot from a green golf-links had come
sailing in at the office window, but this morning it seemed harsh and dry.
“I’ve left Daisy’s house,” she said. “I’m at Hempstead, and
I’m going down to Southampton this afternoon.”
Probably it had been tactful to leave Daisy’s house, but the
act annoyed me, and her next remark made me rigid.
“You weren’t so nice to me last night.”
“How could it have mattered then?”
Silence for a moment. Then:
“However — I want to see you.”
“I want to see you, too.”
“Suppose I don’t go to Southampton, and come into town this
afternoon?”
“No — I don’t think this afternoon.”
“Very well.”
“It’s impossible this afternoon. Various ——”
We talked like that for a while, and then abruptly we
weren’t talking any longer. I don’t know which of us hung up with a sharp
click, but I know I didn’t care. I couldn’t have talked to her across a
tea-table that day if I never talked to her again in this world.
I called Gatsby’s house a few minutes later, but the line
was busy. I tried four times; finally an exasperated central told me the wire
was being kept open for long distance from Detroit. Taking out my time-table, I
drew a small circle around the three-fifty train. Then I leaned back in my
chair and tried to think. It was just noon.
When I passed the ashheaps on the train that morning I had
crossed deliberately to the other side of the car. I suppose there’d be a
curious crowd around there all day with little boys searching for dark spots in
the dust, and some garrulous man telling over and over what had happened, until
it became less and less real even to him and he could tell it no longer, and
Myrtle Wilson’s tragic achievement was forgotten. Now I want to go back a
little and tell what happened at the garage after we left there the night
before.
They had difficulty in locating the sister, Catherine. She
must have broken her rule against drinking that night, for when she arrived she
was stupid with liquor and unable to understand that the ambulance had already
gone to Flushing. When they convinced her of this, she immediately fainted, as
if that was the intolerable part of the affair. Some one, kind or curious, took
her in his car and drove her in the wake of her sister’s body.
Until long after midnight a changing crowd lapped up against
the front of the garage, while George Wilson rocked himself back and forth on
the couch inside. For a while the door of the office was open, and every one
who came into the garage glanced irresistibly through it. Finally someone said
it was a shame, and closed the door. Michaelis and several other men were with
him; first, four or five men, later two or three men. Still later Michaelis had
to ask the last stranger to wait there fifteen minutes longer, while he went
back to his own place and made a pot of coffee. After that, he stayed there
alone with Wilson until dawn.
About three o’clock the quality of Wilson’s incoherent
muttering changed — he grew quieter and began to talk about the yellow car. He
announced that he had a way of finding out whom the yellow car belonged to, and
then he blurted out that a couple of months ago his wife had come from the city
with her face bruised and her nose swollen.
But when he heard himself say this, he flinched and began to
cry “Oh, my God!” again in his groaning voice. Michaelis made a clumsy attempt
to distract him.
“How long have you been married, George? Come on there, try
and sit still a minute and answer my question. How long have you been married?”
“Twelve years.”
“Ever had any children? Come on, George, sit still — I asked
you a question. Did you ever have any children?”
The hard brown beetles kept thudding against the dull light,
and whenever Michaelis heard a car go tearing along the road outside it sounded
to him like the car that hadn’t stopped a few hours before. He didn’t like to
go into the garage, because the work bench was stained where the body had been
lying, so he moved uncomfortably around the office — he knew every object in it
before morning — and from time to time sat down beside Wilson trying to keep
him more quiet.
“Have you got a church you go to sometimes, George? Maybe
even if you haven’t been there for a long time? Maybe I could call up the
church and get a priest to come over and he could talk to you, see?”
“Don’t belong to any.”
“You ought to have a church, George, for times like this.
You must have gone to church once. Didn’t you get married in a church? Listen,
George, listen to me. Didn’t you get married in a church?”
“That was a long time ago.”
The effort of answering broke the rhythm of his rocking —
for a moment he was silent. Then the same half-knowing, half-bewildered look
came back into his faded eyes.
“Look in the drawer there,” he said, pointing at the desk.
“Which drawer?”
“That drawer — that one.”
Michaelis opened the drawer nearest his hand. There was
nothing in it but a small, expensive dog-leash, made of leather and braided
silver. It was apparently new.
“This?” he inquired, holding it up.
Wilson stared and nodded.
“I found it yesterday afternoon. She tried to tell me about
it, but I knew it was something funny.”
“You mean your wife bought it?”
“She had it wrapped in tissue paper on her bureau.”
Michaelis didn’t see anything odd in that, and he gave
Wilson a dozen reasons why his wife might have bought the dog-leash. But
conceivably Wilson had heard some of these same explanations before, from
Myrtle, because he began saying“Oh, my God!” again in a whisper — his comforter
left several explanations in the air.
“Then he killed her,” said Wilson. His mouth dropped open
suddenly.
“Who did?”
“I have a way of finding out.”
“You’re morbid, George,” said his friend. “This has been a
strain to you and you don’t know what you’re saying. You’d better try and sit
quiet till morning.”
“He murdered her.”
“It was an accident, George.”
Wilson shook his head. His eyes narrowed and his mouth widened
slightly with the ghost of a superior “Hm!”
“I know,” he said definitely, “I’m one of these trusting
fellas and I don’t think any harm to nobody, but when I get to know a thing I
know it. It was the man in that car. She ran out to speak to him and he wouldn’t
stop.”
Michaelis had seen this too, but it hadn’t occurred to him
that there was any special significance in it. He believed that Mrs. Wilson had
been running away from her husband, rather than trying to stop any particular
car.
“How could she of been like that?”
“She’s a deep one,” said Wilson, as if that answered the
question. “Ah-h-h ——”
He began to rock again, and Michaelis stood twisting the
leash in his hand.
“Maybe you got some friend that I could telephone for,
George?”
This was a forlorn hope — he was almost sure that Wilson had
no friend: there was not enough of him for his wife. He was glad a little later
when he noticed a change in the room, a blue quickening by the window, and
realized that dawn wasn’t far off. About five o’clock it was blue enough
outside to snap off the light.
Wilson’s glazed eyes turned out to the ashheaps, where small
gray clouds took on fantastic shape and scurried here and there in the faint
dawn wind.
“I spoke to her,” he muttered, after a long silence. “I told
her she might fool me but she couldn’t fool God. I took her to the window.”—
with an effort he got up and walked to the rear window and leaned with his face
pressed against it——” and I said ‘God knows what you’ve been doing, everything
you’ve been doing. You may fool me, but you can’t fool God!’”
Standing behind him, Michaelis saw with a shock that he was
looking at the eyes of Doctor T. J. Eckleburg, which had just emerged, pale and
enormous, from the dissolving night.
“God sees everything,” repeated Wilson.
“That’s an advertisement,” Michaelis assured him. Something
made him turn away from the window and look back into the room. But Wilson
stood there a long time, his face close to the window pane, nodding into the
twilight.
By six o’clock Michaelis was worn out, and grateful for the
sound of a car stopping outside. It was one of the watchers of the night before
who had promised to come back, so he cooked breakfast for three, which he and
the other man ate together. Wilson was quieter now, and Michaelis went home to
sleep; when he awoke four hours later and hurried back to the garage, Wilson
was gone.
His movements — he was on foot all the time — were afterward
traced to Port Roosevelt and then to Gad’s Hill, where he bought a sandwich
that he didn’t eat, and a cup of coffee. He must have been tired and walking
slowly, for he didn’t reach Gad’s Hill until noon. Thus far there was no
difficulty in accounting for his time — there were boys who had seen a man
“acting sort of crazy,” and motorists at whom he stared oddly from the side of
the road. Then for three hours he disappeared from view. The police, on the
strength of what he said to Michaelis, that he “had a way of finding
out,”supposed that he spent that time going from garage to garage thereabout,
inquiring for a yellow car. On the other hand, no garage man who had seen him
ever came forward, and perhaps he had an easier, surer way of finding out what
he wanted to know. By half-past two he was in West Egg, where he asked someone
the way to Gatsby’s house. So by that time he knew Gatsby’s name.
At two o’clock Gatsby put on his bathing-suit and left word
with the butler that if any one phoned word was to be brought to him at the
pool. He stopped at the garage for a pneumatic mattress that had amused his
guests during the summer, and the chauffeur helped him pump it up. Then he gave
instructions that the open car wasn’t to be taken out under any circumstances —
and this was strange, because the front right fender needed repair.
Gatsby shouldered the mattress and started for the pool.
Once he stopped and shifted it a little, and the chauffeur asked him if he
needed help, but he shook his head and in a moment disappeared among the
yellowing trees.
No telephone message arrived, but the butler went without
his sleep and waited for it until four o’clock — until long after there was any
one to give it to if it came. I have an idea that Gatsby himself didn’t believe
it would come, and perhaps he no longer cared. If that was true he must have
felt that he had lost the old warm world, paid a high price for living too long
with a single dream. He must have looked up at an unfamiliar sky through
frightening leaves and shivered as he found what a grotesque thing a rose is
and how raw the sunlight was upon the scarcely created grass. A new world,
material without being real, where poor ghosts, breathing dreams like air,
drifted fortuitously about . . . like that ashen, fantastic figure gliding
toward him through the amorphous trees.
The chauffeur — he was one of Wolfsheim’s proteges — heard
the shots — afterward he could only say that he hadn’t thought anything much
about them. I drove from the station directly to Gatsby’s house and my rushing
anxiously up the front steps was the first thing that alarmed any one. But they
knew then, I firmly believe. With scarcely a word said, four of us, the
chauffeur, butler, gardener, and I, hurried down to the pool.
There was a faint, barely perceptible movement of the water
as the fresh flow from one end urged its way toward the drain at the other with
little ripples that were hardly the shadows of waves, the laden mattress moved
irregularly down the pool. A small gust of wind that scarcely corrugated the
surface was enough to disturb its accidental course with its accidental burden.
The touch of a cluster of leaves revolved it slowly, tracing, like the leg of
compass, a thin red circle in the water.
It was after we started with Gatsby toward the house that
the gardener saw Wilson’s body a little way off in the grass, and the holocaust
was complete.
Chapter 9
After two years I remember the rest of that day, and that
night and the next day, only as an endless drill of police and photographers
and newspaper men in and out of Gatsby’s front door. A rope stretched across
the main gate and a policeman by it kept out the curious, but little boys soon
discovered that they could enter through my yard, and there were always a few
of them clustered open-mouthed about the pool. Someone with a positive manner,
perhaps a detective, used the expression “madman” as he bent over Wilson’s body
that afternoon, and the adventitious authority of his voice set the key for the
newspaper reports next morning.
Most of those reports were a nightmare — grotesque,
circumstantial, eager, and untrue. When Michaelis’s testimony at the inquest
brought to light Wilson’s suspicions of his wife I thought the whole tale would
shortly be served up in racy pasquinade — but Catherine, who might have said
anything, didn’t say a word. She showed a surprising amount of character about it
too — looked at the coroner with determined eyes under that corrected brow of
hers, and swore that her sister had never seen Gatsby, that her sister was
completely happy with her husband, that her sister had been into no mischief
whatever. She convinced herself of it, and cried into her handkerchief, as if
the very suggestion was more than she could endure. S. Wilson was reduced to a
man “deranged by grief” in order that the case might remain in its simplist
form. And it rested there.
But all this part of it seemed remote and unessential. I
found myself on Gatsby’s side, and alone. From the moment I telephoned news of
the catastrophe to West Egg village, every surmise about him, and every
practical question, was referred to me. At first I was surprised and confused;
then, as he lay in his house and didn’t move or breathe or speak, hour upon
hour, it grew upon me that I was responsible, because no one else was
interested — interested, I mean, with that intense personal interest to which
every one has some vague right at the end.
I called up Daisy half an hour after we found him, called
her instinctively and without hesitation. But she and Tom had gone away early
that afternoon, and taken baggage with them.
“Left no address?”
“No.”
“Say when they’d be back?”
“No.”
“Any idea where they are? How I could reach them?”
“I don’t know. Can’t say.”
I wanted to get somebody for him. I wanted to go into the
room where he lay and reassure him: “I’ll get somebody for you, Gatsby. Don’t
worry. Just trust me and I’ll get somebody for you ——”
Meyer Wolfsheim’s name wasn’t in the phone book. The butler
gave me his office address on Broadway, and I called Information, but by the
time I had the number it was long after five, and no one answered the phone.
“Will you ring again?”
“I’ve rung them three times.”
“It’s very important.”
“Sorry. I’m afraid no one’s there.”
I went back to the drawing-room and thought for an instant
that they were chance visitors, all these official people who suddenly filled
it. But, as they drew back the sheet and looked at Gatsby with unmoved eyes,
his protest continued in my brain:
“Look here, old sport, you’ve got to get somebody for me.
You’ve got to try hard. I can’t go through this alone.”
Some one started to ask me questions, but I broke away and
going up-stairs looked hastily through the unlocked parts of his desk — he’d
never told me definitely that his parents were dead. But there was nothing —
only the picture of Dan Cody, a token of forgotten violence, staring down from
the wall.
Next morning I sent the butler to New York with a letter to
Wolfsheim, which asked for information and urged him to come out on the next
train. That request seemed superfluous when I wrote it. I was sure he’d start
when he saw the newspapers, just as I was sure there’d be a wire from Daisy
before noon — but neither a wire nor Mr. Wolfsheim arrived; no one arrived
except more police and photographers and newspaper men. When the butler brought
back Wolfsheim’s answer I began to have a feeling of defiance, of scornful solidarity
between Gatsby and me against them all.
Dear Mr. Carraway. This
has been one of the most terrible shocks of my life to me I hardly can believe
it that it is true at all. Such a mad act as that man did should make us all
think. I cannot come down now as I am tied up in some very important business
and cannot get mixed up in this thing now. If there is anything I can do a
little later let me know in a letter by Edgar. I hardly know where I am when I
hear about a thing like this and am completely knocked down and out.
Yours truly Meyer Wolfshiem
and then hasty addenda beneath:
Let me know about the funeral etc. Do not know his family at
all.
When the phone rang that afternoon and Long Distance said
Chicago was calling I thought this would be Daisy at last. But the connection
came through as a man’s voice, very thin and far away.
“This is Slagle speaking . . . ”
“Yes?” The name was unfamiliar.
“Hell of a note, isn’t it? Get my wire?”
“There haven’t been any wires.”
“Young Parke’s in trouble,” he said rapidly. “They picked
him up when he handed the bonds over the counter. They got a circular from New
York giving ’em the numbers just five minutes before. What d’you know about
that, hey? You never can tell in these hick towns ——”
“Hello!” I interrupted breathlessly. “Look here — this isn’t
Mr. Gatsby. Mr. Gatsby’s dead.”
There was a long silence on the other end of the wire,
followed by an exclamation . . . then a quick squawk as the connection was
broken.
I think it was on the third day that a telegram signed Henry
C. Gatz arrived from a town in Minnesota. It said only that the sender was
leaving immediately and to postpone the funeral until he came.
It was Gatsby’s father, a solemn old man, very helpless and
dismayed, bundled up in a long cheap ulster against the warm September day. His
eyes leaked continuously with excitement, and when I took the bag and umbrella
from his hands he began to pull so incessantly at his sparse gray beard that I
had difficulty in getting off his coat. He was on the point of collapse, so I
took him into the music room and made him sit down while I sent for something
to eat. But he wouldn’t eat, and the glass of milk spilled from his trembling
hand.
“I saw it in the Chicago newspaper,” he said. “It was all in
the Chicago newspaper. I started right away.”
“I didn’t know how to reach you.” His eyes, seeing nothing,
moved ceaselessly about the room.
“It was a madman,” he said. “He must have been mad.”
“Wouldn’t you like some coffee?” I urged him.
“I don’t want anything. I’m all right now, Mr. ——”
“Carraway.”
“Well, I’m all right now. Where have they got Jimmy?” I took
him into the drawing-room, where his son lay, and left him there. Some little
boys had come up on the steps and were looking into the hall; when I told them
who had arrived, they went reluctantly away.
After a little while Mr. Gatz opened the door and came out,
his mouth ajar, his face flushed slightly, his eyes leaking isolated and
unpunctual tears. He had reached an age where death no longer has the quality
of ghastly surprise, and when he looked around him now for the first time and
saw the height and splendor of the hall and the great rooms opening out from it
into other rooms, his grief began to be mixed with an awed pride. I helped him
to a bedroom up-stairs; while he took off his coat and vest I told him that all
arrangements had been deferred until he came.
“I didn’t know what you’d want, Mr. Gatsby ——”
“Gatz is my name.”
“— Mr. Gatz. I thought you might want to take the body
West.”
He shook his head.
“Jimmy always liked it better down East. He rose up to his
position in the East. Were you a friend of my boy’s, Mr.—?”
“We were close friends.”
“He had a big future before him, you know. He was only a
young man, but he had a lot of brain power here.”
He touched his head impressively, and I nodded.
“If he’d of lived, he’d of been a great man. A man like
James J. Hill. He’d of helped build up the country.”
“That’s true,” I said, uncomfortably.
He fumbled at the embroidered coverlet, trying to take it
from the bed, and lay down stiffly — was instantly asleep.
That night an obviously frightened person called up, and
demanded to know who I was before he would give his name.
“This is Mr. Carraway,” I said.
“Oh!” He sounded relieved. “This is Klipspringer.” I was
relieved too, for that seemed to promise another friend at Gatsby’s grave. I
didn’t want it to be in the papers and draw a sightseeing crowd, so I’d been
calling up a few people myself. They were hard to find.
“The funeral’s to-morrow,” I said. “Three o’clock, here at
the house. I wish you’d tell anybody who’d be interested.”
“Oh, I will,” he broke out hastily. “Of course I’m not
likely to see anybody, but if I do.”
His tone made me suspicious.
“Of course you’ll be there yourself.”
“Well, I’ll certainly try. What I called up about is ——”
“Wait a minute,” I interrupted. “How about saying you’ll
come?”
“Well, the fact is — the truth of the matter is that I’m
staying with some people up here in Greenwich, and they rather expect me to be
with them to-morrow. In fact, there’s a sort of picnic or something. Of course
I’ll do my very best to get away.”
I ejaculated an unrestrained “Huh!” and he must have heard
me, for he went on nervously:
“What I called up about was a pair of shoes I left there. I
wonder if it’d be too much trouble to have the butler send them on. You see,
they’re tennis shoes, and I’m sort of helpless without them. My address is care
of B. F. ——”
I didn’t hear the rest of the name, because I hung up the
receiver.
After that I felt a certain shame for Gatsby — one gentleman
to whom I telephoned implied that he had got what he deserved. However, that
was my fault, for he was one of those who used to sneer most bitterly at Gatsby
on the courage of Gatsby’s liquor, and I should have known better than to call
him.
The morning of the funeral I went up to New York to see
Meyer Wolfsheim; I couldn’t seem to reach him any other way. The door that I
pushed open, on the advice of an elevator boy, was marked “The Swastika Holding
Company,” and at first there didn’t seem to be any one inside. But when I’d
shouted “hello” several times in vain, an argument broke out behind a
partition, and presently a lovely Jewess appeared at an interior door and
scrutinized me with black hostile eyes.
“Nobody’s in,” she said. “Mr. Wolfsheim’s gone to Chicago.”
The first part of this was obviously untrue, for someone had
begun to whistle “The Rosary,” tunelessly, inside.
“Please say that Mr. Carraway wants to see him.”
“I can’t get him back from Chicago, can I?”
At this moment a voice, unmistakably Wolfsheim’s, called
“Stella!” from the other side of the door.
“Leave your name on the desk,” she said quickly. “I’ll give
it to him when he gets back.”
“But I know he’s there.”
She took a step toward me and began to slide her hands
indignantly up and down her hips.
“You young men think you can force your way in here any
time,” she scolded. “We’re getting sickantired of it. When I say he’s in
Chicago, he’s in Chicago.”
I mentioned Gatsby.
“Oh — h!” She looked at me over again. “Will you just — What
was your name?”
She vanished. In a moment Meyer Wolfsheim stood solemnly in
the doorway, holding out both hands. He drew me into his office, remarking in a
reverent voice that it was a sad time for all of us, and offered me a cigar.
“My memory goes back to when I first met him,” he said. “A
young major just out of the army and covered over with medals he got in the
war. He was so hard up he had to keep on wearing his uniform because he
couldn’t buy some regular clothes. First time I saw him was when he come into Winebrenner’s
poolroom at Forty-third Street and asked for a job. He hadn’t eat anything for
a couple of days. ‘come on have some lunch with me,’ I sid. He ate more than
four dollars’ worth of food in half an hour.”
“Did you start him in business?” I inquired.
“Start him! I made him.”
“Oh.”
“I raised him up out of nothing, right out of the gutter. I
saw right away he was a fine-appearing, gentlemanly young man, and when he told
me he was at Oggsford I knew I could use him good. I got him to join up in the
American Legion and he used to stand high there. Right off he did some work for
a client of mine up to Albany. We were so thick like that in everything.”— he
held up two bulbous fingers ——” always together.”
I wondered if this partnership had included the World’s
Series transaction in 1919.
“Now he’s dead,” I said after a moment. “You were his
closest friend, so I know you’ll want to come to his funeral this afternoon.”
“I’d like to come.”
“Well, come then.”
The hair in his nostrils quivered slightly, and as he shook
his head his eyes filled with tears.
“I can’t do it — I can’t get mixed up in it,” he said.
“There’s nothing to get mixed up in. It’s all over now.”
“When a man gets killed I never like to get mixed up in it
in any way. I keep out. When I was a young man it was different — if a friend
of mine died, no matter how, I stuck with them to the end. You may think that’s
sentimental, but I mean it — to the bitter end.”
I saw that for some reason of his own he was determined not
to come, so I stood up.
“Are you a college man?” he inquired suddenly.
For a moment I thought he was going to suggest a
“gonnegtion,” but he only nodded and shook my hand.
“Let us learn to show our friendship for a man when he is
alive and not after he is dead,” he suggested. “After that my own rule is to
let everything alone.”
When I left his office the sky had turned dark and I got
back to West Egg in a drizzle. After changing my clothes I went next door and
found Mr. Gatz walking up and down excitedly in the hall. His pride in his son
and in his son’s possessions was continually increasing and now he had
something to show me.
“Jimmy sent me this picture.” He took out his wallet with
trembling fingers. “Look there.”
It was a photograph of the house, cracked in the corners and
dirty with many hands. He pointed out every detail to me eagerly. “Look there!”
and then sought admiration from my eyes. He had shown it so often that I think
it was more real to him now than the house itself.
“Jimmy sent it to me. I think it’s a very pretty picture. It
shows up well.”
“Very well. Had you seen him lately?”
“He come out to see me two years ago and bought me the house
I live in now. Of course we was broke up when he run off from home, but I see
now there was a reason for it. He knew he had a big future in front of him. And
ever since he made a success he was very generous with me.” He seemed reluctant
to put away the picture, held it for another minute, lingeringly, before my
eyes. Then he returned the wallet and pulled from his pocket a ragged old copy
of a book calledHopalong Cassidy.
“Look here, this is a book he had when he was a boy. It just
shows you.”
He opened it at the back cover and turned it around for me
to see. On the last fly-leaf was printed the wordSchedule, and the date
September 12, 1906, and underneath:
Rise from bed. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
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6.00 a.m.
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Dumbbell exercise and wall-scaling. . . . ..
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6.15-6.30 ”
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Study electricity, etc. . . . . . . . . . . .
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7.15-8.15 ”
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Work. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
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8.30-4.30 p.m.
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Baseball and sports. . . . . . . . . . . . .
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4.30-5.00 ”
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Practice elocution, poise and how to attain it
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5.00-6.00 ”
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Study needed inventions. . . . . . . . . . .
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7.00-9.00 ”
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General Resolves No
wasting time at Shafters or [a name, indecipherable] No more smokeing or
chewing Bath every other day Read one improving book or magazine per week Save
$5.00 {crossed out} $3.00 per week Be better to parents
“I come across this book by accident,” said the old man. “It
just shows you, don’t it?”
“It just shows you.”
“Jimmy was bound to get ahead. He always had some resolves
like this or something. Do you notice what he’s got about improving his mind?
He was always great for that. He told me I et like a hog once, and I beat him
for it.”
He was reluctant to close the book, reading each item aloud
and then looking eagerly at me. I think he rather expected me to copy down the
list for my own use.
A little before three the Lutheran minister arrived from
Flushing, and I began to look involuntarily out the windows for other cars. So
did Gatsby’s father. And as the time passed and the servants came in and stood
waiting in the hall, his eyes began to blink anxiously, and he spoke of the
rain in a worried, uncertain way. The minister glanced several times at his
watch, so I took him aside and asked him to wait for half an hour. But it
wasn’t any use. Nobody came.
About five o’clock our procession of three cars reached the
cemetery and stopped in a thick drizzle beside the gate —first a motor hearse,
horribly black and wet, then Mr. Gatz and the minister and I in the limousine,
and a little later four or five servants and the postman from West Egg in
Gatsby’s station wagon, all wet to the skin. As we started through the gate
into the cemetery I heard a car stop and then the sound of someone splashing
after us over the soggy ground. I looked around. It was the man with owl-eyed
glasses whom I had found marvelling over Gatsby’s books in the library one
night three months before.
I’d never seen him since then. I don’t know how he knew
about the funeral, or even his name. The rain poured down his thick glasses,
and he took them off and wiped them to see the protecting canvas unrolled from
Gatsby’s grave.
I tried to think about Gatsby then for a moment, but he was
already too far away, and I could only remember, without resentment, that Daisy
hadn’t sent a message or a flower. Dimly I heard someone murmur, “Blessed are
the dead that the rain falls on,” and then the owl-eyed man said “Amen to
that,” in a brave voice.
We straggled down quickly through the rain to the cars.
Owl-eyes spoke to me by the gate.
“I couldn’t get to the house,” he remarked.
“Neither could anybody else.”
“Go on!” He started. “Why, my God! they used to go there by
the hundreds.” He took off his glasses and wiped them again, outside and in.
“The poor son-of-a-bitch,” he said.
One of my most vivid memories is of coming back West from
prep school and later from college at Christmas time. Those who went farther
than Chicago would gather in the old dim Union Station at six o’clock of a
December evening, with a few Chicago friends, already caught up into their own
holiday gayeties, to bid them a hasty good-by. I remember the fur coats of the
girls returning from Miss This-or-that’s and the chatter of frozen breath and
the hands waving overhead as we caught sight of old acquaintances, and the
matchings of invitations: “Are you going to the Ordways’? the Herseys’? the
Schultzes’?” and the long green tickets clasped tight in our gloved hands. And
last the murky yellow cars of the Chicago, Milwaukee and St. Paul railroad
looking cheerful as Christmas itself on the tracks beside the gate.
When we pulled out into the winter night and the real snow,
our snow, began to stretch out beside us and twinkle against the windows, and
the dim lights of small Wisconsin stations moved by, a sharp wild brace came
suddenly into the air. We drew in deep breaths of it as we walked back from
dinner through the cold vestibules, unutterably aware of our identity with this
country for one strange hour, before we melted indistinguishably into it again.
That’s my Middle West — not the wheat or the prairies or the
lost Swede towns, but the thrilling returning trains of my youth, and the
street lamps and sleigh bells in the frosty dark and the shadows of holly
wreaths thrown by lighted windows on the snow. I am part of that, a little
solemn with the feel of those long winters, a little complacent from growing up
in the Carraway house in a city where dwellings are still called through
decades by a family’s name. I see now that this has been a story of the West,
after all — Tom and Gatsby, Daisy and Jordan and I, were all Westerners, and
perhaps we possessed some deficiency in common which made us subtly unadaptable
to Eastern life.
Even when the East excited me most, even when I was most
keenly aware of its superiority to the bored, sprawling, swollen towns beyond
the Ohio, with their interminable inquisitions which spared only the children
and the very old —even then it had always for me a quality of distortion. West
Egg, especially, still figures in my more fantastic dreams. I see it as a night
scene by El Greco: a hundred houses, at once conventional and grotesque,
crouching under a sullen, overhanging sky and a lustreless moon. In the
foreground four solemn men in dress suits are walking along the sidewalk with a
stretcher on which lies a drunken woman in a white evening dress. Her hand,
which dangles over the side, sparkles cold with jewels. Gravely the men turn in
at a house — the wrong house. But no one knows the woman’s name, and no one
cares.
After Gatsby’s death the East was haunted for me like that,
distorted beyond my eyes’ power of correction. So when the blue smoke of
brittle leaves was in the air and the wind blew the wet laundry stiff on the
line I decided to come back home.
There was one thing to be done before I left, an awkward,
unpleasant thing that perhaps had better have been let alone. But I wanted to
leave things in order and not just trust that obliging and indifferent sea to
sweep my refuse away. I saw Jordan Baker and talked over and around what had
happened to us together, and what had happened afterward to me, and she lay
perfectly still, listening, in a big chair.
She was dressed to play golf, and I remember thinking she
looked like a good illustration, her chin raised a little jauntily, her hair
the color of an autumn leaf, her face the same brown tint as the fingerless
glove on her knee. When I had finished she told me without comment that she was
engaged to another man. I doubted that, though there were several she could
have married at a nod of her head, but I pretended to be surprised. For just a
minute I wondered if I wasn’t making a mistake, then I thought it all over again
quickly and got up to say good-bye.
“Nevertheless you did throw me over,” said Jordan suddenly.
“You threw me over on the telephone. I don’t give a damn about you now, but it
was a new experience for me, and I felt a little dizzy for a while.”
We shook hands.
“Oh, and do you remember.”— she added ——” a conversation we
had once about driving a car?”
“Why — not exactly.”
“You said a bad driver was only safe until she met another
bad driver? Well, I met another bad driver, didn’t I? I mean it was careless of
me to make such a wrong guess. I thought you were rather an honest,
straightforward person. I thought it was your secret pride.”
“I’m thirty,” I said. “I’m five years too old to lie to
myself and call it honor.”
She didn’t answer. Angry, and half in love with her, and
tremendously sorry, I turned away.
One afternoon late in October I saw Tom Buchanan. He was
walking ahead of me along Fifth Avenue in his alert, aggressive way, his hands
out a little from his body as if to fight off interference, his head moving
sharply here and there, adapting itself to his restless eyes. Just as I slowed
up to avoid overtaking him he stopped and began frowning into the windows of a
jewelry store. Suddenly he saw me and walked back, holding out his hand.
“What’s the matter, Nick? Do you object to shaking hands
with me?”
“Yes. You know what I think of you.”
“You’re crazy, Nick,” he said quickly. “Crazy as hell. I
don’t know what’s the matter with you.”
“Tom,” I inquired, “what did you say to Wilson that
afternoon?” He stared at me without a word, and I knew I had guessed right
about those missing hours. I started to turn away, but he took a step after me
and grabbed my arm.
“I told him the truth,” he said. “He came to the door while
we were getting ready to leave, and when I sent down word that we weren’t in he
tried to force his way up-stairs. He was crazy enough to kill me if I hadn’t
told him who owned the car. His hand was on a revolver in his pocket every
minute he was in the house ——” He broke off defiantly. “What if I did tell him?
That fellow had it coming to him. He threw dust into your eyes just like he did
in Daisy’s, but he was a tough one. He ran over Myrtle like you’d run over a
dog and never even stopped his car.”
There was nothing I could say, except the one unutterable
fact that it wasn’t true.
“And if you think I didn’t have my share of suffering — look
here, when I went to give up that flat and saw that damn box of dog biscuits
sitting there on the sideboard, I sat down and cried like a baby. By God it was
awful ——”
I couldn’t forgive him or like him, but I saw that what he
had done was, to him, entirely justified. It was all very careless and
confused. They were careless people, Tom and Daisy — they smashed up things and
creatures and then retreated back into their money or their vast carelessness,
or whatever it was that kept them together, and let other people clean up the
mess they had made. . . .
I shook hands with him; it seemed silly not to, for I felt
suddenly as though I were talking to a child. Then he went into the jewelry
store to buy a pearl necklace — or perhaps only a pair of cuff buttons — rid of
my provincial squeamishness forever.
Gatsby’s house was still empty when I left — the grass on
his lawn had grown as long as mine. One of the taxi drivers in the village
never took a fare past the entrance gate without stopping for a minute and
pointing inside; perhaps it was he who drove Daisy and Gatsby over to East Egg
the night of the accident, and perhaps he had made a story about it all his
own. I didn’t want to hear it and I avoided him when I got off the train.
I spent my Saturday nights in New York because those
gleaming, dazzling parties of his were with me so vividly that I could still
hear the music and the laughter, faint and incessant, from his garden, and the
cars going up and down his drive. One night I did hear a material car there,
and saw its lights stop at his front steps. But I didn’t investigate. Probably
it was some final guest who had been away at the ends of the earth and didn’t
know that the party was over.
On the last night, with my trunk packed and my car sold to
the grocer, I went over and looked at that huge incoherent failure of a house
once more. On the white steps an obscene word, scrawled by some boy with a
piece of brick, stood out clearly in the moonlight, and I erased it, drawing my
shoe raspingly along the stone. Then I wandered down to the beach and sprawled
out on the sand.
Most of the big shore places were closed now and there were
hardly any lights except the shadowy, moving glow of a ferryboat across the
Sound. And as the moon rose higher the inessential houses began to melt away
until gradually I became aware of the old island here that flowered once for
Dutch sailors’ eyes — a fresh, green breast of the new world. Its vanished
trees, the trees that had made way for Gatsby’s house, had once pandered in
whispers to the last and greatest of all human dreams; for a transitory
enchanted moment man must have held his breath in the presence of this
continent, compelled into an aesthetic contemplation he neither understood nor
desired, face to face for the last time in history with something commensurate
to his capacity for wonder.
And as I sat there brooding on the old, unknown world, I
thought of Gatsby’s wonder when he first picked out the green light at the end
of Daisy’s dock. He had come a long way to this blue lawn, and his dream must
have seemed so close that he could hardly fail to grasp it. He did not know
that it was already behind him, somewhere back in that vast obscurity beyond
the city, where the dark fields of the republic rolled on under the night.
Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that
year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that’s no matter —
to-morrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther. . . . And one fine
morning——
So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back
ceaselessly into the past.